Lately I've been having lots of "off" moments that I don't know if they are mild dissociation or just normal zoning out
So, lately I've been having these moments often when I feel slightly "off", disconnected from myself and the surroundings, and my vision starts to unfocus and I have to think to "pull myself back". Sometimes, these moments make me want to cut myself in order to re-ground myself. Can these moments be mild dissociation?(side note, I've had a history of more severe dissociation episodes in the past, like losing time, feeling out of myself, and derealization)
So, lately I've been having these moments often when I feel slightly "off", disconnected from myself and the surroundings, and my vision starts to unfocus and I have to think to "pull myself back". Sometimes, these moments make me want to cut myself in order to re-ground myself. Can these moments be mild dissociation?(side note, I've had a history of more severe dissociation episodes in the past, like losing time, feeling out of myself, and derealization)
I'm asking this in the context of the doctor already having read a detailed report by a psychologist talking about the present symptoms and such
So, I just went to a particular psychiatrist for the first time today, and my main concern was the possibility of Borderline Personality Disorder. He read a document elaborated by my psychologist explaining all the symptoms I had and my other disorders, and then I told him about all my related symptoms - my unwavering fear of abandonment, extreme actions like self-harm and suicide attemps, instability in relationship and identity, past dissociative episodes, etc. He then said "that's a very clear Borderline case. You're like, classic Borderline." I just felt that maybe it was a bit too fast. Is it normal for psychiatrists to diagnose on the first appointment like this? Is this valid?
So, I just went to a particular psychiatrist for the first time today, and my main concern was the possibility of Borderline Personality Disorder. He read a document elaborated by my psychologist explaining all the symptoms I had and my other disorders, and then I told him about all my related symptoms - my unwavering fear of abandonment, extreme actions like self-harm and suicide attemps, instability in relationship and identity, past dissociative episodes, etc. He then said "that's a very clear Borderline case. You're like, classic Borderline." I just felt that maybe it was a bit too fast. Is it normal for psychiatrists to diagnose on the first appointment like this? Is this valid?
So, I just went to a particular psychiatrist for the first time today, and my main concern was the possibility of Borderline Personality Disorder. He read a document elaborated by my psychologist explaining all the symptoms I had and my other disorders, and then I told him about all my related symptoms - my unwavering fear of abandonment, extreme actions like self-harm and suicide attemps, instability in relationship and identity, past dissociative episodes, etc. He then said "that's a very clear Borderline case. You're like, classic Borderline." I just felt that maybe it was a bit too fast. Is it normal for psychiatrists to diagnose on the first appointment like this? Is this valid?
So, lately I've been having these moments often when I slightly feel "off", disconnected from myself and the surroundings, and my vision starts to unfocus and I have to think to "pulll myself back". Sometimes, these moments made me want to cut myself in order to re-ground myself. Can these moments be mild dissociation?
(side note, I've had a history of more severe dissociation episodes in the past, like losing time, feeling out of myself, and derealization(
So, lately I've been having these moments often when I very slightly feel "off", disconnected from myself and the surroundings, and my vision starts to unfocus and I have to think to "pulll myself back", as if zoning out. Sometimes, these moments made me want to cut myself in order to re-ground myself. Could this be mild dissociation?
So, lately I've been having these moments often when I very slightly feel "off", disconnected from myself and the surroundings, and my vision starts to unfocus and I have to think to "pulll myself back", as if zoning out. Sometimes, these moments made me want to cut myself in order to re-ground myself. Could this be mild dissociation?
Tem algum advogado disposto a conversar no PV comigo sobre dúvidas da legalidade de uma ação minha? Obrigada desde já.
I am autistic and I often feel like a hyperfixation consumes all of my being and I start relating to that hyperfixation to define my identity in the moment, but then suddenly it changes to a new one and the process restarts all over again (my hyperfixations usually only last 1-2 weeks). I've made a metaphor that each hyperfixation is like a colour, and one moment I'm entirely blue and then the next moment I'm entirely pink and then the next moment I'm entirely purple and it goes on, and all I wanted was to be able to be consistently colourful instead of one all-consuming thing at a time that defines but switches too quickly. My mom said she notices identity changes in me when my hyperfixations change, and not only that but also changes in my emotions and mood - stating that I'm usually in a much better mood if I'm anchored in a hyperfixation. She also said that starting on adolescence I would begin a pattern of fixating on something and my whole life would depend on it, only to then completely disregard that thing altogether and the cycle would continue. In adult life, she said, I still have the pattern of getting obsessed with something and then it quickly fading, but I keep some level of interest in the past topics even if everything changes. She said she can notice these changes in hyperfixations by the way I talk, the way I am, my emotions and mood. And also, when I don't have an active hyperfixation, I feel empty, lost, as if a big part of my core is missing.
Is this instability in hyperfixations, changes that happen too quickly, and the way my whole mood and way I see myself depend on them normal for autism itself? Or could there be something else interacting with it to cause this?
I wrote this poem to express the way I feel about them:
Be the shape of my self,
the meaning of my existence,
the purpose of my life;
Be EVERYTHING to me
Or be nothing, be purposeless, be meaningless.
It's all or nothing with me -
BE ALL
OR BE NOTHING
Beware, if you're going to gamble with me,
That the only options are FOLD and ALL-IN.
Be my meaning, my purpose, my self;
Or else you can be left to rot in the dust.
I'm quite frustrated because I'm suspected for BPD - both my doctor and my psychologist already said they consider it for me. So I tried to see if it would be possible to do a psychological evaluation for BPD, the provider talked to my psychologist, and their ultimate conclusion is that right now it's not a good time to evaluate for BPD because I'm constantly having "crisis" (like with self-harm and stuff). But that left me so confused, because like... isn't the fact that I'm having so many of these crisis a symptom of Borderline on its own, that they could assess? It kind of feels like they're refusing to give me a diagnosis just because.
Is there anyone with comorbid BPD and Bipolar Disorder who can tell me if they feel like BPD mood swings often trigger bipolar episodes? For example, you swing really down because you're feeling ignored and then that ends up becoming a depressive episode
Or you swing to euphoria because you're feeling loved by your FP and it turns into a hypomanic episode
Things like that