u/Fluffy-Bus-29

Every corporate email starts like this

Wish core-PO-rate wouldn't feel so used

Talking to the machine that eats dreams and sorrows

You don't get to pee cause you didn't finish the spreadsheet

You don't get to enjoy your meal break cause another issue is on the way

We are one big happy family with one kid that stays home

When his parents go on holiday in Japan for the weekends to come

If you don't comply completely with the program

All of us will turn against you until you leave the company

We don't care about your mental health

As the jokes about suicidal ideation are our way to make you stronger indeed

Greed green gossipp gaslight

Is your main course for today's lunch

Would you take it

Or would you prefer to be harassed ?

Have a nice day ,

The portrait of a corporate boss.

by Aurelia Cobzaru (Aura)

With all your might

You've changed my life

You come for a kiss

When you see that I am sad

And when I say ' I love you '

It seems you understand

Without me saying a word

You come running ...

You are the best cat 😺

Idk shit ,idk u,idk if u said something cause u cared ,idk if u said it as a mistake ,idk ...

So here it goes :

Not lost ,just at peace with myself

Grounded .I must stay grounded in psychology

Cause if I go to spirituality

I don't have much to share

Without getting the stare.

Mindfull.I must stay mindfully present

Cause if I go into my artistry

I have a lot to say about it

And I don't want it to get lost in the souce.

Greatful.I must stay greatfully not blinded

Cause if I go into my prayers

I start to talk like I'm in some kind of alternate reality

And I don't want my message to be disgusted as mental illness of sorts.

I know you don't love me

That doesn't mean my writings

Shouldn't explore my feeling or my thoughts

Such things as healing exists

I' m not loosing it and I 'm not lost .

I know for you it didn't meant much

That doesn't mean for me it didn't meant something extraordinary

It is my story ,it was my awakening

As it pains me to say it

It was never about you

It was never a game

I had to start playing

So I will see myself correctly again.

Healing may take time

And it's never linear

I never had a plan

I just have faith & resilience

I am a hard worker

I have always been by myself

As I said it before

I had to create worlds ,since a lil age,just to stay alive .

That's the truth

That's my truth

I never intended to hurt myself

I just love my life

I treasure my peace

You don't need expertise

Or a bunch of pple going after me

Just to prove yourself .

I live my life for me

And that's a fact

That's why I am happy

That's why I am myself

That's the whole journey about

Nothing less ,nothing more

Just breathing ,learning and creating

That's my journey .

If philosophy was called the devil's work and alchemy witchcraft ,friends were called lovers , rumors was called truth and the art of just creating was called heretic.Some food for thought was ammunition , connections were called transactions , a women building herself again and again was called dangerous and violence was pointed as justice.

Nothing more and nothing less than a handcrafted guide thorn from history's playbook.They say follow the money and you will find the truth .Might be okay to follow the leader to get to the bottom of it .

Asking the 'why's' it's important .More stories unfold were the pain resides. Cause the game of power gets unclear in the headlines .

What's the motivation to put so much work into discarding a woman when she trying to live here life ? Some uncomfortable truths always come to light and life goes on as it should while we are being desensitized to it's horrors. But beauty still exists and love and healing .

I dream of u naked

Running on a beach

Dancing with love like your dancing when you see a beach and smell the sea salt

I dream of u happy

Having a family in a non classic but monogamous way

Smiling everyday at the sight of fluffy clouds so they will go away

I dream of u making your dreams come true

And throwing a huge party anytime you want

Cause party for you means just making art

.

.

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You....it s actually me 🤷🏼‍♀️😹😹😹🪽✨👾💖🪉🥹💆🏼‍♀️😌🧚🏼‍♀️🥰

My cat is jumping ,meow meow

'Where is my food you big human fool?'

I just stare at my window ,lost for words

Cause I see the moon ...and I wonder if it's yours too?

I wonder a lot ..Always had a lot to say .

Gone to all stages of greef ,watched all the tarot I could possibly watch ,made playlists ,wrote poetry and still...I feel lost .

So I m looking at the moon through my window and I m just wondering if we are looking at the same moon . That's the only thing left to do other than loosing hope that true love might still exist out here,for me ,in this world.

Everybody dies.The easy thing is to die.So I would ask my soulmate -the one that I havent been with -

would you live your life for me? Cause I am trying ..hope you are too .

PS: hope u see the moon and smile.

POS: :))) ....my keyboard is funny ,...

(Doesn't mean anything more)

I wish I could teach you how to treat your family better

I wish I could hug your friends and give them the gifts I bought them the last Christmas I was there

I wish I could lend you some empathy

I wish I could take away the pain

I wish I could go back in time and never go home with you after the date -I called my mom and sent her my location witch I never did before

My body was sending me signals already

My body was screaming but I didn't listen until was too late

I wish I never met you that night at the bar

I wish I never gave you the time of day

I saw a wound in you and thought I could fix it

I wish I haven't stayed or came back so many times

I wish I never loved you ,I wish I never hated you

I wish I never had to defend myself in front of everyone just because you made it your mission to destroy my life

I wish I never had to take away 2 and half years of my life just to be ok with my PTSD

I wish I never kissed you ,I wish I never felt guilty that after I left you I tried to talk to your friend

I wish I never had to share a story just to help others heal and myself to make sense of something that I thought could never happen to me

I wish I screamed louder ,I wish I had the guts to go right than straight to the police

I wish screamed when I saw you following me ,stalking me on the street

I wish I lived in America ,I wish I had a gun

But I don't ,and I m not

I wish I didn't had to tell my parents what you did to me

I wish I didn't had to fight for my own body,my own life,my own privacy

So no ..I don't want to talk to you.You are sick in the head for thinking I do.

So no...I don't want to just shut up .You are sick in the heart to think that I might.

So no...I don't wanna ever see you close ,I don't wanna see your pawns ,I don't want to ever think of your existance and I don't understand why you try so hard to come on Reddit ,to ruin my life and my reputation.

You are the perpetrator.

Remember when you were joking about calling male prostitutes on your friends and secretly filling them ?Did you do the same to me when you abused me ?Remember when you told me that your friend likes me ?Remember when you were just asking your friends or your mom for money for your business and then stalling with the shipment ? Remember when you were saying weird shit about witchcraft ,reading books -your laptop was full of them and watching videos about it?

I could go on and on but it's not worth it .

If your friends don't see it by now I saw your mask slipp more than once and I believe you are capable of terrible things .So no I don't want any monsters under my bed .You are not even an afterthought .

You don't know what love is.Ypu don't know what friendship or loyalty is.You don't know what peace is.I feel pitty and sorry for you.

It s a weird feeling that won't go away

I see so much sadness in the world today

I myself enter here from time to time

Imagining that I find answers

But I never do

It's just my mind

Wanting to solve a puzzle

That wasn't there in the first place

And see so many in my place

Wanting love, reassurance,wanting some epic love of their own ...

I guess we are nothing but a dream within a dream that requires space ,care and nurture to have understanding

Love y'all

I have thought about you too much and have no ideea why it's so obsessive

Took so much of my time , that's the truth

It helped me ,more like a crutch and some kind of blueprint of love,care and healing

I wrote about it ,I searched what it meant

And I still find myself wondering and wanting to know if it's more.

I'm tired and need to touch some grass or to go to the sea .

Wish I knew how you felt or if you feel it too cause I have no clue ,if it was mutual or if it was just in my head .You never told me . I guess I will never know .

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I have thought about you too much and have no ideea why it's so obsessive

Took so much of my time , that's the truth

It helped me ,more like a crutch and some kind of blueprint of love,care and healing

I wrote about it ,I searched what it meant

And I still find myself wondering and wanting to know if it's more.

I'm tired and need to touch some grass or to go to the sea .

Wish I knew how you felt or if you feel it too cause I have no clue ,if it was mutual or if it was just in my head .You never told me . I guess I will never know .

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