u/FluffyWasabi1629

Cause that happened to me recently 😅

Sometimes it's hard not to feel guilty about losing interests, even though I know it's not my fault, when other people make an effort to get into it with you and honor your interest. It's so sweet! And I just... how are you supposed to respond to something like that? Like, I love it! But, I'm going to wait until I circle back around to that hyperfixation to use your gift. Haha, it's awesome. Thank you, really! I genuinely like it!

I hope they believe me. Because it's true! I guess my real worry is that someone would think it's just an excuse and I don't actually like the gift and I'm just trying to be polite. Cause it definitely feels bad to have someone not like your gift, and I don't want to make anyone feel that way!

Sorry, I'm sure I'm just overthinking this. But has that ever happened to you? What did you do? I don't think I'm alone in this. 💗

Of course we all usually like characters we relate to a lot, but they don't always have to be. I realized recently that I really appreciate characters with a similar personality to my Dad and my Mom's Dad (no longer with us). Guys who are strong and gentle at the same time. Mature, emotionally intelligent, open-minded leader types. (They don't have to be super serious or anything, they can be goofy too. But they have the wisdom to know WHEN to be silly, and when is a bad time.)

Two characters I noticed this in are Chakote (sorry idk how to spell it) in Star Trek: Voyager, and Kinger from The Amazing Digital Circus. (I've been LOVING that show lately. It's all free on YouTube. Check it out if you like cartoons! By GLITCH Studios. They're awesome, seriously.)

What personalities do your comfort characters have? And are they the same as yours? (Also feel free to rant about the characters or the shows and why you love them! 💗)

Sorry for all the parentheses btw, I hope it's not too annoying. I was probably just overthinking things.

I have done pet sitting before, but I just reactivated my Rover account recently and I am getting a lot of booking requests for house sitting. I think my prices are cheap probably. I am much more comfortable with walks and drop ins of course, but I would make more money from house sitting. I do need money, but I might be able to make enough from the other two things. I really hate staying at other people's houses honestly.

And it might be ok if it was for shorter amounts of time, but I have two that are like 2 weeks each, and that's a long time in my opinion to not be able to sleep in my own bed, even if the place is clean and the pets are nice. I haven't accepted any of them yet and I am scheduling meet and greets. I'm not sure if I should accept them or not. I could handle it if it was a few days or maybe even a week, but two weeks is a lot.

Idk what to do. I know I shouldn't let my anxiety get the best of me and I need to make money and pet sitting is really a great gig compared to being a cashier for example which I had previously. But it's also good to have boundaries, ya know? What do you think I should do? What would you do? How do you make yourself feel more comfortable at a new place if you do end up staying there?

My job was going to be this really well paying one you can do from home, but that one is unstable right now. So I'm trying to do other things too like pet sitting and waiting to be approved to be a Spark Driver or something. But I just don't know if it will be enough and I just want the other one to come back.

I tried to be a cashier for about a month but I just couldn't do it long-term and I quit. It was so intense and fast paced and, well, customer service. I was always riddled with anxiety and had to mask so much. And would be so exhausted after just a few hours, and I started to feel sick I was so stressed out. I felt like I was back in highschool again (which was just a few years ago for me), which was extremely overwhelming and gave me the most intense burnout of my life for like 2 years after and I was super depressed too. I'm still mildly to moderately depressed but some medication helps keep me from going all the way back to severe depression.

I'm really good at writing, but I can't really get paid for that. I just use my writing skills to write fanfiction sometimes. It feels like I have this combination of skills and deficits that leave me in some societal blind spot where I just disappoint everyone all the time and have no path forward to take. It feels like I've been perfectly set up to fail no matter what. I tried ADHD medication too but it didn't work very well for me. And it's all of this on top of having to also deal with everything that's going on politically/societally/in the world right now (which has been perpetually backsliding for like half my life, literally), and anything else that brings me down in my personal life.

What the hell am I supposed to do? I've learned and grown so much over the last like 5 years, I always try so hard, but none of it made me worthy of enough money to live I guess. I hate this place.