u/Formal-Dog2541

I have zero friends at 21, I work, go home, sleep, I have to bike to work so that takes it outa me. I had a roommate that was subsequently my highschool friend but he had a bunch of issues and took it out on people in the house " my family" and just left, now I have zero social life outside being a workhorse and my own hobbies which grow tiring by the day, any advice on how to start enjoying life and getting friends again? Getting monotonous, I literally feel no joy, it's constant numbing..

I recently lost a 2 year relationship, it was hard, even took a day off work for it 😂 and since than I have been immensely lonely, tired and less motivated to really do anything, any advice?

I hate celebrating or even getting gifts but it's nice to be recognized for being old 😂 I'm 21

A regal thumping vibrates through

A wooded yard, a home, no screws

A little broken hourglass

With cracks we see into the past

The shallow incantations forming

Break her down the world is pouring

Groups of pain and fear don't revel

Hurt as much as one could handle

Follow the rules, find your fools, keeping me slow and grounded

Hurting the soul, living the toll, kissing away the violence

When it's all done, we'll be the ones, killing aways our prizes

Ending is near, I have no fear, a feeling beyond you your highness.

I feel ugly, in and out, all throughout, I break some trust, I hate the gust, I will my pain, I live in shame

I have to die, or live my life, it's seems real hard, to break the ice

I want to live, and feel, and care, I hate myself beyond repair