u/Formal_Solution6765

I'm moving out today, I'm 18, moving to a different country living in a studio all alone. I said goodbye to my family and even though they had tears in they're eyes, I felt nothing. I feel so selfish, why can't I shed a tear? What I can't I feel something? Anything? Whenever I do feel something it's either fear or sadness, and I can never express myself in front of people, it's frustrating because I don't want people to think I'm some empty monster. I was betrayed by an ex I dated for 2 years and ever since then I haven't really been able to express any emotion ever. I just want this to end. I feel like nothing matters. I'm so alone. Please help.

Hello, I'm 18M just moved to Eindhoven today and I'm looking to make friends! I'm a very outgoing person and I'm open to try new stuff, I love spontaneous hangouts and going to the cinema , if anyone is ever bored and wants to just go do something random, hit me up!

I'm moving out today, I'm 18, moving to a different country living in a studio all alone. I said goodbye to my family and even though they had tears in they're eyes, I felt nothing. I feel so selfish, why can't I shed a tear? What I can't I feel something? Anything? Whenever I do feel something it's either fear or sadness, and I can never express myself in front of people, it's frustrating because I don't want people to think I'm some empty monster. I was betrayed by an ex I dated for 2 years and ever since then I haven't really been able to express any emotion ever. I just want this to end. I feel like nothing matters. I'm so alone. Please help.

I really miss her.

I (M18) dated this girl for 2 years, we were each other's first everything, kiss , sex, love everything. Usually I wouldn't feel this way but when we were together she was so so so in love with me, she would write letters talking about how she wanted to grow old with me and despite the hard times we may face we will always come out the other side side by side because our love was like no other. We ended up breaking up but we always had lingering feelings for each other, for about 8 months she tried to get back with me but I pushed her away because I really do love her and I know I wasn't good enough for her , I didn't give her the attention she deserved. I found out she was super weird about me, she would tell her friends she hates me and regrets dating me but then she would try to reach out again

On prom night she invited me to hang out with her and I said not, she insisted and I said no again. She walked away.

I then find out that for the past 2 months she's been secretly dating one of my CLOSEST friends.

He ended his 3 year relationship to be with her.

I feel destroyed.

Do I deserve this?

I really do love her

And the guy she's dating literally cheated on his ex twice and hit her once.

I keep blaming myself, maybe if I had just gone with her on prom night, maybe she would still be here.

When I find out she started dating my friend, I panicked , I called her time and time again and she said she still loved me, that we were made for each other and that she felt like out love would reunite us one day. 2 days after that she sent me a long text telling me to stay the hell away from her calling me a weirdo creep saying she's scared of me and that she would get her parents involved. I'm so confused, so heart broken, I was at the mall yesterday and she was there with him and she saw me and giggled to him. As if I was some random guy.

I gave her my sould

My heart.

I gave her everything.

I would do anything to get my princess back, even if this is the monster she's become.

I miss her so fucking much I didn't even know this was possible.

It's a pain worse than anything I've ever felt.

Nothing makes me happy.

Food doesn't taste the same.

I can't sleep.

And when I do, I dream of her.

It feels like there is no point in living anymore.

I'm so confused.

I just wish I could understand what's going on in her head.

Does she still love me?

How can someone say she's thinks we are soulmates and then call me a creep 2 days later.

I miss her so much.

So fucking much.

I'm moving to another country next week.

I'm moving out and living on my own.

I'm so scared of feeling like his all on my own.

Why would she do this to me?

We spent 2 years together.

We created endless memories.

She said we would die together.

Does she still love me?

What's the likelihood she will ever reach out again?

Any support is appreciated.

And I really would like your answers to these questions based on your own experiences,

Will she ever call me again

Is there any possibility of getting back?

Is it likely?

I wanna die.