u/Forward_Park3524

I haven’t felt like this in a while. But, my thoughts are a little racy, I’m feeling super impulsive and would love to go on a few shopping sprees, and my music has gotten significantly louder (which is usually a sign something is up). I also upped my anxiety med last night to sleep. I’m already super anxious and stressed for other reasons and this is adding to it. I feel like im white knuckling trying to keep everything under control and I really just want to let go and spin out. For like a day or two.

I was recommended acupuncture recently and was looking at LGH holistic therapy. The community clinic is super affordable and I’m wondering if it’s too good to be true or worth the appointment. Anyone have any experiences good or bad??

TW: SI

In late 2024/ early 2025 I was really depressed. Like, really depressed. I was passively suicidal most days and it bordered on active sometimes.

I am so incredibly grateful that I stayed. I fought the demons in my mind and stayed. This last year has been one of the best in my life. I have met wonderful friends, strengthened relationships with my family, and even fell in love (it may have ended in heartbreak, but… ).

I think there will always be a part of me that gets emotional to think of that time in my life. To know how close I was to not being able to take the pain anymore. It’s made me more empathetic towards others because everyone is battling something you can’t see.

And it’s a big reason why I am going back to school to be a nurse with the end goal of being a psychiatric nurse practitioner. I want to be able to help people the way that people helped me.

So, if you’re scrolling Reddit and need a reason to stay, use this as a sign to stay. It does get better and it’s worth it to stay. ❤️‍🩹

My psych already told me not to listen to anything he says, but medication literally saved my life. As much as I don’t want to need medication, I need medication. I know the odds of them banning them / taking them off the market completely ate slim, but they can restrict access and cause shortages. And insurance companies can increase the price / approve it less. I need to be able to get my meds. It could be fatal for me to not (and I hate that that’s the reality, but it is.)

I have so much to be grateful for and I am so grateful for everything and everyone in my life. But I feel like everything is hanging on by a thread and I have to keep everything perfectly balanced to maintain the illusion that everything is perfect so nothing falls apart and it’s exhausting and I wish I could just be. I wish I could just be without the anxieties around everything in my life falling apart if one thread is pulled.