u/Frosty-Duty423

I(15f) know I’ll die one day but I can’t comprehend it. No one in a 100 years will remember or my family, it’s scary how the world will just keep on spinning even after we die, I wont be able to experience the thing I love to do anymore and it crushes my heart. I wanna believe in an afterlife, the thought of there being nothing sends me to a panic attack. Sometimes I wonder If anything is worth it because we’re all gonna die someday, whats the point then?
If we only do really live once I wanna live it the way I want to,not the way people tell me to, i dont wanna work a 9-5, i don’t wanna work a office job looking at screen for the rest of my life, I wanna go out and enjoy it. Another thing is my parents are getting old and im not that close with them, I dint even remember the last time I’ve said “I love you” to them and it makes me feel like a shitty daughter, I dont remember the last time I hugged them or kissed them on the cheek. I know im a shitty and moody daughter but I wanna change that

Sorry for bad English, it isnt my first language

Ive been scared of the thought of dying or death and it eats away my thoughts, does anyone know to help? I cant afford therapy and meds

I (15f)wanna start of by saying i know that I have some form of mental illness and before you suggest therapy, I’m too for it. Ive been so paranoid about dying for about 1 month now. Sometimes I accept that we all die and it’s normal and the next minute I could be crying about the thought of dying, I wanna stop, it’s taking over my life. I feel like life isnt worth living any more because we all die anyway.

Does dying hurt? This question keeps me up and I cry almost every night thinking about death and I find it hard to enjoy things anymore because the thought of it keeps me paranoid. Im also scared that there’s nothing after death. I’m from a catholic family but im not that religious, but that doesn’t mean I dont believe in God. I wanna be able to see my family again when I die, and the fact that one day, I have to live on this earth without my parents pain me so much, I think i’ll never be ready for that day. Ive been trying to find purpose in life but it feels impossible and hopeless.

I (15f)wanna start of by saying i know that I have some form of mental illness and before you suggest therapy, I’m too for it. Ive been so paranoid about dying for about 1 month now. Sometimes I accept that we all die and it’s normal and the next minute I could be crying about the thought of dying, I wanna stop, it’s taking over my life. I feel like life isnt worth living any more because we all die anyway.

Does dying hurt? This question keeps me up and I cry almost every night thinking about death and I find it hard to enjoy things anymore because the thought of it keeps me paranoid. Im also scared that there’s nothing after death. I’m from a catholic family but im not that religious, but that doesn’t mean I dont believe in God. I wanna be able to see my family again when I die, and the fact that one day, I have to live on this earth without my parents pain me so much, I think i’ll never be ready for that day. Ive been trying to find purpose in life but it feels impossible and hopeless.

I dont think that life is worth living anymore. We all die, whats the point of living and enjoying things? Nothing lasts forever. I know theres something wrong with me but im too poor for therapy so i’ll try to thug it through and Idk how to tellmy parents

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Do i have mental health problems?. Im lost and therapy im my country isvtoo expensive not able to afford.

English also isnt my first language

I(f15) feel like theres no point in living, we all die someday. Every time i think about dying I get scared, but its all i can think about these days and the thought is consuming me. I could be spending time with my loved ones and think about death and it would make my heart beat fast. I also dont see myself getting old, ik im still young but i cant see myself past 30, i dont wanna lose my parents and grow up alone, im scared of the future and what it holds. I wanna stay young forever but i feel like life is useless if we all die someday, I dont wanna but ik its natural, im scared of the process and have been getting panic and anxiety attacks for the past month. My parrot don’t know about this because we’re not that close, they dont know that i feel this way and how i think about killing myself