Worst night ever. I was calm but the hypnic jerks + hypnagogia wouldn’t stop. Is this ever going to end?
I don’t even know how to explain this anymore.
Last night was the worst night I’ve had in weeks. We got home around 8PM and I could FEEL the sleep pressure. I was actually kind of chill. Not panicking for once.
But then it started. Hypnagogic thoughts. Over and over. Then hypnic jerks. Like full body jolts. So many times.
I even moved to my mom’s room thinking maybe a change would help. Nope. Still jerking. Still those weird half-dream thoughts that I HATE. I hate the hypnagogic state so much. It feels like I’m stuck in the doorway and can’t get through.
Somehow, I don’t even know how, I finally knocked out around 1AM. It all happened so fast and I was too out of it to remember.
And of course I still woke up at 6AM because my mom goes to work and makes noise.
I’m so angry and scared. I’ve been in this cycle before. I thought I was getting better with the 10PM-7AM schedule. But it’s REPEATING. And the worst part is I wasn’t even anxious last night. I was calm. So why is my body still doing this??
I feel so hyperaroused right now. Shaky. Dreading tonight already. Like what’s the point if even being calm doesn’t stop the jerks?
Has anyone gotten past this? Does the hypnagogia + hypnic jerks actually stop eventually? Because right now it feels like it’s never going to end and I hate it.