u/General_Homework1267

Hi everyone. I run a page called Living With Fibro over on Facebook, and for such a long time now I have been the one there to offer support, share what I have learned, listen to people’s stories, and help others through their hardest days. I have spent so much time holding space for people there, celebrating their small wins, and helping them carry the weight of this condition. But today, for once, I need to be the one asking for help and support because I am struggling more than I ever have before.

I am in so much pain right now and nothing I do seems to make any difference at all. Whether I rest or move gently, whether I stick to my usual routines or try something new, the pain stays deep, constant, and overwhelming in every part of my body. I take codeine, nafopen, naproxen, and several other medications as well, but honestly it feels like none of them are doing anything for me anymore. They used to take the edge off or make days bearable, but now it is like my body has stopped responding to everything and I am left fighting this battle completely unassisted.

I am so incredibly tired. I am tired of hurting every single minute, tired of having to plan every part of my life around what my body will or will not allow, tired of hoping things might get a little easier only to be let down time and time again. Truthfully I feel like giving up. I just cannot do this anymore. It feels too big, too hard, and too endless to keep facing alone. I just needed to be honest about how broken and exhausted I really am, and to ask if anyone else has felt this way and found a way through.

I am exhausted. Honestly exhausted. I have fibromyalgia and had extreme twitches in my lower back, buttocks, hips, thighs and ankles. Sometimes they’re so constant that I can’t even sit still without focusing on them. It feels like my body never fully relaxes anymore. Even when I’m trying to rest, there’s always something twitching, aching, burning, cramping, or buzzing somewhere.

The worst part is how mentally draining it becomes after a while. People hear “benign fasciculations” and think it’s no big deal, but living with it day after day is exhausting. Constantly feeling movement under your skin, especially in areas like the hips, glutes, thighs, and calves, makes it impossible to completely switch off. Some nights I barely sleep because the twitching ramps up the second I lie down. Other times I end up spiraling, wondering if I’m overreacting or if something worse is happening even though I’ve been reassured over and over again.

I’ve seen neurologists for years about it and they’ve consistently said it’s BFS and not something degenerative since there’s been no clinical weakness or progression, but that reassurance only goes so far when you’re actually the one living inside the body feeling all of this 24/7. Stress and anxiety definitely make it worse, but the symptoms themselves create more stress, so it turns into this horrible cycle that’s hard to escape from.

I think what frustrates me most is how invisible it all is. From the outside I probably look completely normal, but internally I feel like my nervous system is constantly firing off. Fibromyalgia on its own is already exhausting enough with the pain and fatigue, but adding widespread twitching on top of it just pushes me over the edge some days. I’m just tired. Tired of monitoring my body constantly, tired of Googling symptoms, tired of trying to convince myself I’m okay, and tired of feeling like my body never gives me a moment of peace.

some of you may have seen me in the r/plural discord server, but hi i am rex, a host of a mixed origin system who runs a BAH (build a headmate) blog. For those if you who do not know what a BAH blog is, i suggest you read this post : https://pluralpedia.org/w/BAH

i have 14 requests to do currently and my requests DO NOT close, i am willing to do any form of introject though i specialise in brainmades.

i am also fine doing problematic sources/alters, as well as lesser known sources!

link: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/kandibah

please feel free to just support with a follow, or even request a bah pack from me !

Hi everyone, I’m new to toyhouse and would appreciate some tips and tricks to get used to it!
Coding help included.. I’m a bit slow

After gaining permission from the staff from this subreddit, I am glad to share the community run, unofficial subreddit for the app plurallog.

https://www.reddit.com/r/plural_log/

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how discovering plurality completely changed the way I see myself, and honestly I still don’t fully know how to process it.

For context, I identify as mixed origin, though honestly even getting to the point where I felt comfortable saying that took a really long time.

Before I found out about plurality, I spent years feeling like there was something fundamentally “off” about me in a way I couldn’t explain. Not broken exactly, just… inconsistent. I felt like I was constantly contradicting myself. My opinions, emotions, identity, interests, even the way I talked or reacted to people could change so dramatically that I genuinely didn’t know what my “real self” was supposed to be.

For a long time I thought everyone experienced that.

I’d have moments where I’d feel emotionally disconnected from things I cared deeply about only hours earlier. Sometimes I’d make decisions and later feel confused by my own reasoning, almost like I was trying to understand another person’s thought process after the fact. I also had a habit of internally “arguing with myself,” except it never really felt like normal self-talk. It felt more like conversations. Different perspectives. Different emotional reactions existing at the same time.

I brushed all of this off for years because I didn’t have language for it.

Whenever I tried explaining it to people, they’d either say:

• “everyone talks to themselves”
• “that’s just anxiety”
• “you’re overthinking”
• “you’re just indecisive”

So I started assuming I was just bad at being a person somehow.

I think the biggest thing plurality changed for me was the realization that my internal experiences didn’t have to fit into a single consistent identity to be real. That sounds obvious now, but for most of my life I was obsessed with trying to unify myself into one coherent version of “me.” Every contradiction felt like failure. Every shift in identity or emotion felt fake somehow.

Discovering plural communities honestly scared me at first because I immediately related too much.

I remember reading posts from systems describing things that sounded uncomfortably familiar:

• feeling internally divided
• identity shifts
• emotional separation
• internal conversations
• memory weirdness
• feeling like different parts of yourself have different wants or reactions
• struggling with the idea of a singular “core self”

And my immediate reaction wasn’t relief. It was panic.

Because if that explained me, then suddenly I had to reevaluate years of assumptions about who I was.

I also went through the whole “I’m definitely faking this” spiral that I know a lot of people here talk about. Even now I still struggle with it sometimes. There’s this weird feeling of simultaneously relating deeply to plural experiences while also feeling like you’re somehow making it all up despite not even wanting attention for it in the first place.

One thing that made things harder was feeling like I had to perfectly categorize myself immediately. I kept trying to force my experiences into neat boxes:

• “traumagenic enough”
• “not traumagenic enough”
• “too intentional”
• “not intentional enough”
• “too disorganized”
• “too functional”

Eventually I realized my experiences didn’t stop existing just because they didn’t fit perfectly into one framework. Mixed origin ended up being the label that felt closest to my reality because my experiences don’t feel explainable through a single source or narrative.

And honestly? Accepting plurality changed the way I treat myself emotionally.

Instead of constantly forcing every thought and feeling into one singular identity, I started paying attention to internal differences with more curiosity instead of shame. I stopped treating inconsistency like moral failure. I stopped assuming every internal conflict meant I was lying to myself somehow.

It also made me realize how fragmented my sense of self had already been for years without me acknowledging it consciously.

There’s still fear sometimes. Fear of being wrong. Fear of being judged. Fear that people will immediately assume I’m delusional, attention-seeking, or “chronically online.” The internet honestly makes this worse sometimes because discussions around plurality can get incredibly hostile incredibly fast.

But despite all of that, discovering plurality also gave me language for experiences that used to make me feel isolated and honestly kind of broken.

I don’t think discovering plurality “created” these experiences for me. I think it gave me a framework that finally let me stop fighting them constantly.

I’m still figuring things out, and I probably will be for a long time. But I think I’m finally starting to understand myself with more honesty than fear.

I guess I’m posting this because I’m curious if anyone else had a similar experience where discovering plurality completely changed the way they interpreted their own identity and internal life. Especially the feeling of realizing that what you thought was just personal inconsistency might actually have been something deeper the whole time.

What are YOUR top resources as a system? No matter the controversies behind it etc.

I want to gather myself a list that works. And I want to hear from the community to build my own list for my system.

Hi everyone ,

So we are a mixed origin identifying system and we have recently had a system “reshuffle” ( if you would call it that ) in order to function better and more safely for our mental health.

Due to this, we are kind of feeling like we have just discovered our system for the first time again and would love to hear a few things from the community.

1. Some system name ideas! Our host is called Rex and she is BUNNY obsessed ! However, any ideas are welcome !

2. General tips and tricks on how to find navigation as a system easier.

3. You can also feel free to ask questions about our system OR ask to become friends !!

I know we are yet to have many members - so for now I’ve made this post for people to ask any questions they have about Plural Log and its usage etc.

Hello everyone,

With the news of simplyplural shutting down, me and my system recently moved to plural log and fell in LOVE with it. Due to this, we made a FAN MADE subreddit for those to share their layouts, get support and more.

Here is the link : https://www.reddit.com/r/plural_log/s/7PQKd6RhOr

Hey everyone, I'm u/General_Homework1267, a founding moderator of r/plural_log.
This is our new home for all things related to Plural Log, including tips, setups, questions, updates, and general discussion. We are glad to have you here.

What to Post

Post anything that is helpful, interesting, or relevant to Plural Log. Examples include:

- App setups and organization ideas
- Questions or troubleshooting help
- Feature discussions or suggestions
- Experiences using the app
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We want this to be a space that is friendly, constructive, and inclusive.
Respect different experiences, keep discussions supportive, and remember that not everyone uses the app or experiences plurality in the same way.

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1. Introduce yourself in the comments
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