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I’m so nervous for my first retail job phone interview tomorrow. And when I’m nervous, I know I tend to sound incredibly stupid, like stuttering saying “umm… uhh…” mid thought, and ending my answers with “yeah” or “that’s about it”.

Idk how to stop that. I sound so immature when I’m nervous as hell.

I need some advice and encouragement. It always catches me off guard when a recruiter picks my application out and I never feel ready.

I was at the bank setting up my own account as someone who just turned 27 and graduated college this year, and the lady helping me set up my account and we chatted a little bit.

She had a daughter who just graduated and I asked where she graduated at and how old she was. She said UC Berkeley and she’s only 20 years old.

I’m thinking “HOW?!”

I know I should mind my business but I genuinely curious how someone can graduate that early at her age.

Like other than being a genius, how could she have skipped taking all those classes at a college campus?

I think I failed the last class I needed to graduate. Literally bombed the final and midterm. The final will be curved tho and it’ll be graded partial credit. But I’m still dreading it.

I’m so fucking scared because it cost so much money and I’m so stupid. It was literally the very last class I need to get my degree. I did well on all the home assignments and that’s all I could get. No extra credit or anything.

I’m so sick. I can’t do this. I really feel like dropping out. I don’t even wanna go back and finish this degree anymore. I’m so fvckin tired.

I wonder if it’s possible to ask my professor if there’s a way to get me to pass but I already know every professor here is gonna jump me for even considering that idea. I almost don’t care anymore, I’ll throw out a pathetic email to ask cuz it’s gonna drive me crazy if I don’t.

It’s literally my last class ever and I’ll never have to go back to school again. Fuck grad school. For those wanting to pursue a masters though, good for you but I just know it’s not for me. School and my mental health has never been kind to me.

I wanna scream and throw something so badly. It hurts.

Edit: I just talked to my mom about my situation and she said she’s okay with me retaking the class. That actually took some weight off my shoulders and I just cried so hard. I’m not gonna contact my professor, I don’t think I even had the balls to do it anyway despite me ranting about it.

I’ll take whatever the grade turns out to be but I don’t think I could look at the final grade once it’s posted. I’ll just assume because I have a really bad anxiety to look at it. I had to write this in the heat of the moment because college has been the most mentally and emotionally draining experience of my life. While I’m going to school I’m even trying to find a job and seeing so many rejection emails and seeing job posts for new AI careers made me crash out even harder.

Ive been surrounded by a lot of negativity lately and I needed somewhere to release because physically I just can’t scream like a maniac. I read all the comments, I understand and it’s nice to know I’m not the only one going through academic struggles like this. I know what I have to do.

I’m really disappointed for almost completely falling for it. I’ve been trying so hard to find a job in this fucked up economy and when this “recruiter” reached out to me, I thought my luck was beginning to turn.

But I’m such an idiot. The rest of this experience you’re about to read is gonna be extremely lengthy and sound very cringe.

How it started was through Handshake. I applied to a job for a remote position as a Data Entry Specialist that didn’t require any prior experience and only a high school degree because I literally have nothing on my resume after graduating college.

I didn’t realize the title of the company name was not legitimate (like it was a company called “NutriData inc” the “inc” should’ve been typed as “Inc.” for professional companies). I got the offer from a recruiter with that job I applied for linked to it but they welcomed me for an interview with with a different company name called “Pacific Depot”

When I clicked the link to the job post I applied for it was gone but they wanted me to message them on Microsoft Team for an interview and provided the link.

I clicked it and we started messaging to set up a proper interview. They gave me a survey to fill out as their way of interviewing and I completed it. They asked me to log in again the next morning at a specific time. I logged in the next morning hours earlier than agreed upon but they still told me I got the job offer anyway.

I was so glad because I desperately needed insurance, which they were offering for the job description.

I accepted the offer and they started the onboarding process.

So then I was told that I would be starting this month on the 27th and that I would need to acquire the equipment needed for the job position. And they were giving a lot! A whole new laptop, iPad, desk, chair, everything! Then they asked me what bank institutions i used so they can send me the checks to purchase the items from their selected vendors. I told them and then they sent me the checks through email and I tried to deposit it in my account. The checks were placed on hold for process and would be available on the 25th, about two days before I have to be prepared to start the job

So I told them how long it would take and then they urged me to buy the items as soon as possible because two days to buy and deliver the items to my house after the checks cleared was not gonna be enough time to prepare.

Then they proceeded to ask me if I could purchase the items with my own money and that I’ll be reimbursed later with those checks incoming. I said that I only have so much of the equipment to buy with about $1000 currently in my bank (I’m bluffing because I sensed something was wrong at this moment).

They told me to use what I had and urged me to continue with the purchasing process. I agreed and then they instructed me on how they want me to buy the equipment from their “authorized affiliated vendors”.

They asked me to use a phone number given by their “affiliated vendor” and using Apple Pay send $1000.

That’s it. I set up my Apple Pay and then took a step back…. Who are these vendors anyway?

I know a vendor typically has a legitimate name and source. So I asked them “May I ask who the vendor’s I will be purchasing these equipment from?”

They paused… then replied “Company’s authorized affiliated vendors”

Yeah no sh\*t Sherlock. I asked again.

“I understand but I would like to know what is the exact name of the vendor?”

They pause again longer this time. Then a message glitch happened that replied with my name backwards and said

“His name is Scott”

Yeah this is wrong. That is not the answer I was looking for. I asked,

“I would like to know the name of the vendor Scott works for and the equipment I will be buying from him.”

They asked me “how much do I have to purchase the equipment?”

That wasn’t my request. I told them,

“As mentioned earlier, I only have about $1000 to possibly purchase a few of the items needed for this job. But before I proceed to send this, i would like to know the name of the vendors I’ll be purchasing this equipment from and what exact equipment I will be buying from them?”

They listed out three useless items, two of which was not a part of the initial list of equipment the company was going to provide for this job. It wasn’t even important equipment, it was computer specs and software. How would I use that without a pc they claimed they were going to provide? Why wouldn’t they suggest I purchase the pc first over anything else? They also gave me the same name for the vendor this time it’s “Scott Malcolm”

So then it was clear to me this job offer was completely a scam.

I shouldn’t have to ask three times for a name if it were a legitimate company with legitimate vendors.

I shouldn’t have to send my money first to an unknown number through text messages. The number they wanted me to send the money to I was curious if they were a real vendor. And since it was my money, I wanted to see if I could get confirmation from the vendor themselves about their partnership with the company I’m applied too. The person on the other end, had no idea what I was talking about and told me I have the wrong number.

I then contacted the recruiter again. Telling them how I felt about this process. I told them how I don’t feel like they answers my questions fully and I don’t feel comfortable proceeding with the purchase if they never gave me a proper name of the vendor.

They still asked me a few minutes later if I will proceed. And I eliminated the onboarding process.

And with that they finally end our wonderful conversation with,

“Okay. Thanks for wasting my time”

And me being stupid and petty replied,

“No problem. Your AI could use some improvements.”

The scammer then replied “would AI send you a check?”

A check I’m sure was gonna bounce if I had agreed to give my money to a mysterious vendor.

I then said “you may cancel that process” and report, blocked and completely ended the conversation.

This was the most embarrassing and dumbest experience of my life.

I’m really disappointed for almost completely falling for it. I’ve been trying so hard to find a job in this fucked up economy and when this “recruiter” reached out to me, I thought my luck was beginning to turn.

But I’m such an idiot. The rest of this experience you’re about to read is gonna be extremely lengthy and sound very cringe.

How it started was through Handshake. I applied to a job for a remote position as a Data Entry Specialist that didn’t require any prior experience and only a high school degree because I literally have nothing on my resume after graduating college.

I didn’t realize the title of the company name was not legitimate (like it was a company called “NutriData inc” the “inc” should’ve been typed as “Inc.” for professional companies). I got the offer from a recruiter with that job I applied for linked to it but they welcomed me for an interview with with a different company name called “Pacific Depot”

When I clicked the link to the job post I applied for it was gone but they wanted me to message them on Microsoft Team for an interview and provided the link.

I clicked it and we started messaging to set up a proper interview. They gave me a survey to fill out as their way of interviewing and I completed it. They asked me to log in again the next morning at a specific time. I logged in the next morning hours earlier than agreed upon but they still told me I got the job offer anyway.

I was so glad because I desperately needed insurance, which they were offering for the job description.

I accepted the offer and they started the onboarding process.

So then I was told that I would be starting this month on the 27th and that I would need to acquire the equipment needed for the job position. And they were giving a lot! A whole new laptop, iPad, desk, chair, everything! Then they asked me what bank institutions i used so they can send me the checks to purchase the items from their selected vendors. I told them and then they sent me the checks through email and I tried to deposit it in my account. The checks were placed on hold for process and would be available on the 25th, about two days before I have to be prepared to start the job

So I told them how long it would take and then they urged me to buy the items as soon as possible because two days to buy and deliver the items to my house after the checks cleared was not gonna be enough time to prepare.

Then they proceeded to ask me if I could purchase the items with my own money and that I’ll be reimbursed later with those checks incoming. I said that I only have so much of the equipment to buy with about $1000 currently in my bank (I’m bluffing because I sensed something was wrong at this moment).

They told me to use what I had and urged me to continue with the purchasing process. I agreed and then they instructed me on how they want me to buy the equipment from their “authorized affiliated vendors”.

They asked me to use a phone number given by their “affiliated vendor” and using Apple Pay send $1000.

That’s it. I set up my Apple Pay and then took a step back…. Who are these vendors anyway?

I know a vendor typically has a legitimate name and source. So I asked them “May I ask who the vendor’s I will be purchasing these equipment from?”

They paused… then replied “Company’s authorized affiliated vendors”

Yeah no sh*t Sherlock. I asked again.

“I understand but I would like to know what is the exact name of the vendor?”

They pause again longer this time. Then a message glitch happened that replied with my name backwards and said

“His name is Scott”

Yeah this is wrong. That is not the answer I was looking for. I asked,

“I would like to know the name of the vendor Scott works for and the equipment I will be buying from him.”

They asked me “how much do I have to purchase the equipment?”

That wasn’t my request. I told them,

“As mentioned earlier, I only have about $1000 to possibly purchase a few of the items needed for this job. But before I proceed to send this, i would like to know the name of the vendors I’ll be purchasing this equipment from and what exact equipment I will be buying from them?”

They listed out three useless items, two of which was not a part of the initial list of equipment the company was going to provide for this job. It wasn’t even important equipment, it was computer specs and software. How would I use that without a pc they claimed they were going to provide? Why wouldn’t they suggest I purchase the pc first over anything else? They also gave me the same name for the vendor this time it’s “Scott Malcolm”

So then it was clear to me this job offer was completely a scam.

I shouldn’t have to ask three times for a name if it were a legitimate company with legitimate vendors.

I shouldn’t have to send my money first to an unknown number through text messages. The number they wanted me to send the money to I was curious if they were a real vendor. And since it was my money, I wanted to see if I could get confirmation from the vendor themselves about their partnership with the company I’m applied too. The person on the other end, had no idea what I was talking about and told me I have the wrong number.

I then contacted the recruiter again. Telling them how I felt about this process. I told them how I don’t feel like they answers my questions fully and I don’t feel comfortable proceeding with the purchase if they never gave me a proper name of the vendor.

They still asked me a few minutes later if I will proceed. And I eliminated the onboarding process.

And with that they finally end our wonderful conversation with,

“Okay. Thanks for wasting my time”

And me being stupid and petty replied,

“No problem. Your AI could use some improvements.”

The scammer then replied “would AI send you a check?”

A check I’m sure was gonna bounce if I had agreed to give my money to a mysterious vendor.

I then said “you may cancel that process” and report, blocked and completely ended the conversation.

This was the most embarrassing and dumbest experience of my life.

I was trying to get my research paper done and in one of the quiet rooms purposely build for homework sessions, and some parents decided it was the perfect play ground to bring their kids to.

They didn’t play but they were talking a bunch of nonsense at a volume like they were at the playground.

I had an internal conflict. I’m not going to say I hate kids, I really don’t. I just don’t like the decisions and actions parents make when they know their children are being disruptive.

First of all, this quiet area strictly had a sign that said “QUIET AREA” on the DOOR. Second, there is a children’s section of the library to sit at.

When I walked in and was checking out the library for a place to sit, I was told by the librarian that a specific area was the kids section and I can’t sit there. Alright then I’ll go to the area of the library where most adults are allowed to work in peace and quiet.

But these mfing parents gotta bring their loud ahh kids over to the grown ups area and nobody’s telling them to be quiet or they can’t sit there because there’s an obvious reason why they built a children’s area in the library they could use!

Parents, don’t have kids if you too don’t have common sense!

Im sorry. This is probably why I can’t have kids, I won’t raise kids because I clearly can’t handle this bs. Now I never blame a kid for just being a kid who needs to learn and I know not every parent tolerates their kids misbehaving and will do something about it. But to the parents who do slack on that responsibility, you know who you are.

It’s completely remote and I’ll have to train through video conference when I start but I’m glad I got something in this economy! I’m so nervous. I always dealt with a lot of anxiety and I already feel like I fvcked up a lot through the messaging interview. Logged on too early before assessments, accidentally sent a blank document I was suppose to sign, and I literally have no work experience. I’m glad they’re accepting me tho.

I’ve never had so many late assignments before. It’s stressing me out so much trying to get to it and read all the feedback because it sucks seeing points taken off.

There are some late assignments that I turned in because I’m really trying my best to keep up but I keep getting feedback that I need to fix it. It’s so consistent that I almost don’t even wanna look at it anymore. Fixing my work with the feedback while trying to catch up on the current assignments is piling up my workload and now I feel so far behind.

I’m also begging my professor to accept a late assignment that was overdue by a two days now because I was working so late and I just didn’t make it on time. It’s a very lousy excuse but I’m just so exhausted and desperate.

It genuinely feels like I’m drowning. I hate being such a slow ahh learner.

Like why can’t I just do this sh*t early? I see the deadlines approaching yet all that motivation to sit down and get it done happens when I know I have to turn it in less than an hour. It’s so fvcked up. I can try to trick myself that it’s due earlier but I still know when the real deadline is.

I’m writing this as I just missed turning in my paper a few minutes ago and can’t be bothered to finish it. I guess this might be burnt out. The assignment is still open to submit for one more day but I’ll have to take the late penalty. I honestly don’t know if I care anymore. Some points is better than no points at all. I’m so tired. I wanna get this piece of crap paper out of my face

She just walked out of my room a few minutes ago but it just bothered me what she said.

She comes in and looks around at the stuff in my shelf and asked me what all of it was. I tell her it’s things that I liked, books, games, concert merch I got. And then she just questions it and is like “really? what a waste of money.”

God forbid I tell her sh*t that I like she bullies me for it. If I tell her that all the money she donated to our church and the club she goes to there was a waste of money I’d probably get my butt whooped. But whatever. I’m trying to shake off this weird moment of my mom randomly bullying me.

Just reminded me why I secretly plan to move out someday but I’m too broke and unemployed rn.

The more I think about, the more I feel guilty about making a few comments.

So I had this assignment where I have to read a few short stories and annotate it with comments, questions, etc.

The most recent assignment was called “Madwoman” by Megan Kamalei Kakimoto and it was about a dysfunctional family. A single woman raising her biracial child and holding some resentment against his ex husband but also heartbroken about him abandoning them and often blames herself for losing him for the sake of her son.

I kinda of had to skim through that short story and made three comments as assigned, because halfway through I was getting upset. This one felt like it should’ve had a trigger warning because I grew up in a dysfunctional household. I know my mom faced a similar issue with my dad and I know the comments I made might’ve been personal but I had to write something for the grade.

I’m a bit afraid to look at any of the feedback from my peers because it might be arguments and constructive criticism. I read some of my other peers comments about halfway through the story, and they always were against the women’s point of view before reaching the end of the story which they started to change their opinions. That kind of burnt me up because reading the first like three pages, I could see from a mile away how misunderstood the mother is. Just reading the immediate comments from the earlier pages of that story I can tell how everyone quickly assumes the protagonist is the bad guy. Just like when people hear gossip on the street about other people’s dysfunctional relationships, they want to pick a side to stand on.

I can’t go back and delete anything once it’s posted after the deadline. I feel like I could’ve picked quotes to comment on that was plain and simple but I went for the ones that sort of stood out and triggered me a bit.

What really got me was the parts of how the husband blamed the wife just as much as the mother blamed herself. It just pissed me tf off because it reminded me so much of my mom.

It’s so difficult trying not to blame anyone which is why I often want to steer away from topics like this assignment but I really needed the grade.

Lowkey I don’t even like this class anymore because we keep getting short stories that provoke a lot of tough and dark topics. I’ve already gotten points off from my last essay for using AI (yes I know it’s wrong, I shouldn’t have done it) but I felt the need to do it because I really didn’t wanna talk about some of the topics relating to the stories that I felt I might be too personal. I notice I have a habit with English classes that I tend to plagiarize and cheat on writing when it’s topics I don’t wanna talk about. I actually have written decent papers in my own when it’s themes that seem relatively simple. But when it’s referencing books and stories that are too dark and complex, I feel the need to cheat cuz it’s too frustrating to think about.

I don’t wanna think about tragic stuff. And don’t wanna analyze it. I swear as much as I love reading, I think English classes in academics make me lose interest in reading. This is why I didn’t want to major in English and prefer to read leisurely.

I’m taking an online class this summer and I have so many late assignments idk how it got this bad. I’ve been staring at my homework everyday, working on it bit by bit, but haven’t turned it in on time. I’m consistently a day late and it’s bothering the hell out of me. Idk why I can’t just turn it in on time. I can’t sit down and lock in to finish everything at once. It feels like I can’t eat and sleep if I want to finish these assignments.

This is gonna sound like a whole giant excuse for being lazy but I seriously don’t know what to call it when I have opened up my assignments and just looked at it but feel like it’s taking me forever to finish it and I can’t physically complete it on time. Time just keeps slipping away from me. It’s like a jet lag.

I have no connections, no work experience, just a degree and list of skills with no projects to prove it.

I have no idea what to do. I can’t even get a barista job. It’s so bull sh*t. I fvcked myself up big time just going to school. I was getting rejections when I was in school and I’m still getting rejections after graduating.

Idk what I can do to make my resume better. Im such a goddamn loser.

It seems really easy for most but I’m no artist and that’s probably why I’m not getting full points on my assignment.

Most of my assignments so far my professor marks it a 0 and asks for me to redo the whole thing because of small tedious details. Like I said I’m not an artist and I genuinely read the assignment instructions but his feedback is so critical over minor details like adjusting the lighting and adding more stuff.

Bruh just give me half credit or something for the instructions I did follow. He dramatically gives me a whole zero and wants me to spend another day to fix the entire thing.

I get this what school is all about and I shouldn’t complain if I’m getting these second chances to fix my work after feedback but I’m just so exhausted seeing negative comments.

This why I didn’t want to major in art. Idk how you art students don’t lose your mind and sanity over other people’s feedback. Im not build for this.

Give me a calculator and let me solve an integral, at least I’ll never get that sh*t wrong.

I knew summer classes are fast pace but I physically and mentally feel like I can’t do it. But I can’t drop out of it cuz I need these classes to graduate.

My dumbazz is taking three classes for the summer and I thought it would be fine but one of my classes has assignments due every two days but it’s in the AM and not PM. That threw me off because I’m used to all my assignments being assigned around midnight the day that it’s due. So already the first two weeks have so many late assignments because I feel off track by the time.

And another one of my classes is writing and I haven’t taken a writing course for several years. The assignment is just reading a bunch of short stories, posting at least 2 annotations and replying to two other peers. Now do that 3-5 times and it’s due every two days. And I never know how long these short stories are to analyze, so I’m shamelessly speed reading through the stories first and chatgpting all the quotes to write about.

And on top of that I’m also taking econometrics which I heard was scary hard from some of my peers. This is my first time taking the course and I’m seeing what they’re talking about but at least the assignments are due every Sunday but there’s so much studying I have to do. I’m terrified for this midterm coming in two weeks because there’s just so much studying and I’m not in the right mindset to sit down for hours to do it.

I’m just burned tf out. I’m thinking of missing a few assignments just to reset. I’m so tired already.

I’m actually exhausted rn but idk why after socializing with people, I just can’t rest.

My body feels so tense and when I close my eyes to try to sleep, I start thinking about all the interactions I had that day and I start cringing.

What do I need to do to get rest? I know it takes time to shake off and nobody will even remember all the dumb sh*t I might’ve said or done, but I’m really tired rn and can’t stop overthinking. This always happens and I wish I was normal.

I’m graduating with a bachelors in IT this summer and I’m just so burnt out with school.

My parents are encouraging me to continue pursuing a masters now because they said a lot people my age are getting a masters and jobs mostly hire people with a masters.

I’m just so sick and tired of school. Is it really worth it? I’m graduating as an average student but I have a few professional references, what are my chances if I want to get into a master’s program? How are the opportunities for graduates that obtained a masters degree? Do you feel like it was worth it?

I need letters of recommendations for job searching, I need to finish group projects for my final classes, I need to network to get a damn job.

I want to just get a damn grade, go home, cry, and never talk to anyone again!

I’m so sick and tired of socializing. My battery has been in the red since the first week of the semester. I hate senior year after being quiet all 3 years.

It feels like I’m cramming for an exam but for networking. I have to do things to make my resume standout but in reality, I’m just an introverted loser who has nothing interesting.

I have no leadership skills and I don’t wanna be a leader, I just need money and insurance. But once I graduate, I’ll be overqualified and need to use my degree to get better paying job to pay off all my student debt so it feels like a trap to be a leader.

I’m tired. I’m just emotionally, physically, socially tired. I wanna quit. This sounds like a first world problem but lowkey how do I escape this success? It’s exhausting to keep up with. I wanna shut down and be quiet again

Ignore me. Just one of those dumb students that need to scream after a midterm.

God I fvckin hate these kind of classes where it’s only a midterm and final and the assignments are a tiny fraction of the grade!

I swear to god, I practiced and practiced and practiced all weekend.

Of course I expected the answers to be completely different but the approach is similar.

I was blasting through the exam first 15 minutes but stumbled on ONE question that’s gonna haunt me the rest of the semester, then it just fell apart in terms of keeping track of time.

I ended up just leaving an outline of my answer for the last two questions without finishing it. Of course the graders are gonna go “wtf is this sh*t?” but I hope I at least get partial credit for putting something down.

I didn’t have time to even go back and check my work.

I heard a lot of students saying they didn’t even finish the last question either. Seriously?! Does the professor not test his own exams for timing?!

Idk what I’m gonna do. I just have to do slightly better on the final and ace all the labs. I’m good with just passing. Man I don’t even care anymore. I’m defeated

There’s a research project my professor recommended I’d join, so I emailed the team asking if I could join and they said since it’s halfway through the semester they’re not sure whether I’ll have enough time to fully get onboard with the project.

Which I know is totally fair. The opportunity was presented to me not too long ago. I figured it’s probably too late to even bother trying but I still asked for the hell of it.

The team member still offered that I can attend their weekly meetings to learn about the different research that takes place, work updated, etc.

Should I even go? Idk it feels kinda weird that they’d even allow me to attend even if I might not be able to contribute. Has anyone been in a similar situation?