u/Gloomy-Suggestion-10

The question speaks for itself.

The 10mg ritaline a day are giving me pure aggression often, or maybe because I'm also on PMS now...idk

Anyone also having this issue?

I could say I haven't a hard form of tourette's, but it's still there. Most of the motorics are usually there at work, also some vocals, but as soon as I get home the vocals are freaking breaking out like hell. Also motoric of course. Since I take ritaline for ADHD I think they've gotten kind of worse...even tho it's a small dose yet...

Like sometimes I literally have the urge to say "tic" multiple times in a row. Sometimes tic tac, I admit this one is kinda funny. Or sometimes the word tourette's. I also hang on those tics and have to repeat like crazy. Am I alone with this?

So I've been taking 10mg a day for a few days now. I have to admit, that I've got side affects, like heart racing and my tics (tourette's) increased, but I was making a lot of diy handycraft, such as jewerly and I wrote like 3 sides of a poem on one evening. I'm so proud of myself and I constantly have the urge to make jewerly. Also my social environment got better. I'm so happy, after I was so deeply depressed for a long time due to getting barely anything done. Well, but tbh I'm still procrastinating the boring and stressful tasks...but I think it's still a win. What do you think? And if it did, then how did ritalin help for you?

I'm 19 and I use discord. Hmu pls, I'm bored as hell

TL;DR: New psychiatrist picks up phone call during expensive appointment, gives wrong facts about pregabaline and exposes my BPD to my aunt.

He's a new one, paid on private. My aunt came with me and sat in the waiting room, if I would need her. The first thing that made me kinda upset is, that he picked up a phone call, because of some client and an appointment and shit. Before it would take too long of my time I interrupted, because the appointment is expensive as fuck.

Next thing is that he said, that pregabaline isn't an anti-epilectic, even tho it is. I even asked the pharmacist, when I picked up the pills. However I just need it for anxiety.

At the end my aunt came in to help me with payment, then at the end he just mentioned my BPD to her, even tho there was never said, that she knows what I know.

I'm so angry and disappointed rn. Maybe I'm in the wrong...but barely anyone knows about my BPD and this is a really rough thing to just expose without asking me...

What do you think?

I'm hating on myself like 24/7 because I won't solve my problems. I feel bad about all of this and yet I can't bring up the guts to change to the better. I found comfort in this self pit, it's pathetic.