I found an item I wanted to buy so I ordered it and paid. However, the seller has cancelled my order under the reason that I wanted to cancel my purchase which isn't true. I messaged them to ask them why they canceled and they haven't answered.
I received my refund but I would like to report it because I wasted my time when I could have been looking elsewhere for another time.
I'm unsure where to live.
On one hand, living in the country seems really nice. You're surrounded by nature, live in a house, away from pollution. However, everyone knows who you are or has some opinion about you because country people are nosy.
This is the exact reason why living in a big city appeals so much to me. The anonymity that you get from living in a skyrise in the centre of a big city is a luxury to me like no other.
Currently, I live in a very small city but it's the best place I've lived in so far. I lived in 3 different villages before that and I always had the vibe that neighbours were always talking about me behind my back. Since I don't like to socialise and I stay inside most of the time, I was immediately outcasted and I felt a constant negative energy, as if people were always gossiping about me. Since I moved, I feel a lot more anonymous and I love it.
It's really annoying that country people are like this. I wish they could all just mind their business, because I love nature, wild life and living in a nice house and it’s a shame that I’m thinking about giving all these things up for some anonymity.
I slept from 12 to 2 but was woken up by a loud thump even though I was wearing earplugs. I didn’t just hear the noise, I felt it.
So I couldn’t fall back to sleep again. At 4 I asked the technician if they had enough data and she said they did, so I left. I hope that’s true because there’s no way I’m going back there since they aren’t decent enough to keep the place quiet.
Also I was supposed to be woken up at 6, so I hope me leaving two hours earlier won’t be an issue with my insurance since I technically didn’t do it all. But there was just no point. I was so mad about being woken up like that that I couldn’t fall back asleep again. I tossed and turned in bed from 2 to 4 with no sign of improvement.
To top it all off, I had a shit day so it just fueled the anger. I even set alarms the week prior to get myself into the study schedule but all of that was for nothing because someone wasn’t considerate enough to keep the place quiet.
Just scunnered.
Edit. I guess there’s nothing I can do right now. I just have to wait two weeks to see my doctor for the results. I suppose I just wanted to rant.
I just had an argument with a friend over the phone about the dangers of vaping. He's 50 and a life long smoker/vaper. We bonded over vaping in 2017 and even though I quit two months ago, we still interact on a daily basis.
But today, he argued that vaping was 99% safer than cigarettes and claimed that nicotine was completely harmless. I can't believe people still think this in 2026. This is the exact same thing I was told in 2017 when I bought my first vape; first, that that the vapour was not carcinogen so therefore completely harmless and second, that nicotine was completely harmless too because it was natural and could be found in tomatoes, potatoes, etc. When I think about that now and realise just how much I was in fact being lied to, it makes my blood boil, especially because I was young. You can even find on websites of some vape shops to this day the same propaganda being propagated and I don't know why it's permitted.
I don't have a problem with people selling vapes because I don't think vaping should be illegal but the vendors should have a moral and legal duty to either stfu or warn their clients about the actual risks that vaping poses.
I just needed to rant
Je me demande si les parfums ajoutés aux fromages à raclette ne servent pas à camoufler un fromage de mauvaise qualité ou pour pouvoir les vendre plus cher que ce qu'ils ne valent.
I'm so pleased to have made it to a month! Let's recap!
It's been very difficult almost every single day. Obviously the physical symptoms have disappeared completely after the 5th day or so, but man the CRAVINGS!!!
Although somedays were fairly easy, I would say that most days were difficult. My main triggers were:
- Alcohol
- My smoke/vape buddy
Honourable mentions:
- Social situations
- Stress/depression/anxiety
- Boredom
- Certain type of music
The first time I drank alcohol without nicotine, I really struggled. Perhaps the quantity of alcohol I drank didn't help lol. The second time I drank, I drank much less but cravings were still noticeably present. The third time I drank, I almost had no cravings at all. I hope I have already dissociated alcohol from nicotine, but only time will tell. I will still have my guard up next time I drink, just in case.
My other biggest issue was my friendship with my vape/smoke buddy. I don't have many friends, and luckily I only have one who vapes/smokes. I didn't see him at all during this month, which is out of the ordinary. However, we video called each other almost every single day and seing him vaping/smoking was a huge trigger. I'm afraid of losing the bond we have because on one hand I don't want to see him yet since I don't want to be tempted, and on the other hand, vaping/smoking was a big thing we had in common and getting rid of that might give me less incentive to see him. I mean, that's what made us bond in 2017 when vaping was still fairly new. I think our friendship will inevitably take a hit, and we won't see each other as often but I think we will always be friends, just not as close anymore. It's sad, but I need to do what's in my best interest, and quitting nicotine is more important than seeing my friend as much as I used to.
I initially quit because I was having episodes at night which involved waking up gasping for air while I was drifting off to sleep. The episodes varied in intensity, but they could be very frightening sometimes, making me think I was about to die. I went to see a sleep doctor, and she booked me a sleep study on the 18th May. She thinks it's sleep apnea, but I don't think so. I think it might be anxiety and nicotine doesn't help as it increases adrenaline and cortisol. As a matter of fact, when I quit vaping for an entire year (2024-2025), I don't remember having a single episode, so when I started having the episodes again in 2025, I suspected it being because of nicotine, hence why I'm quitting again. However, I have still experienced a few episodes since I quit, so I hope it's just lingering anxiety from the cravings and nothing else.
One minor caveat: I did cave in once during this month. It wasn't because of one of my main triggers but after having been to the hospital and tests came back fine. I was having intense cravings and bought a pack of smokes. I only smoked a few before tossing the pack away a few hours later. That was Friday 17th, and because it's been 10 days and I didn't smoke/vape since then, I don't count it a relapse. However, I do think that it reactivated some nicotine neurotransmitters in my brain and it might be the reason why after a month, I am still struggling as much as I am with cravings. It was exactly at the three week mark (21 days), so I guess the 3/3/3 rule is real!
Anyway, if you've made it this far, thank you for reading and I will update again in a month, if I haven't relapsed. I really hope I will make it next month without another minor caveat. It will make the whole process of quitting a lot easier and quicker. In the meantime, I will wear my one month flare of honour and keep encouraging everyone else!