u/Good-Plantain9635

I’m only 17 and life is genuinely so boring like i’m not suicidal. But i wake up not feeling happy or anything because the day is just going to be boring i only really go gym and i don’t even like the gym that much but u have nothing better to do. it’s not like im inside all day as well

I go to parties been drunk before didn’t like the feeling at all haven’t been high yet but i will try

So someone tell me what’s the actual point in living and how can i be more happy

Havent been in the rep game for a while been a couple months previously i was using oop but i have seen it has fallen of and i did just order a haul of 8kg for £113 which is abysmal as i remember before i got like 11kg from oop for like £70 back in the day

I was wondering if i could get laser hair removal on my facial hair but enough to the point where i have no beard shadow but i still can shave but obviously less frequently but i also heard it goes back to normal after a couple years which is fine but i just don’t want shadow rn as i prefer clean shave right now

gameplan is once im 18 imma go clubbing and im 186cm barefoot so kinder under 6,2 (evening) so during day im 6,2 barefoot basically and 6,3 in shoes so ill stand out and i look decent im tall and athletic.
ill find the baddies milf at the club hopefully she has kids and a husband so she has experience and she dominates me teaches me the ways then after that i’ll live a normal life and wait to find the right girl being celibate until i meet her .

I’m thinking of hopping on test to increase muscle mass quicker and get stronger her in the gym also help me mentally as well as i get increased motivation and it can help change my face and make it more dimorphic so more sexually attractive to the female species