Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Cod zombies

I’ll keep this open ended as I’m pretty flexible with whatever cod zombies game we choose to play perhaps i have preferences but again i’ll keep it open

F1 Co-Op Career

This is a tall ask i’m fully aware but hey you never know,ideally looking for someone who plays at a simliar AI level to myself so around 70-80ish anything significantly lower would be kinda redundant and same goes in the opposite direction (it would me max in 23 all over again XD)

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Cod zombies

I’ll keep this open ended as I’m pretty flexible with whatever cod zombies game we choose to play perhaps i have preferences but again i’ll keep it open

F1 Co-Op Career

This is a tall ask i’m fully aware but hey you never know,ideally looking for someone who plays at a simliar AI level to myself so around 70-80ish anything significantly lower would be kinda redundant and same goes in the opposite direction (it would me max in 23 all over again XD)

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Cod zombies

I’ll keep this open ended as I’m pretty flexible with whatever cod zombies game we choose to play perhaps i have preferences but again i’ll keep it open

F1 Co-Op Career

This is a tall ask i’m fully aware but hey you never know,ideally looking for someone who plays at a simliar AI level to myself so around 70-80ish anything significantly lower would be kinda redundant and same goes in the opposite direction (it would me max in 23 all over again XD)

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

Hello there 👋🏻😄

I am making this post in hopes of finding some peps to play with here are some of the games i’m looking/am playing atm

Marvel Rivals

Just looking to play quick play really and the blood hunt mode currently no ranked,happy to flex obviously or teach someone new to the game or even someone who has never played the game before to find their footing

Dead by daylight

Currently the 2v8 mode is out and there is alot of bloodpoint boosters (i like blood points sue me) so would love to have someone to play dbd with if possible

Fortnite

The day i start unironically playing fortnite huh,but yea i don’t touch the br anymore playing exclusively creative experiences its primarily been tycoons lately but open to any and all suggestions from other people

Roblox

Tad simliar to fortnite though i did play roblox in my childhood back when builders club was a thing anyone remember that? Anywho unlike fortnite i’d say my games are more varied but i’m used to just jumping on whatever other people wanna do but i have some games in my backlog too so ^^

It goes without saying i’m open to other suggestions too just hmu in the dm’s with any of these or other games that your maybe looking to play and we can look into it ^^

Hope to hear from y’all soon

I am a very extroverted person who values good company, I feel at times i can be socially awkward at 1st but soon as i get comfortable with an individual (or get seriously into a topic and go on a tangent) i can yap on for hours, but i can also be a good listener too.

It should go without saying that i much prefer calls to text conversations as i feel i can truly express and be myself while texting feels extremely limiting for me and at times even exhausting it gives me an little insight into how actual introverts feel about actually socialising, i think there is a time and place for texting of course but largely i prefer talking over the phone.

I am also currently working on a Spotify playlist with songs that represent how i feel if that makes sense,i’m more than happy to share it and break down any song you’d like me to,note some songs have deeper meanings than others to me

i highly value deep and maybe even controversial conversations, as well as i do loyalty as thats rare these days but i can’t say i don’t mind abit of humour either wether it be sarcastic, crude or even dark
i can be kinda clingy and even abit possessive of the people 😅 but thats usually people i only really vibe with

I am also on the autism spectrum,suffer from depression & anxiety and suspect i may even have bpd so there is that 😅

**What i am looking for:** i am ideally looking for someone i can build a Long-term relationship,someone whom i can have a deep emotional connection.

Honestly someone i can lean on emotionally but also someone who isn’t afraid to open up to me when stuff is getting to much for them too,i can be clingy as previously mentioned and i can be emotionally fragile too dealt with alot of hurt in the past and never really had anyone to protect me back then and i guess thats something i crave in a way now

I should say that i feel more comfortable with girls or fem leaning people when it comes to emotions,historically speaking guys just tend to be cold or give me the typical “man up” response

Not something i expect most people to be able to give that last one but it’s certainly something i would like

I also tend to connect better with younger people also,i don’t mean that in a creeper way just mentally i feel younger than i actually am and tend to just jell better

I’d also love someone to game with if that was at all possible providing we have a few games in common and well if you game to begin with, or even just someone i can spend time with over calls on a regular basis nevertheless i’m more than happy to stream my game whenever i’m on a call with someone anyway wether we plat or not

Or even someone i can watch a series with or even football or f1 races as i alluded to in my interests earlier,or we could even listen to music together. In a way i just like people to be present in my life and me myself to be proactive

If you Feel we’d get along don’t hesitate to hmu as my DMs are open to all, just tell me abit about yourself so we can break the ice and we can go from there i always appreciate any company or attention ^^

I am a very extroverted person who values good company, I feel at times i can be socially awkward at 1st but soon as i get comfortable with an individual (or get seriously into a topic and go on a tangent) i can yap on for hours, but i can also be a good listener too.

It should go without saying that i much prefer calls to text conversations as i feel i can truly express and be myself while texting feels extremely limiting for me and at times even exhausting it gives me an little insight into how actual introverts feel about actually socialising, i think there is a time and place for texting of course but largely i prefer talking over the phone.

I am also currently working on a Spotify playlist with songs that represent how i feel if that makes sense,i’m more than happy to share it and break down any song you’d like me to,note some songs have deeper meanings than others to me

i highly value deep and maybe even controversial conversations, as well as i do loyalty as thats rare these days but i can’t say i don’t mind abit of humour either wether it be sarcastic, crude or even dark
i can be kinda clingy and even abit possessive of the people 😅 but thats usually people i only really vibe with

I am also on the autism spectrum,suffer from depression & anxiety and suspect i may even have bpd so there is that 😅

What i am looking for: i am ideally looking for someone i can build a Long-term relationship,someone whom i can have a deep emotional connection.

Honestly someone i can lean on emotionally but also someone who isn’t afraid to open up to me when stuff is getting to much for them too,i can be clingy as previously mentioned and i can be emotionally fragile too dealt with alot of hurt in the past and never really had anyone to protect me back then and i guess thats something i crave in a way now

I should say that i feel more comfortable with girls or fem leaning people when it comes to emotions,historically speaking guys just tend to be cold or give me the typical “man up” response

Not something i expect most people to be able to give that last one but it’s certainly something i would like

I also tend to connect better with younger people also,i don’t mean that in a creeper way just mentally i feel younger than i actually am and tend to just jell better

I’d also love someone to game with if that was at all possible providing we have a few games in common and well if you game to begin with, or even just someone i can spend time with over calls on a regular basis nevertheless i’m more than happy to stream my game whenever i’m on a call with someone anyway wether we plat or not

Or even someone i can watch a series with or even football or f1 races as i alluded to in my interests earlier,or we could even listen to music together. In a way i just like people to be present in my life and me myself to be proactive

If you Feel we’d get along don’t hesitate to hmu as my DMs are open to all, just tell me abit about yourself so we can break the ice and we can go from there i always appreciate any company or attention ^^

I am a very extroverted person who values good company, I feel at times i can be socially awkward at 1st but soon as i get comfortable with an individual (or get seriously into a topic and go on a tangent) i can yap on for hours, but i can also be a good listener too.

It should go without saying that i much prefer calls to text conversations as i feel i can truly express and be myself while texting feels extremely limiting for me and at times even exhausting it gives me an little insight into how actual introverts feel about actually socialising, i think there is a time and place for texting of course but largely i prefer talking over the phone.

I am also currently working on a Spotify playlist with songs that represent how i feel if that makes sense,i’m more than happy to share it and break down any song you’d like me to,note some songs have deeper meanings than others to me

i highly value deep and maybe even controversial conversations, as well as i do loyalty as thats rare these days but i can’t say i don’t mind abit of humour either wether it be sarcastic, crude or even dark
i can also be kinda clingy too though least with those who i vibe with anyway

I am also on the autism spectrum,suffer from depression & anxiety and suspect i may even have bpd so if your looking for a FP could be it here 😅

**What i am looking for:** i am ideally looking for someone i can build a Long-term relationship,someone whom i can have a deep emotional connection.

Honestly someone i can lean on emotionally but also someone who isn’t afraid to open up to me when stuff is getting to much for them too,i can be clingy as previously mentioned and i can be emotionally fragile too dealt with alot of hurt in the past and never really had anyone to protect me back then and i guess thats something i crave in a way now

I should say that i feel more comfortable with girls or fem leaning people when it comes to emotions,historically speaking guys just tend to be cold or give me the typical “man up” response

Not something i expect most people to be able to give that last one but it’s certainly something i would like

I also tend to connect better with younger people also,i don’t mean that in a creeper way just mentally i feel younger than i actually am and tend to just jell better

I’d also love someone to game with if that was at all possible providing we have a few games in common and well if you game to begin with, or even just someone i can spend time with over calls on a regular basis nevertheless i’m more than happy to stream my game whenever i’m on a call with someone anyway wether we plat or not

Or even someone i can watch a series with or even football or f1 races as i alluded to in my interests earlier,or we could even listen to music together. In a way i just like people to be present in my life and me myself to be proactive

If you Feel we’d get along don’t hesitate to hmu as my DMs are open to all, just tell me abit about yourself so we can break the ice and we can go from there i always appreciate any company or attention ^^

I am a very extroverted person who values good company, I feel at times i can be socially awkward at 1st but soon as i get comfortable with an individual (or get seriously into a topic and go on a tangent) i can yap on for hours, but i can also be a good listener too.

It should go without saying that i much prefer calls to text conversations as i feel i can truly express and be myself while texting feels extremely limiting for me and at times even exhausting it gives me an little insight into how actual introverts feel about actually socialising, i think there is a time and place for texting of course but largely i prefer talking over the phone.

I am also currently working on a Spotify playlist with songs that represent how i feel if that makes sense,i’m more than happy to share it and break down any song you’d like me to,note some songs have deeper meanings than others to me

i highly value deep and maybe even controversial conversations, as well as i do loyalty as thats rare these days but i can’t say i don’t mind abit of humour either wether it be sarcastic, crude or even dark
i can also be kinda clingy too though least with those who i vibe with anyway

I am also on the autism spectrum,suffer from depression & anxiety and suspect i may even have bpd so if your looking for a FP could be it here 😅

What i am looking for:

i am ideally looking for someone i can build a Long-term relationship,someone whom i can have a deep emotional connection.

Honestly someone i can lean on emotionally but also someone who isn’t afraid to open up to me when stuff is getting to much for them too,i can be clingy as previously mentioned and i can be emotionally fragile too dealt with alot of hurt in the past and never really had anyone to protect me back then and i guess thats something i crave in a way now

I should say that i feel more comfortable with girls or fem leaning people when it comes to emotions,historically speaking guys just tend to be cold or give me the typical “man up” response

Not something i expect most people to be able to give that last one but it’s certainly something i would like

I also tend to connect better with younger people also,i don’t mean that in a creeper way just mentally i feel younger than i actually am and tend to just jell better

I’d also love someone to game with if that was at all possible providing we have a few games in common and well if you game to begin with, or even just someone i can spend time with over calls on a regular basis nevertheless i’m more than happy to stream my game whenever i’m on a call with someone anyway wether we plat or not

Or even someone i can watch a series with or even football or f1 races as i alluded to in my interests earlier,or we could even listen to music together. In a way i just like people to be present in my life and me myself to be proactive

If you Feel we’d get along don’t hesitate to hmu as my DMs are open to all, just tell me abit about yourself so we can break the ice and we can go from there i always appreciate any company or attention ^^

I am a very extroverted person who values good company, I feel at times i can be socially awkward at 1st but soon as i get comfortable with an individual (or get seriously into a topic and go on a tangent) i can yap on for hours, but i can also be a good listener too.

It should go without saying that i much prefer calls to text conversations as i feel i can truly express and be myself while texting feels extremely limiting for me and at times even exhausting it gives me an little insight into how actual introverts feel about actually socialising, i think there is a time and place for texting of course but largely i prefer talking over the phone.

I am also currently working on a Spotify playlist with songs that represent how i feel if that makes sense,i’m more than happy to share it and break down any song you’d like me to,note some songs have deeper meanings than others to me

i highly value deep and maybe even controversial conversations, as well as i do loyalty as thats rare these days but i can’t say i don’t mind abit of humour either wether it be sarcastic, crude or even dark
i can also be kinda clingy too though least with those who i vibe with anyway

I am also on the autism spectrum,suffer from depression & anxiety and suspect i may even have bpd so if your looking for a FP could be it here 😅

**What i am looking for:** i am ideally looking for someone i can build a Long-term relationship,someone whom i can have a deep emotional connection.

Honestly someone i can lean on emotionally but also someone who isn’t afraid to open up to me when stuff is getting to much for them too,i can be clingy as previously mentioned and i can be emotionally fragile too dealt with alot of hurt in the past and never really had anyone to protect me back then and i guess thats something i crave in a way now

I should say that i feel more comfortable with girls or fem leaning people when it comes to emotions,historically speaking guys just tend to be cold or give me the typical “man up” response

Not something i expect most people to be able to give that last one but it’s certainly something i would like

I also tend to connect better with younger people also,i don’t mean that in a creeper way just mentally i feel younger than i actually am and tend to just jell better

I’d also love someone to game with if that was at all possible providing we have a few games in common and well if you game to begin with, or even just someone i can spend time with over calls on a regular basis nevertheless i’m more than happy to stream my game whenever i’m on a call with someone anyway wether we plat or not

Or even someone i can watch a series with or even football or f1 races as i alluded to in my interests earlier,or we could even listen to music together. In a way i just like people to be present in my life and me myself to be proactive

If you Feel we’d get along don’t hesitate to hmu as my DMs are open to all, just tell me abit about yourself so we can break the ice and we can go from there i always appreciate any company or attention ^^

I am a very extroverted person who values good company, I feel at times i can be socially awkward at 1st but soon as i get comfortable with an individual (or get seriously into a topic and go on a tangent) i can yap on for hours, but i can also be a good listener too.

It should go without saying that i much prefer calls to text conversations as i don’t feel i can truly express or be myself texting than i can just simply talking on the phone.

i highly value deep and maybe even controversial conversations, as well as i do loyalty as thats rare these days but i can’t say i don’t mind abit of humour either wether it be sarcastic, crude or even dark
i can also be kinda clingy too though least with those who i vibe with anyway

I am also on the autism spectrum,suffer from depression & anxiety and suspect i may even have bpd so there is that 😅

i am ideally looking for someone i can build a Long-term relationship,someone whom i can have a deep emotional connection.

Honestly someone i can lean on emotionally but also someone who isn’t afraid to open up to me when stuff is getting to much for them too,i can be clingy as previously mentioned and i can be emotionally fragile too dealt with alot of hurt in the past and never really had anyone to protect me back then and i guess thats something i crave in a way now

I should say that i feel more comfortable with girls or fem leaning people when it comes to emotions,historically speaking guys just tend to be cold or give me the typical “man up” response

Not something i expect most people to be able to give that last one but it’s certainly something i would like

I also tend to connect better with younger people also,i don’t mean that in a creeper way just mentally i feel younger than i actually am and tend to just jell better

I’d also love someone to game with if that was at all possible providing we have a few games in common and well if you game to begin with, or even just someone i can spend time with over calls on a regular basis nevertheless i’m more than happy to stream my game whenever i’m on a call with someone anyway wether we plat or not

Or even someone i can watch a series with or even football or f1 races as i alluded to in my interests earlier,or we could even listen to music together. In a way i just like people to be present in my life and me myself to be proactive

If you Feel we’d get along don’t hesitate to hmu as my DMs are open to all, just tell me abit about yourself so we can break the ice and we can go from there i always appreciate any company or attention ^^

I am a very extroverted person who values good company, I feel at times i can be socially awkward at 1st but soon as i get comfortable with an individual (or get seriously into a topic and go on a tangent) i can yap on for hours, but i can also be a good listener too.

It should go without saying that i much prefer calls to text conversations as i don’t feel i can truly express or be myself texting than i can just simply talking on the phone.

i highly value deep and maybe even controversial conversations, as well as i do loyalty as thats rare these days but i can’t say i don’t mind abit of humour either wether it be sarcastic, crude or even dark
i can also be kinda clingy too though least with those who i vibe with anyway

I am also on the autism spectrum,suffer from depression & anxiety and suspect i may even have bpd so there is that 😅

i am ideally looking for someone i can build a Long-term relationship,someone whom i can have a deep emotional connection.

Honestly someone i can lean on emotionally but also someone who isn’t afraid to open up to me when stuff is getting to much for them too,i can be clingy as previously mentioned and i can be emotionally fragile too dealt with alot of hurt in the past and never really had anyone to protect me back then and i guess thats something i crave in a way now

I should say that i feel more comfortable with girls or fem leaning people when it comes to emotions,historically speaking guys just tend to be cold or give me the typical “man up” response

Not something i expect most people to be able to give that last one but it’s certainly something i would like

I also tend to connect better with younger people also,i don’t mean that in a creeper way just mentally i feel younger than i actually am and tend to just jell better

I’d also love someone to game with if that was at all possible providing we have a few games in common and well if you game to begin with, or even just someone i can spend time with over calls on a regular basis nevertheless i’m more than happy to stream my game whenever i’m on a call with someone anyway wether we plat or not

Or even someone i can watch a series with or even football or f1 races as i alluded to in my interests earlier,or we could even listen to music together. In a way i just like people to be present in my life and me myself to be proactive

If you Feel we’d get along don’t hesitate to hmu as my DMs are open to all, just tell me abit about yourself so we can break the ice and we can go from there i always appreciate any company or attention ^^

(For context i wrote half of this last night and then the remainder today which is where the split is but it is all sorta related)

You know its weird,just had a good night with my buddy playing and chatting yet when we call it a night which was alittle overdue but not regretted and when i’m left to my own devices i slap on some old music guess i was in a fallouty mood

With a brief walk outside in the midnight darkness and then i’m back in that kitchen of the house i spent years at but not much anymore

Guess it brings back memories,i remember talking to kimchi (an old friend) in that very same room late at night between my mid to late teens before it all went wrong

Not like i was fully happy back then but…i look in the fridge for a midnight snack thats not there,my body is tired yet my brain is more alive than ever

I wouldn’t call this an extensional crisis but it’s certainly a weird reflective period of sorts,enlightenment? Not the 1st time i’ve felt it in life for sure familiar yet rare

I wonder if sacha (again another old friend but more recent than kim) even thinks of me,i am almost certain kimchi doesn’t,i’m sure blue does as rare as it is and it’s certainly not pleasant…i wonder again what my purpose is

Am i supposed to succeed,to be happy…or simply survive. Or is my final chapter closer than i realise?

Surely I can’t be miserable for the next 60 years surely something has to go right? Or surely i will be allowed to rest in peace soon
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Was on a call with someone earlier that day too,nice girl full of energy just met felt we really clicked but even as that time came to an end something felt off…like it wasn’t mutual that i had done something wrong

And low and behold a day later that much came clear to me,nothing back from them slience…the ghosting treatment

And this isn’t the 1st time recently either so i ask myself what is wrong with me,what makes me so repulsive and off putting to people… i genuinely wish that i knew but i don’t

I just want to feel like i belong for once, that i am valued by someone,that I’m needed by someone. Yet all i ever feel like or am is a burden,forgotten overlooked used and thrown away like some kind of cumrag excuse the vulgar nature of the phrase but it genuinely feels that dehumanising to me

Like my feelings don’t matter or least matter less than others,i’m like a sad puppy scratching at it’s door waiting for its carer to return

And when it finally does,it’s disinterested in you,it looks through you…and walks past as if you don’t exist or matter

I can’t say how often i think about people i wait for people i want to spend time with people and how often i get overlooked and dismissed

It’s a feeling i’ve had for many years that has become a regular feeling that only now i’ve managed to vocalise and put into words or text in this case

Relying back to what i said earlier,am i meant to be happy people frequently tell me yes but events sing a different tune

(For context i wrote half of this last night and then the remainder today which is where the split is but it is all sorta related)

You know its weird,just had a good night with my buddy playing and chatting yet when we call it a night which was alittle overdue but not regretted and when i’m left to my own devices i slap on some old music guess i was in a fallouty mood

With a brief walk outside in the midnight darkness and then i’m back in that kitchen of the house i spent years at but not much anymore

Guess it brings back memories,i remember talking to kimchi (an old friend) in that very same room late at night between my mid to late teens before it all went wrong

Not like i was fully happy back then but…i look in the fridge for a midnight snack thats not there,my body is tired yet my brain is more alive than ever

I wouldn’t call this an extensional crisis but it’s certainly a weird reflective period of sorts,enlightenment? Not the 1st time i’ve felt it in life for sure familiar yet rare

I wonder if sacha (again another old friend but more recent than kim) even thinks of me,i am almost certain kimchi doesn’t,i’m sure blue does as rare as it is and it’s certainly not pleasant…i wonder again what my purpose is

Am i supposed to succeed,to be happy…or simply survive. Or is my final chapter closer than i realise?

Surely I can’t be miserable for the next 60 years surely something has to go right? Or surely i will be allowed to rest in peace soon
——————————————————————————
Was on a call with someone earlier that day too,nice girl full of energy just met felt we really clicked but even as that time came to an end something felt off…like it wasn’t mutual that i had done something wrong

And low and behold a day later that much came clear to me,nothing back from them slience…the ghosting treatment

And this isn’t the 1st time recently either so i ask myself what is wrong with me,what makes me so repulsive and off putting to people… i genuinely wish that i knew but i don’t

I just want to feel like i belong for once, that i am valued by someone,that I’m needed by someone. Yet all i ever feel like or am is a burden,forgotten overlooked used and thrown away like some kind of cumrag excuse the vulgar nature of the phrase but it genuinely feels that dehumanising to me

Like my feelings don’t matter or least matter less than others,i’m like a sad puppy scratching at it’s door waiting for its carer to return

And when it finally does,it’s disinterested in you,it looks through you…and walks past as if you don’t exist or matter

I can’t say how often i think about people i wait for people i want to spend time with people and how often i get overlooked and dismissed

It’s a feeling i’ve had for many years that has become a regular feeling that only now i’ve managed to vocalise and put into words or text in this case

Relying back to what i said earlier,am i meant to be happy people frequently tell me yes but events sing a different tune