I’m trying to understand how Nia, a mom of four who seems overwhelmed with good reason, adds to her plate to take care of Brittany who is doing no such thing for her.
I understand the do unto others creed, but when somebody vilifies your husband on TV for a storyline that’s now going on far too long, what’s really in it for you to be organizing a meal train for that same woman… I don’t get it.
I've been working through a lot of the grief that comes from estrangement with a parent and because I like to channel grief into creation and not publicly put myself or family on blast but do believe that emotion must be expressed or it becomes internally toxic, I created an avatar for myself and wrote this song.
I know people hate AI for a variety of worthy reasons. For me, it has become cathartic on so many levels. Sharing the lyrics to my song here in the hope that some of you can relate to them, and if you want to hear the song performed, it's linked below.
I know it may sound silly, but seeing somebody embody my voice and what the song means for me, with an audience surrounding him singing along the words and their message... it makes me feel good. It makes me feel seen.
"One Day I'll Wake Up From All Of This"
https://youtu.be/-RnOtSwveks?si=rgiKfCyZl6sGoxKU
Verse 1:
I grew up in a house where the truth had soft edges,
Wrapped in stories meant to keep the world away.
They meant well, I know, but the quiet still lingers,
All the things we never learned how to say.
I’m raising my own now, trying to break patterns,
Learning how to show what I never got shown.
Some days I hear that old child inside me
Just wanting someone to tell him he’s known.
Pre-Chorus:
I’m changing the shape of the love I was given,
Turning old shadows into something that I can live in.
Chorus:
One day I’ll wake up from all of this,
All the fear, all the hurt, all the things I miss.
And maybe on that morning, when the veil finally lifts,
I’ll see the truth was love hidden in the rifts.
’Til then I’ll teach my sons the light I never found,
Hoping one day I’ll wake up from all of this… safe and sound.
Verse 2:
I tell them the truth even when my voice trembles,
Show them it’s fine when the heart gets loud.
Let them see me break so they won’t fear their own cracking,
Let them know their feelings make me proud.
I want them to grow up knowing they were witnessed,
Never managed, never muted, never blurred.
I want them to know that love is honest,
Not a lesson that lives between the lines unheard.
Pre-Chorus:
If the past was heavy, they’re the reason
It’s turning into something I can finally lift.
Chorus:
One day I’ll wake up from all of this,
All the worry, all the weight, all the bitterness.
And maybe on that morning when the shadows dismiss,
I’ll see I did enough through the fog and the twists.
’Til then I’ll keep showing them the love I wished existed,
Hoping one day I’ll wake up from all of this… unresisted.
Bridge:
Maybe there’s a doorway where two worlds meet,
Where the ones before us rise to their feet.
If I meet the child I was along the way,
I’ll tell him, “You’re safe now. It’s different today.”
And maybe he’ll smile in that place full of light,
Knowing I finally got the ending right.
Final Chorus:
One day I’ll wake up from all of this,
Step out of the weight of the pain I dismiss.
And maybe on that morning when the fog has been kissed
By the breath of the ones I have loved and have missed,
We’ll stand together where the soul begins—
No distance, no doubt, no walls, no spin.
But ’til that day comes, I’ll keep loving like this,
’Cause one day I’ll wake up from all of this…
And know I left more light than I found in the dark.