I think I might have alexithymia
It all started when my girlfriend of three years broke up with me. I came to realisation that I’ve always felt like I didn’t feel my emotions to the full extent. I’ve always felt like I ways looking at them through a wall or from above like my consciousness was above them. Like my emotions didn’t actually affect me. I think that brake up might have changed something in me. I’ve never felt this kind of emotion and I didn’t even think I could even feel something like that. I feel like I understand emotions more and I’m more capable of actually sitting with them. Another thing is I randomly feel sad, empty or frustrated and I can’t explain why. No matter how I look at them I can’t explain how I feel this way.