u/Hellnomytwnties

honestly i think maybe am hard to please or some? i really get bored when someone ask for relationship prior 3days of talking? isn't that too soon? like online or even face to face? i never really met anyone irl that i think we have the same ideas. I did saw some people online but they all either just want to sextext or are way too weird? idk i like talking with people especially someone i dont know and dont know me make me feel free to be myself...but its so hard to have someone who have the same ideologies as you especially as a queer muslim woman either they're Racist/ islamophones / internalized homophobes . I do wanna meet the perfect pair and i dont like the "dating for fun" too maybe thats why i mever dated or anything
you guys lmk how you met ur partner and how it went

Hello am 19F almost 20, And am a black hijabi a plus size woman and a lesbian. I feel like queer women are not interest in me at all all the women i meet treat me like a pet they find really cute or some sort of mother figure i hate it,because am plumb people naturally love making me their bed and always lay on me ( pls stop doing that ) but whenever a woman does it i feel super awkward because i genuinely KNOWS it will make me feel stuff. I sometimes think because am a hijabi hyper fem woman dont really see me as a potential partner and if its not for some people who follows my socials nobody will know am gay...and trust me i do say many things that give the hints. Since many women don't think am rlly gay they call me "baby, my love ;darling etc" or will say the most romantic thing me and go by their day because they think ill just take it like that.i really wanna be loved by a woman i really hope one day people will see my awkward smile as a sign and my compliments as a flirt and they will decide to make move w me slowly . I really just wanna feel the love of a woman i wanna feel the warmth and the Reassurance that woman gives.just that:(

as gay girl who had many female friendships nad often they get really intimate, I seriously wonder if am just being weird and delusional, Many girls will kiss , hug me and tell me pretty things. But many of them liked boys , When a gay girls did that with me i thought once that yes we're having something special turns out they do it with every one and worse. Now i dont wanna get ahead of myself i restrain myself from accepting some compliments or juat flirting back with anyone because am WAY too easy. I have a long distance friend that i often talk to many know her as my bsf but idk if we are . She's often really supportive and also really comfort me all all the time . In my opinion we are NOT that close because we did meet but only like 3 times and the feeling weren't...yk. We often talk about life relationships and everything wlse we often talk abt our insecurities and our lives abroad. She promised to take me to korea and live with me i fund her too cute because she's like a younger sister to me. someone told me that am brushing her feelings off. No am not am aware that it's gard for her to commit just like me . I dont hate our platonic relationship but each time we talk i feel like something is gonna happen if i don't stop being overly attached to her, i do relly on her alot because i dont have many friends and she's like my only close friend that i can talk too . :( i wanna set some boundaries so both of us dont get hurt i dotn really know what i want but i dont wanna loose her . I hope she feels the same , i lost someone dear to me because i had feelings for them am not doing that again ! Lmk what yall think about it. Also as a gay girl i get really nervous with women like when a kid has crush so many find it either cute or think am weird am mean! Idk what to do to deel more comfortable.

as gay girl who had many female friendships often they get really intimate, I seriously wonder if am just being weird and delusional, Many girls will kiss , hug me and tell me pretty things. But many of them liked boys , When a gay girls did that with me i thought once that yes we're having something special turns out they do it with every one and worse. Now i dont wanna get ahead of myself i restrain myself from accepting some compliments or just flirting back with anyone because am WAY too easy. I have a long distance friend that i often talk to many know her as my bsf but idk if we are . She's often really supportive and also really comfort me all the time . In my opinion we are NOT that close because we did meet but only like 3 times and the feeling weren't...yk. We often talk about life relationships and everything else we often talk abt our insecurities and our lives abroad. She promised to take me to korea and live with me i find her too cute because she's like a younger sister to me. someone told me that am brushing her feelings off. No am not am aware that it's hard for her to commit just like me . I dont hate our platonic relationship but each time we talk i feel like something is gonna happen if i don't stop being overly attached to her, i do rely on her alot because i dont have many friends and she's like my only close friend that i can talk too . :( i wanna set some boundaries so both of us dont get hurt i dont really know what i want but i dont wanna loose her . I hope she feels the same , i lost someone dear to me because i had feelings for them am not doing that again ! Lmk what yall think about it. Also as a gay girl i get really nervous with women like when a kid has crush so many find it either cute or think am weird and mean! Idk what to do to feel more comfortable.

this song is my favorite song, It was released by an underground band 20yrs ago and i cant find the guitar chords ANYWHERE! 😓😓 i want to cover it for my birthday in august!! Since am turning 20 and the song is about "a girl becoming an adult"
here's is the link of the song the name of the band is " sogyumo acacia band" thanks!