I sent the most pathetic message last night - pls send advice
Context: I broke up with my bf of 3 years exactly one month ago. it’s been so hard, I saw a future with him but he didn’t respect me as a person, crossed boundaries multiple times and I truly had no trust in him. The trust part only happened after we both fought very hard very our relationship and he didn’t make much change.
Once we broke up I was very emotional and hurt and judged him so hard when he opened up to me about how he was feeling about his mistakes and how he regretted but he was venting about it to me and I felt so terrible. He kept telling me the things he did was him not respecting me, that he would forget about me, he stop trying and took me for granted.
I felt terrible about judging him. I felt terrible for the way I broke up with him. I sent a short paragraph saying how I felt guilty and apologized for my actions. I told him he didn’t have to respond but I just feel even more pathetic than when I was in the relationship.
when do things get better. When do I get over him? When do I stop crying over him? Less than two months ago I thought I was gonna spend my life with him.