u/HonestOrangeDewd

Hello members of this sub, id like to start off by saying you are worth it and to always strive for greatness 😁. Also idk if this is the correct subreddit to even post this in 😬.

I grew up in a very conservative-Muslim household anything and everything that was slightly misaligned with our beliefs was bad. I developed a very deep hatred towards the LGBTQ community, I hated seeing gay couples, commercials promoting medication for gay men and even just thought of being perceived by a gay man would fuel my anger. Im ashamed to admit this but I even bullied and abused boys I assumed were gay, and I regret it now.

About 2 years ago now I met the most amazing group of people I could've ever met, on the worst week of my life.

I was a year into college and had broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years because I found out she was cheating on me with my cousin. I was sent very explicit photos and videos of my girlfriend sucking and being penetrated by another man's penis along with screen shots providing a time line of how long it had been happening and who the other man was (I still dont know who sent me all of that).

It had been a few days since recieving those messages, and I was VERY sleep deprived and was feeling suicidal. As i was sitting on the curb of a liqour store, smoking a cigarette and pounding a bottle of whiskey, along comes a group of 2 gay men and one drag queen looking to get turnt for the night, they noticed me crying on the curb and approached me. They were very compassionate and showed me the utmost respect I had ever received, I felt so at ease talking with them I actually let my guard down and vented to them. I expressed to them how I was at my breaking point and planned on shooting myself in my car, at this point I was full on sobbing and weeping with talking in between, they invited me to their apartment and they stayed up the whole night just listening to me drunkenly rant and they actually made me feel at peace. The next afternoon I woke up extremely hung over and still feeling immensely sad, with a hint of confusion and anger, I couldn't believe I slept on the couch owned by gay men let alone even talk to them about my emotions.

A month had passed by and they continued to check up on me, inviting me for brunch, coffe and just to hangout and every single time I just couldn't fight the urge to decline, after 3 months I actually felt at home being around them, their humor and overall gentleness relived me of my pain and hatred towards individuals like them. On the fourth month I sold the gun I was going to use to end my life that night and I found myself moving in with them.

Since then I consider them my best friends and my saviors, they've taught me that love is love and sometimes love can be cruel for any sexuality, me and the drag queen (im only referring to him as a drag queen because its relevant to the title lol) shared alot in common, we grew up the same way, both had strict Military veteran immigrant Fathers, we both grew up poor and unloved by our parents, the only thing that was different was our mindset and sexuality. He helped me embrace my inner feminine energy which overall made me funny lol (imo). He even helped me meet my current girlfriend.

Anyways, they completely changed my life and view on the world and Id give my life if it meant i could save theirs. If there is any gay person, or any person who identifies withing the LGBTQ community and you are facing any challenges, just know you are absolutely worth being here. Also if youre being bullied or hated on by someone for simply being yourself, I am sorry❤️.

I am writing this because my dear friend Francesco (the queen) was involved in a car crash and he lost his life . It has affected us tremendously and we all feel lost without him. I never got the chance to tell him specifically how much he changed my life. I love and miss you Fernie, we all do.

Love, Kadir.

21yo M ive noticed my hair is thinning in the front and my edges (temples?). The rest of my head has alot of thick hair, would DHT help? Where can I get DHT, what brand works best and how long would i have to be on it?

Im not sure what im looking to gain from posting this.

Im a 21yo male, 6ft 2in, 200lbs, slightly muscular and very sporty since childhood.

I have no masculine traits, no Adam's apple, no facial hair, no chest hair and no leg or arm hair. I have zero defining factors that make me feel a man (besides my penis) and its terrible.

I wish I can just grow facial hair to rock a goatee or a 70's porn stache, the lack of body and facial hair makes me feel less of a man, and ontop of all that im gay and live in a MAGA county.

Every time I try to attempt to grow a mustache it takes literal months to become barley visible and it just looks like a 15yo's pube-stache. Smh

I recently had a debate/discussion with my buddies. What's harder to accomplish? Going from fat>skinny>jacked OR Skinny>jacked. From my expirence, I lived through childhood obesity into early adulthood being 6ft 2in it was definitely harder for me to actually lose the weight than gain muscle once i was skinny. Now, my buddy disagreed, he said its harder to be skinny and gain muscle. What yall think?

I just turned 21 a few days ago, im relatively active, "skinny fat", not ugly but not all that.

Im 6ft 2in (on a good day). In my opinion I have a okay personality, a little anti-social. I have 3 friends and im doing okay. But im very insecure about my penis size. I know its mainly a confidence thing, but it SUCKS. I never feel good enough to initiate the first move, because im scared of the reactions that ill get.

Im 3.5 inches hard, button sized when im soft, uncut, big balls. Too top it off, i dont grow any facial hair, barley visible eyebrow hair, no leg or arm hair, only pubic hair.

I showed my penis to a girl 2 years back, she literally laughed at me and said "Yeah im not doing this" and she and walked out. I felt so embarrassed, I stayed up and cried all night.

I just want to feel confident with my size, I want to be those obnoxious cocky guys who show off because they know they got that thang on them. I wish I was able to rock undies only and flaunt my bulge but I literally have zero bulge. Sexual talk cringes me because I know im not a big enough size to talk like that. I dont really know how to feel, or how to act confident. I dont even know what im necessarily looking for by posting this, I guess I just want to know if anyone has ever felt the same, or has the same issue and overcame it? Idk.