u/HospitalObjective766

I feel like he is going to hate me

Hello all. Im going to try to keep this as breif as i can because i really need advise. Please ask questions in the comments.

Bassically im a 17 year old going to college in the fall and i have two dogs who are the reason im still here. They were with me when my mom died and when i was bullied and they have been my one constant. I technically live in the same house as my dad but i dont see him maybe once every other month (?). The dogs are mine and i cant trust him to take care of them when i go out of state in the fall. He works or is gone for over 16 hours a day.

One of then (wrigley) is an ESA and helps me with panic attacks and depressive episodes so she will be in a dorm with me. However, my other dog knox, im trying to find a foster for in or around the same town the college is in. Wrigley would be hard to find a foster for becuase she is more maintenance and doesnt always do well with other dogs or cats.

Im scared hes going to hate me. Knox and wrigley have been together bassically from birth and love each other so much and it hurts my heart to sepperate them. And im going to miss the hell out of knox cause hes my boy. But i cant leave them with my dad cause they wont be taken care of and he might hurt them in his anger fits. At least if i take them with me they could still maybe see me and each other. Im trying to find a home for knox close by so they can still see each other every week.

Tldr:
Im going out of state for college and seperating my two dogs. Im scared the one im finding the foster for is going to hate me think i dont love him. Ive never any type of love sinular to that of my dogs. Am i making a mistake, should i keep them together and if so how?

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u/HospitalObjective766 — 14 days ago

Hello all. Im going to try to keep this as breif as i can because i really need advise. Please ask questions in the comments.

Bassically im a 17 year old going to college in the fall and i have two dogs who are the reason im still here. They were with me when my mom died and when i was bullied and they have been my one constant. I technically live in the same house as my dad but i dont see him maybe once every other month (?). The dogs are mine and i cant trust him to take care of them when i go out of state in the fall. He works or is gone for over 16 hours a day.

One of then (wrigley) is an ESA and helps me with panic attacks and depressive episodes so she will be in a dorm with me. However, my other dog knox, im trying to find a foster for in or around the same town the college is in. Wrigley would be hard to find a foster for becuase she is more maintenance and doesnt always do well with other dogs or cats.

Im scared hes going to hate me. Knox and wrigley have been together bassically from birth and love each other so much and it hurts my heart to sepperate them. And im going to miss the hell out of knox cause hes my boy. But i cant leave them with my dad cause they wont be taken care of and he might hurt them in his anger fits. At least if i take them with me they could still maybe see me and each other. Im trying to find a home for knox close by so they can still see each other every week.

Tldr:
Im going out of state for college and seperating my two dogs. Im scared the one im finding the foster for is going to hate me think i dont him. Ive never any typenof love sinular to that of my dogs. Am i making a mistake, should i keep them together.

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u/HospitalObjective766 — 14 days ago
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Hello all. Im going to try to keep this as breif as i can because i really need advise. Please ask questions in the comments.

Bassically im a 17 year old going to college in the fall and i have two dogs who are the reason im still here. They were with me when my mom died and when i was bullied and they have been my one constant. I technically live in the same house as my dad but i dont see him maybe once every other month (?). The dogs are mine and i cant trust him to take care of them when i go out of state in the fall. He works or is gone for over 16 hours a day.

One of then (wrigley) is an ESA and helps me with panic attacks and depressive episodes so she will be in a dorm with me. However, my other dog knox, im trying to find a foster for in or around the same town the college is in. Wrigley would be hard to find a foster for becuase she is more maintenance and doesnt always do well with other dogs or cats.

Im scared hes going to hate me. Knox and wrigley have been together bassically from birth and love each other so much and it hurts my heart to sepperate them. And im going to miss the hell out of knox cause hes my boy. But i cant leave them with my dad cause they wont be taken care of and he might hurt them in his anger fits. At least if i take them with me they could still maybe see me and each other. Im trying to find a home for knox close by so they can still see each other every week.

Tldr:
Im going out of state for college and seperating my two dogs. Im scared the one im finding the foster for is going to hate me think i dont him. Ive never any typenof love sinular to that of my dogs. Am i making a mistake, should i keep them together.

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u/HospitalObjective766 — 14 days ago

Hello all. Im going to try to keep this as breif as i can because i really need advise. Please ask questions in the comments.

Bassically im a 17 year old going to college in the fall and i have two dogs who are the reason im still here. They were with me when my mom died and when i was bullied and they have been my one constant. I technically live in the same house as my dad but i dont see him maybe once every other month (?). The dogs are mine and i cant trust him to take care of them when i go out of state in the fall. He works or is gone for over 16 hours a day.

One of then (wrigley) is an ESA and helps me with panic attacks and depressive episodes so she will be in a dorm with me. However, my other dog knox, im trying to find a foster for in or around the same town the college is in. Wrigley would be hard to find a foster for becuase she is more maintenance and doesnt always do well with other dogs or cats.

Im scared hes going to hate me. Knox and wrigley have been together bassically from birth and love each other so much and it hurts my heart to sepperate them. And im going to miss the hell out of knox cause hes my boy. But i cant leave them with my dad cause they wont be taken care of and he might hurt them in his anger fits. At least if i take them with me they could still maybe see me and each other. Im trying to find a home for knox close by so they can still see each other every week.

Tldr:
Im going out of state for college and seperating my two dogs. Im scared the one im finding the foster for is going to hate me think i dont him. Ive never any typenof love sinular to that of my dogs. Am i making a mistake, should i keep them together.

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u/HospitalObjective766 — 14 days ago

Fuck this disorder.

How many times 

Have I looked into the toilet bowl 

Like it’s my saving grace 

My gardian angle 

How many times

have I made my throat raw 

To make myself not feel 

Not feel the guilt 

The shame 

The shame that comes with something so normal 

Something I need to do to live 

How many times do I fall on my knees 

To feel a sliver of control 

As the rope of life slips through my hands 

I lay on my bathroom floor 

Hands shaking

Raw

Bloody

achey throat 

Eyes bloodshot 

And cheeks puffy and wet with tears 

How many times must I fall to my knees

For this disorder that takes away the most human part of me 

How many times must I stick my fingers down my throat 

To feel in control 

In a world where I feel so small 

To make right the hatred 

The judgment 

That I see in the bathroom mirror 

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u/HospitalObjective766 — 21 days ago

Wrote a poem. Fuck this disorder right up the ass

How many times 

Have I looked into the toilet bowl 

Like it’s my saving grace 

My gardian angle 

How many times have I made my throat raw 

To make myself not feel 

Not feel the guilt 

The shame 

The shame that comes with something so normal 

Something I need to do to live 

How many times do I fall on my knees 

To feel a sliver of control 

As the rope of life slips through my hands 

I lay on my bathroom floor 

Hands shaking

Raw

bloody

achey

throat 

Eyes bloodshot 

And cheeks puffy and wet with tears 

How many times must I fall to my knees

For this disorder that takes away the most human part of me 

How many times must I stick my fingers down my throat 

To feel in control 

In a world where I feel so small 

To make right the hatred 

The judgment 

That I see in the bathroom mirror 

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u/HospitalObjective766 — 22 days ago