u/Hot-Candle-1321

It feels very uncomfortable, how can I stop that? I don't want to be super happy or feel joy, I just don't want to feel sad. I want to feel neutral. But why do I feel sad? There has to be a reason for it right?

It feels like feeling physical pain, but it's not physical, it's just mental and hard to explain. Like my brain is hurting. Or like my soul is in pain.

For example:

Physical pain is a warning signal so emotional pain is a warning signal too but what is it trying to tell me? What does it want from me? Why is my body producing this uncomfortable unpleasant pain? Is it just a misfiring of the synapses? How can I get rid of it?

I need suggestions and ideas. I need an activity that doesn't require any brain activity or else I get exhausted. I can't play videogames more than 2 hours cause then I get exhausted. I can't read books either cause it's too exhausting. I don't wanna watch movies because it makes me depressed. What else can I do to calm myself down and to entertain myself instead of doomscrolling? I don't want to draw or do art, listen to music, or stuff like that. Please give me some suggestions if you have any, thank you!

I always feel so weak and scared, I wish I was fearless and strong

I feel so ashamed I just want to diiiiee. Aaaaah. THE CRINGE IS FOLLOWING ME EVERYWHERE. I AM THE PERSONIFICATION OF CRINGE. I WANT TO GET RID OF IT BUT I CAN'T AAAH. 😭