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Watching the episode with the Bangles concert. It’s really odd that Paris was friends with these two. I mean yeah I get the whole mean girls thing and she’s the queen bee but Paris is so rigid and studious that it doesn’t make sense for her to be friends with anyone this boy crazy or party girl types. Also Waverly & 1st doesn’t exist in NYC, that’s a separate nitpick of mine when they disappear to the party during the concert, lol.

There’s something so ironic about my mother telling me I was ungrateful daily when I was a child, and now recently she texts me daily to get my gratitude list. I have no issue sending such to my sponsor (even though these lists haven’t really seemed to help me mentally?) but when mom does it makes me furious. I won’t get into why I dislike my mom, but it’s valid. Curious if anyone else has a sober parent (in AA) and finds it hard to relate to them.

I just asked my partner “why didn’t anyone stalk Val, she’s so hot” and he said “Val would’ve outsmarted them, ran them over and figured out a way to steal all their money.” lol, I’ve exposed him to a lot of 90210! A very accurate and hot take! 😆

I’m back on the wagon, 3 days in. I did something dangerous a few days ago while drunk, I put my life in danger intentionally. Now decided to go back to meetings + decline my friend’s 30th bday party. I’ve been down this road many times. I know what to do / what not to, for now. I just want to commiserate right now. It sucks that going to a party isn’t possible for me. My various comorbidities means i’m not normal, I can’t drink safely. My partner can, at least 30 people attending the party. Why me. I just want to celebrate, but after my display the other night over literally nothing resembling a slight or personal affront at me, I’ve proven I cannot. I want to dress up, enjoy myself. Be a girl, I guess. But I just make a mess of everything. It’s just so sad.

This has controlled my entire life. I’m late diagnosed 41 female. I married 3 times when I didn’t really want to. I upended my life several times in New York City for partners or situationships that weren’t worth my time. For context, I will say that my marriages occurred in the midwest, whereas New York was where the “situationships” occurred. As a youth, I was obsessed with romance themed music, Tv and movies. Last night I turned a corner and I don’t think I can maintain these types of obsessions anymore. I can’t get into what I did last night to escape the situation because it’s more geared towards a therapist. I live with a person who I’ve been involved with for a decade. We have a cat that I would die for. But I don’t think I can keep up the charade of a romantic connection anymore. Has anyone else burned out on love?

I just started a remote job this week. I got ready today, even washed my hair, makeup, nice top. I was so relieved to see no one had cameras on! Seems like this will be a low key place, at least in terms of appearances. I enjoy being just a number and doing my tasks. My last jobs bosses were camera happy, and they also did this stupid weekly meeting where we had to report “good news business” and “good news personal.” As in, news about my personal life! How mortifying! I always had to make something up that sounded normie, lol. Anyway…it took me a few months to land this gig and I’m thrilled. Happy Friday yall

I just finished AYITL only for the 2nd time. I feel depressed and may go back to S1. Anyone else do this? hehe