21F~

Reddit is full of strangers. You’ll get to know some of them, and they will become your friends. Some of them may lie to you, and some are genuine. Some of them may disrespect you, and some of them will surely respect you for who you truly are. Some of them may use the problems or experiences you shared against you and take advantage of them.

You’ll never expect to meet kind people because they are very rare. However, there is always a 1% possibility. This kind of person will tell you that you’re cool. They will tell you that they enjoy talking to you. You’ll feel the same way. But don’t ever expect it to last long. Don’t expect that you’ll talk to them for a longer period of time. They may disappear anytime.

Getting to know people is a quite long process because it is an exploration of another person’s thoughts, values, and experiences. They say getting to know someone is a process of discovery. It involves building trust. And for some, trusting is never easy, especially if they have experienced betrayal many times. They’re scared to trust again, thinking it might hurt them again. They’re protecting themselves. That’s why it’s important that you give them time to trust you. Why not try to understand and respect them? Because understanding and respecting someone is very important—but why is it so hard for others to do?

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO MESSAGED ME AFTER I POSTED FOR THE FIRST TIME HERE ON REDDIT. I THANK THOSE WHO GENUINELY CARE AND THOSE WHO TRIED TO BE MY FRIENDS. IT’S NICE KNOWING YOU! THANK YOU! ADIOS.

Reddit is full of strangers. You’ll get to know some of them, and they will become your friends. Some of them may lie to you, and some are genuine. Some of them may disrespect you, and some of them will surely respect you for who you truly are. Some of them may use the problems or experiences you shared against you and take advantage of them.

You’ll never expect to meet kind people because they are very rare. However, there is always a 1% possibility. This kind of person will tell you that you’re cool. They will tell you that they enjoy talking to you. You’ll feel the same way. But don’t ever expect it to last long. Don’t expect that you’ll talk to them for a longer period of time. They may disappear anytime.

Getting to know people is a quite long process because it is an exploration of another person’s thoughts, values, and experiences. They say getting to know someone is a process of discovery. It involves building trust. And for some, trusting is never easy, especially if they have experienced betrayal many times. They’re scared to trust again, thinking it might hurt them again. They’re protecting themselves. That’s why it’s important that you give them time to trust you. Why not try to understand and respect them? Because understanding and respecting someone is very important—but why is it so hard for others to do?

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO MESSAGED ME AFTER I POSTED FOR THE FIRST TIME HERE ON REDDIT. I THANK THOSE WHO GENUINELY CARE AND THOSE WHO TRIED TO BE MY FRIENDS. IT’S NICE KNOWING YOU! THANK YOU! ADIOS.

I don't know how to start this, but I met someone in 2024, and he made me feel like he was into me.

In June 2024, this guy offered me the opportunity to join the organization he's in, and that's how we became close. After being around each other, I already had the intuition that he's not good with hearts, but I don't know why I let myself fall. He looked after me, drove me home, bought me food, made me laugh, and made me feel special. We had the same vibes. Everything he showed and did for me, I considered as kind gestures only. We're in the same organization, that's why I didn't mind what he did.

Not until he followed all of my social media accounts, even my ML account. We had conversations on every social media platform I had. Before he followed my socials, he had already asked for my phone number. He called and texted me. We talked a lot. I didn't realize that I was already falling for this guy. Maybe it was because of the attention he gave me because, after so many years, I once again felt that someone cared about me. The good things he did and made me feel, all of that was something I wanted to experience. Maybe that is the reason.

Additionally, he also did the push-and-pull thing. He would reply to my notes, then disappear. He would say goodnight, but not good morning. He would disappear and then come back. I had also already heard from other girls, and even from him, what kind of guy he is. He said his reputation with other girls was not good.

As times goes by I realized that my mood was based on his behavior towards me. I started to feel jealous whenever he was around other girls or talking to other girls. I AM SO STUPID. I tried to stop my feelings, but my heart was so stupid.

Then, one night in October 2024, he told me everything about his plans in life, including the person he wanted to marry. He mentioned his two options, and I couldn't believe he was worse than I thought. That night, the pain I felt after knowing everything ripped my soul apart. That night, I finally knew where I stood in his life.

So, I decided to move on and let go because he said he would pursue one of his options in 2025. I had already accepted that there was nothing special going on between us. Those gestures, that stare, those conversations, our laughs—everything was nothing.

Since we're in the same organization, it's not that easy to just stay away. So I SET A LIMIT. I said, just give me until December 2024, and I will not show up in this organization ever again just so I won't see or talk to him. So I can finally move on.

On Christmas Eve, he replied to my story. I replied, but we weren't having long conversations anymore. Then, one week before 2025, I was scrolling on TikTok when he posted someone. The feeling I felt when I saw that made me sick. I can't explain the feeling, but I felt like crying at that time. My chest tightened up. I felt like someone was choking me. I don't know, but I felt like my world had crashed down. I already knew that would happen, but why was I caught off guard? It still got me.

In 2025, I was doing really great. The pain and feelings were slowly fading away. I muted his socials, stopped viewing his stories, and deleted his number. It wasn't easy to let go and move on. I already knew he was in a relationship.

Unfortunately, in August 2025, he reached out again. He offered me something that he knew I couldn't resist. He offered me work. (He's handling a lot of businesses.) He knew that I was struggling financially. (In 2024, he also paid for my organization shirt.)

I was really struggling at that time because I didn't have work anymore. I did not accept it right away. I talked with my friends about it. I asked for advice. I also went to church to attend Mass. I remember the priest saying during Mass, "MONEY IS EVIL." I was so stunned because maybe that was the sign. I thought about not accepting it. But how would I survive college without working? Without having my own money? I didn't have a choice but to take the risk, they express it as "kapit sa patalim". So, yeah, I accepted it.

Then the roller coaster happened again. The pain came back, and so did my feelings. I tried to make sure there were no personal conversations, only transactions. Business talk. That's what we did. But we still saw each other. We also spent time working on the business. He would also go to my house to get the products and deliver the things I needed. Nothing more, just business.

For you to know, I am just renting, so I moved twice. In 2024, at the first place, he knew where I lived. In 2025, he still knew. Until now, in 2026, he still knows.

I feel like I chose my own poison. It kills me. It feels like I killed myself a thousand times. I feel like I locked myself in, and I can't get out. There was a time when he said he would deliver things to my house. At first, he did. But there were times when he said he would but didn't show up, like last night.

There was a time when I waited until 2 a.m. because he said he would come, even though I had a 7 a.m. class. Yeah, I am so stupid. I am being stupid.

He also showed up here with his girlfriend. DAMN But I knew it will happen.

I can't understand him. He said he'll stop doing this business already because he will leave town. To be honest, I really want to stop doing this. I already want to stay away from him, but I still don't have the privilege. Yeah, I am hurting myself. I can't understand, every time I am already doing great, feelings are fading off he will reach out again and again. I can't escape anymore. I am stuck.

At the very first place, he is being too insensitive. He doesn't really care about what I will feel. His emotional intelligence is 0%. Does he even know he's hurting me over and over again? What is his plan? His real intention? Why he's doing this? Why would he give me that stare when he's already with someone else? Why can't he just let me go?