u/Hour-Alternative2739

I just need to vent. I have to wait one more week before getting tested. I just want to get it over with!!! I'm tired of the anxiety. I could wait longer to reach the 45 day mark but I might lose it if I do that. The nurse said a month was ok to get tested so I'll follow her advice.

I'm relatively low risk though I upped my risk like an idiot because I didn't realize fluid sharing increased the risks. I wasn't thinking at all tbh. I'm a female, had unprotected sex multiple times w a new partner and ditched the condom bc I'm a dumbass. NEVER AGAIN. My god.

Since I'm female I know the risk is lower than if I wasn't, but the unknowing is freaking me out.

Ahhhh😔😔😔 my consolation is that I tested negative for gono and chlamydia 🫩

I already told you that I am not interested in investing myself emotionally when things are uncertain and unreciprocated.

This whole push-pull, yes but no, maybe later, not right now stuff is childish.

I wanted to see how you would move forward, so I took a step back to make you more comfortable in our dynamic. And in turn, you are pulling back. That's fine. It's showing me that you are incapable of clear communication. That is not a quality I am looking for in someone.

I realize that you probably do not actually feel guilt or sadness about the way you're slowly disappearing. In fact, you'd probably find me pathetic for even caring at all. It's simply confirmation that this is not something worth pursuing. My understanding of this does not make it less hurtful, though.

I suppose we'll see how you show up in the next few days, if you do at all. I have a feeling this won't go anywhere. You're not making me want it to, anyway.

This is the least romantic thing I've experienced in a long, long time. I need passion, desire, to go beyond the surface. Not whatever this is. At the very least, you could clearly state your feelings and thoughts. That's literally all I've asked for since we started this.

Unfortunate. Oh well.

I don't know what we were, nor what we are. The whole "I don't text because I'm a bad texter" is bs. I can tell avoidance from actually being busy.

He told me outright that he is an avoidant, but that he's working on it, and that he was much worse before. Ok, cool. I didn't realize the extent to which he avoids.

It feels stupid. We never dated, though he stated that to him "we're dating" while simultaneously being non-exclusive. Also nonsense. It's one or the other. But ok, that is the avoidant's fantasy, I guess.

I feel dumb for caring so much and being so hurt from his complete lack of consistency and honesty + his attempts to work around my boundaries to get his way. In the very little time we have been (were?) seeing each other (4 weeks?), it's like the "dates" went from meaningful to more superficial every time. Or, more so, his interest in treating me like someone he took seriously. Our final date confirmed it - I am to be discarded, and very, very easily. I say "were?" bc our lack of communication since the last time we saw each other clearly displays we're basically strangers now.

I am a real person with real feelings. When I speak my truth, it's to get on the same page - a clear page. Not to be told what the person thinks I want to hear.

The breadcrumbing is pissing me off. Either ghost me for good or communicate appropriately. I will not continue to attempt to define this relationship anymore. It isn't anything.

It is beyond me how when avoidants feel even slightly uncomfortable, they disappear as if they have no responsibility or accountability in their relationships with people. Jesus Christ. I did not need this.

I hope I'm wrong and he truly is simply too busy to speak! 🤡 who am I kidding.

Hi!

I have an STI scare. I smelled a BV-like odour during sex which was my red flag. Found out the guy I was sleeping with had unprotected sex a day before sleeping w me (and I stupidly gave up on the condom very fast with him), and we had unprotected sex multiple times after that.

For a full panel test I'd have to wait another 3 and a half weeks, but the uncertainty is killing me. I haven't even smelled the BV smell outside of that intercourse moment but the fact I smelled off is a huge concern. I'm taking bv clearing gel now but I'm still worried.

Any tips to calm my nerves until I can get my full panel test? I could also get tested asap for the symptoms I do have but the nurse I spoke to said I might as well just take the bv gel, see if it clears, and come at the 1 month mark to test it all at once rather than in 2 instances.

I'm stressed!😣