MD seriously affecting school. Need help!
From the minute I wake up I put on my headphones and start daydreaming. I’ve been doing this for years now, ever since I was little. It’s always been a problem. But now, (now being about a year ago) it’s become a serious harmful problem. It’s affecting my going to school, that along with anxiety and maybe a little depression. School has always been hard for me, specially math and certain sciences. I’ve been gone for 2 weeks straight, maybe longer I don’t even remember. And this is after they said they’d give me a second chance. I’m the one who brought up the deal that if I go consistently and pass my finals they’ll pass me. Some said yes, others said that they’d think about it. And I’m not even sticking to the deal. I mean it’s my life I’m ruining and I know it, all they have to do is type a grade in for me. It’s be much easier to fail me than having to go and check my work. I really need help, and I know that’s what everybody is searching for here I don’t blame them. I’m going to try to cover my computer with a towel or something so maybe I won’t be tempted to use it. Out of sight out of mind. I just don’t know about my phone. When I go on walks my mom wants me to bring my phone, I don’t really bring it to school. If anyone has any ideas on what I should do please let me know. I know most people are thinking “just get back to school” but for some reason it’s hard for me. I know others will say to go to therapy or try medication. But I don’t want to do that. I had one doctor, she was trying to give me anxiety medicine (not even what I was there for) said that it’s all psychological, that my brain tells my feet to move and for whatever reason my brains telling my feet not to go to school. And I guess she was right I just don’t want to take medicine for it. Please if anyone has advice let me know!