u/Icy-Mountain-2049

hi everyone, basically my parents are asking me to choose between doing pharmaceutical management and nursing. im currently not in aus but im gonna be moving there and living in perth in a few months, so i have 2 options between doing nursing in aus vs pharma in my country. i was leaning towards nursing because i dont think i can survive struggling for 8+ years with doing b pharma +mba before starting to earn real money, after b pharma in my country, you get nothing but pennies. only after mba is pharma worth it. i also feel like i wont have any fulfilment in a 9-5 cubicle.
but my parents dont like the idea of nursing. they think its a lowe class labour job. no respect, and cleaning piss and shit. and i know i will have to do all the bad things but i still havnt decided on a 'goal' and 'ambition' so for me being independent is my no1 priority, and nursing can give me that. but im told time and time again by everyone that its a mistake. i was hoping for some advice.
thanks

I'm 17F. For the past 2 years I've been preparing for a competitive exam, the most competitive of my country. I haven't gone to school for 2 years because I told myself and everyone else I want to be a doctor.

Even before that during my grade 9th and 10th I've struggled with food and sh. I developed a severe vitamin deficiency and later started overeating (after my exam preparation started) now becamw borderline diabetic.

I have 3 friends and I havnt spoken to them in weeks. I started cutting myself. My parents took away my door lock and my phone. Even now I'm using my moms laptop for this. I almost failed my final exams. I did not clear he exam that I was studying for and I now have to go to a mediocre college for a degree I don't want. I used to love doing art and I even states my own yt channel an posted a few shorts but I've since then stopped and it's been almost 8-9 months since I've made anything. I used to write a lot. Stories, poetry etc and it's Ben almost 2 years since then. I havnt gone out in over a year an my parents won't even let me. I'm not allowed to text or call people. I havnt actually studied in 1.5 yeara. The first 6 months of my preparation I was working hard. But then the isolation got to me coupled with the fact that my scores wernt going up eithr.

I've wasted 2 years of my time and my parents money and I genuinely don't know if I can move on. I see all my friends going to college doing internships and startups and I feel like I'm lagging. Ive wasted my entire teenage life and my college life is over before It even started because my parents will be keeping a watch on me the whole time. I've never gone out with friends and if never bought something or went somewhere on my own of my own will. All of this so eventually I can get a low paying job at some 9-5 and get married to some assholw because I have to because I don't earn well enough. I feel like I've lost everything these past 2 years.I pretend to talk to my old friends like genuinely talk to myself. I cannot do anything without having music in the back or the TV. I feel like I've become dead weight an it hurts because I wasn't like that.. I was the "popular girl" if you will. And I don't want to be the one who Peaked in highschool but I feel like I don't have anything else in my lie anymore

So my mhcet phase 1 results came out and I got 85 percentile. I gave cuet,bitsat (122marks) ,iat,nest also and abhi phase 2 ka bhi baaki hai.

So now I have 2 options go for some low grade pharma college like my dad wants me to accept or somehow convince my parents and hide from the world for 1 more year. I'm currently at the 290-300 range.

I genuinely don't know what to do. Idk if my parents will let me take a drop.