Forced my self to go on multiple walks, do some writing, make some phone calls/texts, and book a trip, but just trudging along.
Otherwise passing the time in bed with lights off and eyes open or closed in silence.
This sucks.
I had a good medication mix for like 1.5 years and then it just randomly stopped being as effective.
We upped doses and that didn’t work so now we’re removing stuff and adding new stuff and wiggling doses around it’s so exhausting and I don’t feel good. Been at it for what feels like months now.
Damnit why isn’t there just a magic pill already! We have self driving cars and robots that can do laundry but no magic pill?! Wtf!!
I don’t have anyone in my life that needs to know, or even deserves to know, and it feels lonely.
What do you do to cope with loneliness? Have you ever told someone and regretted it? Not told someone and regretted it?
This happened to me and I feel like a total loser because of it. Anyone else have a similar experience? How did you handle it? What did you and your team end up doing?
Beth Wants the D is a stage production (available online) where Beth May shares her experience navigating bipolar disorder and suicidal ideation.
As someone with bipolar, this is one of the few things I’ve seen that accurately captures what mania and bipolar depression look and feel like. It’s also somehow hilarious without downplaying the seriousness.
Wanted to share because it might resonate or be helpful to explain bipolar to someone else.