I need help
Hi,
I'm sorry I know this question must be asked a lot of times, so I understand if you don't want to take the time to answer don't worry !
But I'm very lost, and scared. I feel like maybe I'm AroAce, but I'm scared that maybe I'm not because people will tell me that I was faked, or just an attention seeker. So I want to be sure if I'm AroAce or not, because I don't know if I'm valid enough to say that I am.
Okay so, I'm a young adult now, and since always I never fall in love or have sexual and romantic attraction to anyone, even fictional characters. I mean, yeah I found some people really cool and good looking but it's different from romantic and sexual attraction no ? When I was a child I always wanted to be in love, because my parents said that was the only reason to be alive, to be married and have kids. So I said that I was bisexual and I tried to forget about the AroAce label. But now that I'm mature enough, I realize that, yeah I want to have a strong bond with someone, but not necessarily romantic. It doesn't matter to me if I will never be married, and I don't want children anyway. So am I Aromantic or not ?
And I don't know if I'm valid enough to be in the Asexual community. Honestly I don't think I want to have sex at all. And I never feel the desire to be intimate with anyone. But, when I'm reading fanfiction (sometimes NSFW), I feel something, is it just libido or I don't know what it's called, or is it because I'm not asexual ?
I still think every gender is attractive but not in a sexual or romantic way, I don't know if it's understandable.
I'm really sorry to bother you all with this. I don't want to offend anyone by saying that I'm on a label that maybe I'm not.
I'm really sorry if I said something wrong !! That was never my intention.