u/Ill-Character1643

I'm 22, even though i never post or talk too much about how i feel, i'm doing it here now because life just feels extremely heavy, and i cannot keep it to myself amymore.

I have no friends or gf ( it's been like that for a few years) and i'm always alone.

Since childhood i would feel shame showing any emotions or talking to someone about it because i didn't feel like anyone cared and the friends i had in school would be cruel and laugh at me whenever i was more myself.

I'm feeling really low, any tasks feels joyless and very hard to do and the worst thing is that i feel stuck because i feel to ashamed and stressed talking to anyone about how i feel, even my family members.

However i cannot keep living like this ( i'm not suicidal or anything)carrying this sadness and shame within myself and pretending that i'm fine...

Any suggestions or support is appreciated

Im 22, and have no friends. I don't have a job or gf and i feel alot of shame about it.

I can feel that i want to have them, socialize ect, but i have no idea where to go and how to do that, i'm afraid of rejection also, and don't want to appear awkward.

What can i do?

Thanks in advance

Hi. I'm really into eletctronics, boards. I have some knowledge but not too much.

My goal is to start making income from this somehow. Where can i start exactly? Because i have no idea.

I have solder gun, heat station, microscope, breadboard and basic stuff.

Thanks in advance