u/Ill_Comparison_9821

Hi there, I have two boys under the age of seven. Over the past few years, I’ve become increasingly miserable towards my kids. I feel chronically unhappy, constantly frustrated with them, and I find myself screaming, yelling, and telling them they’re terrible. I just want to rip my hair out. What on earth is wrong with me? I feel like everything is catching up to me, and I’m just so incredibly miserable. I loved being a mother in the beginning but now I'm just sad and hateful.

When I had my first baby, I was the kind of mother I had always hoped to be. Then my second son was born in February 2021. Around the same time, my husband was emotionally abusive, and my oldest, who was only 2 years old, began showing signs of autism. The stress became overwhelming, and a therapist started me on sertraline. I came off the medication in 2024.

Now my boys are 7 and 5. My oldest has autism and ADHD, and my youngest has ADHD and ODD. They are incredibly sensitive, but they can also be very oppositional. They refuse to go to school, fight constantly, scream, yell, break things, beg relentlessly, and sometimes tell me they hate me. The list goes on.

I miss the mom I used to be—the mom I wanted to be. I rarely smile anymore. I’m constantly anxious, overwhelmed, and agitated. I find myself yelling far more than I’d like, and I feel miserable. I love my boys more than anything, but parenting through these challenges has been the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced, and some days I barely recognize myself.

We have some good moments but I’m generally really bitchy and triggered. I go places and see kids with no conditions just sit in their chair. They aren’t wiggling around but just coloring- my kids are always pacing, thrashing on things, running around, slamming doors, jumping off furniture or standing on furniture.

Hi, I have a 35 degree rotating spinal curvature and I always look at people’s backs. Last year my son was playing in the backyard and I noticed his curve. I must admit, I got panicked and made him an appointment to be diagnosed. 6 months have passed and I’ve been in deep research but it’s progressing. Doctor said no x rays until 10. I found scoliosis care centers in CA and OK and they use a standing MRI. We live in Madison WI, some of the best hospitals in the country but I don’t want to diagnose for surgery. I want to move into finding the root cause and moving into therapy and bracing. Any information is helpful.

16 years in, over a thousand clients and hundreds on repeat. I feel dead inside. Husband don’t want to help with bills, divorce is is beyond reach financially, I’m burned out, mortgage, bills, debt. I recently stayed late for a client (was done at 2, stayed until 4:30, she messaged saying won’t make it until 5:15). My friend texted me asking me what’s up, I replied to my client coming in instead of friend bitching about it. It really sucked and the problem is me- I’m carrying a lot of invisible weight and I have kids, should’ve been home with my family at 2 enjoying my afternoon, instead I crossed my own boundaries. Anyhow, that client cancelled her future appointment. Basically I’m just done. I’m 41, getting old, tired, burned out, not happy. Nothing I can do right now.