Do you think I'll die with a smile?
We ended on good terms, but I’m still living with the guilt of letting you go, imagining that you secretly resent me for making that decision.
Even though we're not together anymore, I hope I brought something meaningful to your life. I hope you felt whatever small amount of kindness and love I had left in my heart.
I'm also sorry for making your first relationship a painful memory. You were the first person to fully embrace every fiber of my being, even if we didn't fit perfectly. Please don't think it was your fault it didn't work out in the end. You're still the same bright, optimistic person, and I'm hoping your life will get better without me.
As for me... I've been feeling unwell and will probably stay in bed for a week or so. But if there's one thing you've taught me, it's to believe that better days exists, even when today feels the worst. It makes me wonder if someday, someone like you can see through the darkest depths of my soul and love me through it all. Or maybe at least die with a smile, because failure is the only guarantee.