my mum does of and i feel like it’s ruining my life
So my mum started of a long time ago and i always knew about it. When i was at school and people found out about it ofc i was a little embarrassed but no one really said much as i was quite popular and they knew i would stand my ground(bit of a rag teen so no one would mess) i never really cared but recently after a few years ive started going to livestock auctions as im a farmer, a lot of people have found out about it as my mother told someone who is very known at the auctions and is a gobshite, telling him everything and showing him. I am extremely embarrassed as i feel now i’m just going to be known at the prn stars daughter, as i am a young adult girl going people talk. I feel sick thinking people think i do it bc she does. It is ruining my reputation completely as i will be attending these auctions for the rest of my life. I told her how i felt and she doesn’t even try understand it from my point of view. I just don’t know what to do, i love her and appreciate everything she has done for me but i just don’t know if i can go on like this anymore. I feel like pushing her away and just not having her in my life but then i feel bad for feeling that way.
If anyone could give any advice or if anyone has gone through similar i would love to chat as i don’t know anyone who has had a mother doing of. It’s hard when you can’t speak abour it to anyone.