u/Impossible_Novel660

Almost 15, have no motivation to live at all. Can't get testo till I turn like 20 due to highschool and my mom forcing me to wait. I am short af, slightly shorter than 5 ft, and I feel like I have NO chance of growing even a bit taller. I can't even buy most of the masc clothes cus they don't fit me.

I have no friends at all except for a few people I talk to sometimes (none of them are irl), I have nothing to do in life except for gaming and watching random shit due to my ass self-esteem, which makes me feel as an even bigger failure.

I loved being a girl as a child, so mom doesn't even believe me I'm trans.

The ONLY good things about me that I'm quite smart in school and I have naturalbody hair (I gen might grow a mustache if I didn't shave).

I just can't wait 5+ years to finally get t and THEN wait 1 year for it to do something. I had dysphoria for years and I feel so fucking hopeless.

I WANT to fix my mindset, but I have no idea how.

TLDR: I can't get testo, how do I stop feeling like a helpless failure while having to wait 5+ years in dysphoria?

Ftm, curious how do i even get the T. Do i just buy it online? My mom doesn't allow me to get it till i "develop brain fully" and this kinda shit. I lowkey don't give a fuck anymore, i just need my testo cus dysphoria is eating me alive

for example mc cheating on some girl and literally everyone turning away from him. something like that but any genre is okay

Basically it was okay for 4-5 months and today... Stopped working suddenly.

When I charge em, the light DOES show up, but it disappears in like 3 seconds (it usually stayed there till I stopped charging them).

And idk if this changes anything but the classic Fresh n Rebel ones, yeah. Would like some help since I don't really wanna buy a new one again.

so started playing today and have no idea who's in meta rn. I kinda wanna buy Testament, Bridget or ABA but idk if any of these are easy enough to play for a newbie... Also, any charas i can train on first?

Want to start playing these series but have no idea where to start.. That's it.