u/ImpressionClassic665

Life's fun when all your openly bullies are men. Other women might be discreetly condescending, but at least they compliment by calling my outfit pretty. Makes it even better when you're straight.

Hello, I'm a size M and sometimes when I try clothing in my size, it's ridiculously large and boxy. It always looks like a huge bag and immediately makes me feel panic and disgust. Even S or XS looks sometimes huge and boxy!

I took 50mg of Sertraline and Opipramol, because I have OCD, depression and social anxiety. That shit fucked me up. I began self-harming again and also became way more suicidal. Not only that, but I probably had an hypomanic or manic episode for the first time ever when taking them. Also now I have the occasional involuntary movement that may be painful, trouble walking and standing and also other issues. Now I'm advised to see a neurologist.

Just a little venting. I took 50mg of Sertraline and Opipramol, because I have OCD, depression and social anxiety. That shit fucked me up. I began self-harming again and also became way more suicidal. Not only that, but I probably had an hypomanic or manic episode for the first time ever when taking them. Also now I have the occasional involuntary movement that may be painful, trouble walking and standing and also other issues. Now I'm advised to see a neurologist. Thanks, fuckass pills.

OCD, social anxiety and depression.

I was prescribed 50mg of Sertraline by my GP. Intense side and rare side effects. So my pupils were first different sizes and then both huge. My jaw and mouth kept moving uncontrollably to the point I had an underbite and two small wounds in my mouths. My jaw felt like it was trying to leave my body. I even began to tug on it, as if I wanted to rip it out. Also began moving jittery and like a air dancer. Felt quite "funny" (high?) on it and was also hyperactive according to my mother. Told the GP and he immediately told me to stop it. Then he prescribed me 50mg of Opipramol.

The Opipramol doesn't help my intrusive thoughts at all. Instead it makes me SUPER sleepy. My head lolls, eyes constantly roll back and when I stand, I may drift off and have to lean against walls to not potentially fall over. One day I took it, nodded off and fell asleep. Now the interesting part: I woke up at 1 a.m, pupils large, feeling "funny" and began running between rooms. Was hyperactive again. I also considered just simply walking out in the night with nothing but my PJ's, but luckily my mind was present to save me from such a stupid decision. Currently my movement is super weird and I my body also folded multiple times backwards.

So this question is based on my past, personal experiences. I got diagnosed last year with OCD, depression and social anxiety. The OCD definitely dominates my mental health issues. Currently I have themes of intrusive thoughts that I can simply brush off as my OCD, but there were moments with bad insight

Here are my past personal experiences that lead me to this question:

1. I thought I was really going to die if I feel asleep. It came out of nowhere and I didn't question the logic of it all. For about two weeks or a month - I have a bad sense of time - I thought I would die if I feel asleep. The most extreme incident was when I stayed up till 6:30 a.m despite being extremely exhausted and being unable to properly walk and walking against walls. I only fell asleep due to pure exhaustion. I also begged to be put into the hospital, because I was so sure of dying. Only after that belief stopped, I recognized it was purely illogical.
2. I believed people in my social circle were secretly bullying me and ganging up on me. It was first just my class. I mean it isn't illogical to be concerned about being bullied by your class, because it actually did happen in my class. We had a social pariah. But it became more and more extreme. Then I thought the whole school was ganging up on me. And I had thoughts of ending my life in front of my "conspirators" and I actually had somewhat active suicidal ideation. And then it reached the point where thought my whole TOWN was involved in that conspiracy. Whenever I witnessed random strangers talking, I assumed it was about ME. I also began begging again and this time it was to leave the whole state! I had some insight that it was illogical, but not really. But months after experiencing it, it's just pure bullshit. Why would anyone care about some random, socially inept teenage girl?