u/Inevitable_Bid8719

I love the concept of atman/ brahman. I think brahman could be a literal extradimensional creature which composes all of us (living beings) and we need egos in order to keep us alive, without them we would be brahman fully, like what happens in ndes and ego death from meditation or drugs - while we enjoy such experiences, they are often terrible for our physical health.

Could brahman also be inanimate matter? reality as we know it?

Ive been trying to learn these things from my own research but I feel like im missing a huge amount in translation and enlightened people, while knowledgable, are too dualistic for me to understand easily. I get dualism, I speak dualistically too - but it annoys me that it doesnt make much sense, like every sentence needs hours of meditation to absorb.

I learn fairly well watching discussions on yt, healthygamergg and alex o'connor are great for this. Any suggestions for learning there would be appreciated

we know one thing for sure - cogito ergo sum- I think therefore I am

We can extrapolate from that, with questionable accuracy, but that is the only truly knowable statement we all can agree on. Though that doesnt mean it could not be falsified still, there are possibilities outside of our understanding which could falsify our perception as we see it, I think resurrection is one of those possibilities.

resurrection doesnt mean we come back as someone or something else, it means we truly are everything that is- not even at all times - we are outside of time, beyond space itself looking in through everything which has perceptive abilities. Life/ perception/ soul/ consciousness is a force of nature or a building block of the universe, it is a constant of some kind, and we experience it from human shaped meat boxes right now, but we will be all things together at some point.

We have no choice in existing, you cant blame your parents,(they just had a child, they werent aiming to get 'you' any other soulwould have been fine) you can blame the universe itself but you are the universe too, so its your own fault you were born if you take that route, you could blame god... but I dont think thats an argument to put on this sub... Im open to hearing other possibilities, I cant think of any right now

If we persist without consent, and we assume that others do too, why would we think that we just cease when the body drops? we become the others, materially and spiritually - spirit just being conscience/ perception.

I said we cannot understand resurrection, I mean we cannot appreciate it. I saw and understood it after/ during an nde out of body type experience, I cant explain it fully for quite a few reasons.. mostly cos I sound nnuts whin it gets into too much detail, duality is annoying but its just how shit works outside the physical reality we know. Theres also stuff we arent really supposed to know, it doesnt do anyone any favours to know some of the gritty details, plus those details are the most difficult to explain anyway

I have my own Ideas, but talking about this subject is going to be seen as sexist so I want to speak carefully rather than broadcasting my full view and asking for feedback

IMO men tend to have leadership as a core value, where women often have comraderie in the same place, leading men to try to lead groups, and women to concentrate on friends and family

I also might be completely wrong, Im not an expert in these things by any means

I had an nde while meditating on gnosis, goedels incompleteness theorem and accepting my demise. 3 foci is a lot to concentrate on simultaneously but the way I saw it they play into each other very well, gnosis showing that the universe does not work in the expected or seen way our bodies are adapted to, th incompleteness theorem proving to my scientific dogma that science itself is full of holes which cannot be filled, and accepting my demise showing me that my body is not what I am truly worried about in life and death - I worry about something much deeper.

I have been trying to replicate that meditation, but I think the heart attack pushed me beyond what I can normally achieve, or it might be that I need to believe again that I am truly about to die and that nobody wants to help me, I dont want to replicate that belief for obvious reasons but it is causing a roadblock in my wanted journey

I met 'god', saw heaven/ hell/ valhalla. I saw things from brahman/ gods perspective leaving atman behind. I felt such relief and bliss in that space that I want to replicate it, I have heard from people that it is possible to do so on purpose but that techniqes vary from purposely starting an epileptic fit to simply sitting and rethinking the same way as the first time it happened, or to concentrate on a certain body part as a foci in a deep meditation, I have tried and failed to replicate in my efforts so far

I simply want to try things which work for other people, I think if there are any extreme skeptics/ nihilists/ symbolists like myself who are able to do this then they probaby have a close enough mindset to mine and techniques that fit my path better than anyone who thinks of spiritual things in a literal sense.

I have been warned that speaking of gnosis in symbolic sense will get me removed from this sub, but I am a symbolist, I mean no offence and do not wish to discuss that idea on this forum if it offends the mods, please dm me rather than talking about things from that perspective, I really dont wanna get banned from talking here

I have always felt like I don't know enough to teach other people, but having met quite a few green fingered types in the last few months I've only met one person who has a knowledge base as wide as mine for wild foragables. Having money worries too means I'm wondering if it's a possible side hustle. Anyone got ideas what it takes to make customers happy in this area, and what legal challenges might exist?

Ive tried zero dating apps and im sick of them all already. Im sure fellow goblins appreciate my view.

If I look for people by going to clubs and community events I meet very nice people sometimes, havent had any luck, but Im wondering what hobbies other goblins get into? I forage a lot, but only very rarely meet people that way (did get a number after giving a lady a bunch of garlic flowers but I think she didnt appreciate the gesture much lol)

I go to a community garden and christian centre for feeding homeless people. Im not crafty or artistic or even musically talented, so Im kinda low on Ideas