u/Inevitable_Fruit7091

I want to text but at the same time I don’t. We never ended on a firm yes or no, she left me on delivered after I asked if we were over (which is probably a no in of itself)

I want to text because I genuinely want to know what’s going on in her life, if school is doing well, etc.

I don’t want to text because I’ve already tried meeting up 2 years ago and she stood me up, later saying it’s been too long but she still hopes the best for me.

It’s now another 2 years later.

I was reading our old chats and was reminiscing about how we were back then. I really have no intention of forcing us to get back together or even a connection of some sort anymore, just want to check in.

What should I do?

I really don’t want to buy an train ticket home there’s literally so many things I do with $25, ok maybe not but my parents are paying for it and I don’t want to spend their money (I don’t have a spare $25 either)

I live on campus and staying in the dorm with nothing to do gets me thinking about things I shouldn’t and going home to my cat really helps but I’m really wondering if I can just do one more week. I’m going home next Tuesday but I don’t know if I can deal with the weekend during that time..

I usually go home every week and sometimes I’ll stay a week because I feel bad about the ticket money but I’ve never gone two weeks without going home.

By nothing to do I don’t mean I’m actually doing nothing, I go out to the dining hall to eat and to the recreation center on campus and try to move around but that doesn’t help me get my mind off things.

I really don’t want to buy an LIRR ticket there’s literally so many things I do with $25, ok maybe not but my parents are paying for it and I don’t want to spend their money (I don’t have a spare $25 either)

Staying in the dorm with nothing to do gets me thinking about things I shouldn’t and going home to my cat really helps but I’m really wondering if I can just do one more week. I’m going home next Tuesday but I don’t know if I can deal with the weekend during that time..

By nothing to do I don’t mean I’m actually doing nothing, I go out to eat and to the rec and try to move around but that doesn’t help me get my mind off things.

I’ve tried letting it defrost for 10-15mins, running the sides with hot water, but it still comes out with a lot of ice crystals. Is this because there’s not enough fat? I use full fat milk. I would rather not add xanthan gum if there’s other options.