u/InitialToe5472

i just got spammed by 10 different recruiters and they keep telling me i have a great mcat score to lure me in but nope I don’t wanna be stuck in some random country for a million years. plus don’t think my conscience could handle that. goodnight.

I promised I’d never come here but the ptsd wore off and i’m excited to share life gets better.

Just submitted my secondaries a month ago and I remember when this test was the reason why I thought i’d never get to apply.

Please continue to thug it out, try out new study methods, reach out to everyone you know who did well, search up BB, CARS, C/P strategies on youtube. They saved my ass.

You need to thug it out for a few months to open yourself up to multiple acceptances and scholarships!

Wish me luck as I apply, love you all, hopefully we can see each other in the med student reddit or never lmao.

I don’t mean water bottles and pens, I mean patagonia, macbooks, ipads, etc.

I finished my 30 secondaries and am down to add a few more.

self explanatory.

Dead ass funniest thing I’ve ever read. I thought i was being punk’d.

1. what’s your special talent
2. what would you name yourself
3. what’s something you feel you deserved but didn’t get
4. what’s 3 things you don’t gaf about

I literally only know how to tease him 😭 I have a new hot bf-ish. We’ve known each other for 6 months. He’s my age, hot, and genuinely kind.

I’m super ADHD-hyper and he’s very mellow, but he’s also very bold, especially when it comes to flirting. Recently, I was doing his makeup while sitting in his lap. He doesn’t even wear makeup, I just wanted an excuse to touch him and put my boobs in his face lmao.

Anyway, he got pretty riled up and I thought it was fun. But when things started moving toward the next level, I got scared, said no, giggled, and basically went on with my life.

The problem is that I’m a virgin, I really, really like him, and I can genuinely see myself marrying him. I’m scared that if I have sex with him, he’ll leave afterward and I’ll never hear from him again. I know that probably sounds irrational, but it feels very real to me.

I grew up in an abusive household and had a rough childhood. My parents left me repeatedly when I was very young, and other adults and people I trusted left too. So I think intimacy is tied up with this huge fear of abandonment for me.

The idea of being that vulnerable with someone and then having them disappear afterward genuinely terrifies me. I feel like I’d be devastated. I obviously don’t want to rush myself, but I also don’t want fear from my past to completely control my relationship now.

How do I learn to feel safer with someone I love? And how do I know when I’m actually ready to take that step rather than just being scared?

A lot of people are stressing about interviews and everything right now. Chill tf out. Seriously.

Just because someone else got an interview, an acceptance, or something you wanted does not mean you won’t get it too.

And yes, a lot of us are going to get rejected from every school we apply to. 60% to be exact. That is a very real possibility. It’s going to hurt. Some of us will have to reapply. Some of us will have to change our plans. And that’s okay. I also think it’s worth remembering that being able to apply to medical school at all is a privilege.

The process is expensive, elitist, and incredibly exclusionary. There are millions of people around the world who could be incredible physicians but will never have access to the U.S. medical education system, regardless of how badly they want it.

If this cycle doesn’t work out, we regroup. We figure out what needs to change. We try again. And if someone else gets their acceptance before you, CELEBRATE them. Their acceptance isn’t evidence that there isn’t room for you.

We’ll get there. Maybe not all at the same time, and maybe not by the exact path we imagined, but we’ll get there.

And if you remember me from MCAT Reddit, you already know I’ve been around for this journey with y’all. 😂

Keep going.

hi.

- signed, an applicant who’s stressed out but will never be bitter about others getting interviews instead i celebrate them with giga chad gifs

I said it was easy like a dumb ass and scored 2pts higher than my highest FL.

Thank you reddit, i’m not gonna be here again until step 1.

I’m thinking anywhere from 501 - 517

I made a post saying it was easy and psyched tf out of a lot of ppl. That same day I went to bed, woke up at 3am, and almost shat myself thinking of all the questions I got wrong.

All this to say. I’m thoroughly sorry and hope the AAMC scaling mcat gods have mercy upon us all.

Is it just me but being pre-med feels like everyone is waiting for you to drop it.

Ppl always ask if i’m still on the premed track like im a 5 year old who wants to be drafted into the NBA.

Im literally applying this year and ppl don’t really peep that im actually about this life lmao.

This exam made me religious. Now score release has me praying for miracles day and night. Hopefully god doesn’t take me as a hypocrite.

I had an incredibly difficult exam 3 weeks ago. I made duas everyday and prayed hard.

The night before I prayed with my siblings. I quickly reviewed the topics.

Every topic I reviewed the night before showed up on the exam. I said alhamdulilah. The entire exam I recited my favorite duas and kept calm. I performed the best I ever did on that exam thanks to allah.

The funny thing is, the next day’s exam was very difficult. I initially was supposed to take it a month earlier but missed the exam due to nerves. I wanted to take it the next week but was denied due to short notice. So I was forced to take it 2 weeks later on a friday, I begged to take it on the saturday date they said no.

The friday date ended up testing all the topics I’m strong in and the saturday date was the ones i’m weak on.

Alhamdulilah it was all qadr. Praying for a good score!

I have FAP, do they automatically waive the fee or should I request?

i’ve been having my hot girl summer (revisiting situationships, solid core, going outside) but i’ve also been having hot girl nightmares.

i had a nightmare i scored 124 in cars on the mcat 😭😭😭

yall ive prided myself on being a chill normal not neurotic nor crazy premed i can’t anymore. i am the definition of neurotic and im scared.

my score in the nightmare was 130 124 127 131 (makes no sense im not that good at cp im better at cars). anyways lets see if that happens i’m not complaining hehe.

easy af. everything i studied was there.

TIME FOR A BADDIE HOT GIRL SUMMER

IM READY TO WATCH LOVE ISLAND STRESS FREE

tomorrow is the day i’ll breathe again, sing again, go back to pilates, get a tight waist again, go on dates with hot guys again, dance again, go to the beach again.

IM ABOUT TO BE A FREE WOMAN 6/12 is my rebirth!

SHORT STORY:

Hi i’ve been studying for months now. My FL i just got a 512 on FL6. I submitted my primary and got verified but I don’t have a score. Fuck it we ball.

Im tired, emotionally and physically. Low-income student working full time while being abused at home. I also start a cool little masters program that doesn’t have too much to do with medicine (more of my interest) in the fall at an ivy.

Please give me advice, encouragement, and love. I’m tired and literally anything helps.

only thing motivating me is the idea of being a doctor, wearing a bikini + go on dates with hot guys again soon.

Thank you mwah!

LONG STORY:

exhausted and abused premed

hii everyone, i’m an academic weapon with a tough story. i don’t mention much of it at all on my application cause that’s none of their business lol.

my biggest issues right now is that my parents don’t support me at all and have been making this path harder for me. every step i take forward towards a better life their abuse becomes worse.

they’re not chipping in for a single application fee, a coffee, a word of encouragement or a hug. they’re constantly berating me, saying i’m barely their child and that all i have in this life is school. yesterday i woke up to my mom throwing my mcat books at me.

luckily their abuse didn’t stop me from getting a 3.9, attending an ivy, and doing a ton of research + clinical work. but rn my mcat is on friday and im at the brink of collapse. i got a 512 on my recent FL.

I also had to go to the doctor for stroke like symptoms and they were shocked cause im so young.

the mcat isnt the hard part the abuse is. every step i take forward my parents become even more cruel.

please lmk if yall have any advice, words of encouragement or anything. i’m not letting them stop me from being a doctor but my body is tired.

i idealize my bf more than i love him.

i’ve never really had love from my parents growing up. i was abused and tossed around a lot. this forced me to be really strong. i learned to not expect anything not even love from my parents and to fight for myself. that’s how i went from living in section 8 to attending one of the most prestigious institutions in the country. that’s where i met my bf.

he’s actually my first ever bf. i’m not ugly. i have been on a million dates with guys asking me to be exclusive but never had the guts to date anyone. i was too scared. i always had to find something wrong fast so i didn’t have to commit cause that was scary.

my bf is different. he’s a calm but bold. patient and persistent. kind and slightly condescending person who is very loving. i say condescending not in a bad way, he’s just used to being the smartest in the room and kind of is.

his parents loved him a lot growing up to the point where he attended their alma mater studying what they studied. he can give love easily, love that’s always been hard for me to accept. eventually i received it, now we’re dating.

he feels like a safe space for me. he reads bedtime stories, reads my essays, listens to my songs, etc. i’m worried i see him as too perfect rather than seeing him and loving him for the human being he really is.

i’m scared i don’t actually love him. it’s not that i love what he does for me, if someone else did it i’d be icked out (based on true story). but idk.

anyone else from a tough childhood learn to love normally?

also side note: this might not be relevant but he’s hot af. i’ve never liked someone’s face so much.

also: therapy is too slow, ive been through so much fucked shit idk if i have time to talk about how my classes were again. i’ll try again tho.