I can’t stop crying because it’s over.
My Spotify stats say I’m in the top .005% of all listeners and the number was top 15,000 or something I think. I’m both embarrassed and proud at the same time lol.
I’m chronically sick and wasn’t able to make it to any of his shows until the Mathematics tour. My best friend of over 30 yrs and I shared the day together and agree that it was one of our best days we’ve ever had. That show was ELECTRIC AND EPIC!!
We just attended the Minneapolis show on Saturday, and again, we are both absolutely in a state of awe, and blown away by not only his skill, but his artistry, his kindness, and the way he can bring a crowd together. I just can’t get over how good he is!!
I’ve seen many big name artists like Billy Joel, Elton John, Billy and Elton together, lots of Broadway shows etc etc. Both of Ed’s shows knock the shit out of all the other ones. Even when an entire crowd at a baseball stadium is singing Piano Man without Billy in the background. Ed’s concerts take the cake.
Listening to Ed’s music has gotten me through many infusion treatments and the sickness afterwards, breathing treatments, sauna treatments, moments when I get bad lab results, moments when I get good lab results, times when I drink and I’m angry (shout out to Erasure as my angry drinking song lol), and times when I’m high and happy. Or drunk and happy. 😂. His music has been there with me through a long abusive relationship and the divorce once I was able to get out, a recent long term relationship breakup, and a lawsuit as the plaintiff.
I’m a songwriter myself, and I have a degree in music composition and music therapy. I worked as a music therapist for nine years for a hospice until I got sick myself. His music was there for me then too.
And I watched the utter beauty of twinkling lights during Camera, and I will never hear that song the same way again. He sang Sapphire and Celestial, which are two of my favorites. I jumped up and down and sang, laughed, spent time with my best friend while we created our second “best ever day together”. I lived. I lived to see this.
She got us from Minneapolis back to her house and my parent’s house in Iowa (same area). I couldn’t get to sleep until at least 4:30 in the morning. I’ve watched the footage over and over and over again, and I’ve looked online to see what everyone else has. When I left my parents to come back to my home in Iowa, I cried for the first part of the way while listening to Camera. I cried before I even left the house and my parents understood that as a big fan, once it’s over it can be kind of bittersweet.
I’m not really even sure why I’m writing this. I guess to thank Ed for his years of music. For teaching me how to be a better songwriter. For being an inspiration. For being a humble and a good, kind human being in a world that is so mean.
I’m so grateful for all of it but now I just can’t stop crying because it’s done. I have all the beautiful memories, and all the videos and pictures I could take. But I’m sad that he won’t be coming back for a while. And that’s okay. He definitely deserves a break and time to be a dad and a husband. He’s been going at a speed I can’t really comprehend for many years in a row.
But I’m sad, and that’s okay. It’s crazy that someone I’ve never met has impacted my life so deeply in such a good way.
So a big thank you to Ed and his team for putting together a show so overwhelmingly beautiful that it brings people to tears. I will cry, and I will be okay, and I’ll see you at the next show whenever that is. I will keep fighting to live every day, not just for myself and my loved ones, but for moments like Saturday when I’ve felt the most alive since the show in 2023.