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Hi! I wanted to know if there were any volleyball clubs/people to play volleyball with? Lmk in Hillsborough County in Tampa, FL

Hi! I wanted to know if there were any volleyball clubs/people to play volleyball with? Lmk in Hillsborough

Me (25F) and my partner (24M) have been experiencing a few issues regarding my temper and lashing out when I have run out of patience with him.

To him it seems that I belittle his intelligence and his feedback when I am just very much strong willed and stubborn by others feedback.

I feel at any moment im going to lash out again and he’s going to break up with me.

He has helped though my episodes when i wasn’t medicated and now being medicated (because i thought it would help out relationship along with interpersonal relationships at work, life, etc.)

I get so angry at him at times but i fear hes going to leave me. hes truly the only support i have and it seems i am scared to walk away or have him walk away. I get angry at most and kinda lose my patience when I don’t get immediate satisfaction. him and i have monthly check ins and for last months check-ins he told me that he’s very proud i have improved my short fuse and he’s happy to see im taking the relationship serious, unlike my other relationships.

This past weekend i belittled him in front of his friends and he didn’t talk to me until we were home, in private and he said he didn’t like how i treated him, and belittled him so angrily.

Do you guys have any advice on how to control my temper?

EDIT/Updates?
I spoke to him and he basically said he will try and work with me but not at the expense of his or my mental health. he wants me to be less temperamental to others and him. After our conversation, we watched ‘Obsession’ and i wasn’t really in a good place to see so much blood and triggering scenes with self harm and self exiting. him and i didn’t know what to expect nor did we watch any trailers or read about spoilers. he knew i’ve been having a lot of ideation recently with work and with my family and low-key with our relationship , so he apologized for watching this with me not knowing this was what it was. he wanted to know where my head was at after the movie, and quite frankly, it’s not in a good place. the few hours after the movie we touched grass and he tried to distract my thoughts. it’s so odd because leading up to the conversation i had with him, one of the scenes from the movie was how i was picturing i could self-exit to avoid any kind of trouble to anyone. so that was a bit freaky.