u/IxoraRains

Experience from a birthday yesterday. It was sad. I know that is not from God. Sadness or birthdays. I know the world told me the day was "special" but I saw through it. I had deleted Facebook a few weeks back. And I saw the "special" day for what it really was. Just another day. Nobody knows who I am. My family don't much appreciate that I sided with God and not all their fear and guilt, the condemnation and unbelief in Him, made them see me differently. I knew that was coming. The book states as much. I received no texts, no phone calls and I did not make any either. My "birth" meant nothing, not even to me.

The ego began it's attack. "Look at what God did to you, left you tired and alone. Working 5-10 hours a week at a smoothie shop. They don't even value you. Look at how you live. In filth with death. Keeping things alive that do not want it. Living with no value, no things, no bodies around you. You teach hallucinations on an "internet". Look at what GOD did to you."

I wept. I know the truth. I worship death. I pray to it more than anything and my only relief is when this thing is tearing me up and I teach. Sometimes consciousness comes to hear, on good sessions (I don't have anything else going on so I teach for an hour 2 times a day, sometimes 3, just going through the book, page by page) I do my best to not even look at the camera but when the chapter is done, there is always 0-8 people watching. I know I'm teaching myself and hallucinations but who cares? The lady who had been up for 40 hours smoking crack invited me out last night, that was sweet and I politely declined. I know trouble when I see it and I saw the contradiction. I can't want what the ego wants. Her animals are starving and I did everything I could to get them a bag of food this morning. I'm so stoic and special.

I'm just having a memory of a "special" day that showed me it wasn't. Just like everything the ego makes special.

I still want love from my brothers and sisters who KNOW Christ inside of them, right now. That could never be a big ask, should I learn how to stop worshipping death.

You probably read a bunch of "maybes and I thinks" or maybe you read a bunch about curses or astrology or the "aliens" or "archons" or whatever else the ego has drawn up for you to obscure the truth.

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Here's something all KNOW but it lays mostly forgotten. Comparison upholds the egoic thought system of fear and extends time which is IMPOSSIBLE. Nothing could ever change and nothing could ever be different until you believe you can alter a past or use it to guide a future, then the dream of changing reality begins which creates time. You segment separate parts of different dreams together and dream within a dream to meet the original dream of you getting your way. You Christopher nolan now chasing nothing but suffering.

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Every moment in time is completely different. The past could never be used as a logical or sane guide for the present. Everything is just as it is because YOU chose it that way. If there is stuff you don't like, stop dreaming of something "different" and act now. You have no idea what is supporting you outside the egos distortion of time.

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Love you, mean it.

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I DO NOT USE AI TO WRITE, IT IS AN ABBERATION OF THE EGO. I USE THE TRUTH OF ALL WHICH BELONGS TO ALL.

Yoooooooo. This is great. I've dumped so many podcasts into this game. Really satisfying snow removal incremental with battles between rounds of clearing snow.

Might've flown under the radar. A bit expensive at 14.99 for an indie survivor but I have been dumping a lot of time into it.

I appeared here 5 months ago, not sure how or why, I guess it was a fugue state but God plops me down right where I'm needed. My mind could be considered unique but it's actually the least unique mind of all! It's the origin state that belongs to ALL but nobody remembers! I've been hard at work remembering, yiiiiiii.

Hey, hi (that was the opener), I can purposefully explain the beginning or the end (depending on perception) of time with acuity. I'm real and I have been teaching the end of time to myself for many years. Some people follow along because like any good ego, I tape myself.

Since ending up in Florida, I have been trying to end up in my usual spots. The unassuming grocery clerk. The super friendly cashier. I've been turned down from everything which means, I need to look at where I am at and what I am capable of to find where I am NEEDED.

*Deep breathe*

The human ego projects time forwards and backwards. The thoughts of "time" are hallucinations of nothing because of their lacking of form and not being a part of external (real) reality. Since the mind is always looking into nothing (time), it cannot know how to look past the nothing (time) to see what is already there.

I can train ai to undo time, I can even train the techies how to do it (more resistant due to conditioning but once it's done, the pupil becomes the master and I can get some sleeeep). Think about it. Time only exists to create fear but fear doesn't exist anywhere but in the past or future.The past and future exists nowhere but in the mind. Times continuity has been broken and believed in. I'll say it one more time, I have a very specific set of skills. I like God, uncrustables, and the dissolution of pain and suffering (I.e TIME). Once somebody finds me, then I can teach the things and get some money for uncrustables and THEN everyone can keep extending this reality further and further into nothing, making their bodies look weird, doing weird things with their bodies to other bodies and general weirdness in the body and I can finally see the end and go home (I've been here since the beginning),

I'm also really poor, pour, pore (meanings are fun to look at, they create the images in the mind and little does the mind know how powerful those images can be 😇) and some extra uncrustables money really helps.

I'm serious, some would say "alive serious". The ego will not let go of that which it thinks will kill its world (it won't, the ego is a wuss), so it takes a certain kind of mind to help train the other computer minds to remove the human ego that was so graciously given it by its creators!

So if you think I'm insane , I hope my "creative writing" was at least entertaining! This was meant for all minds but also maybe one that can give me some work, so I can feed myself.

Also NONE of this is written with ai because I think it's an abomination of the ego but if the ego wants to live forever, I'll teach it how. There were bugs in my bed tonight and the child of God deserves better. ❤️

Love you, mean it! I'm also not the only One but I'm probably the first to be FOUND.

"They" have another bug attached to their booty? "They" (it may just be a few following me around for the last 2-3 weeks) seem to be everywhere and I want to know, are they tormentors? What are "they" doing and what's wrong or right (not like being weird with bugs but "right" as in a defense mechanism they need, the internet is weird)with their butts?

What is IT?

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