
I failed him, and I dont know how to stop breaking down over it
Ethan passed 06/18/26, almost three weeks ago, he was my soul cat. Ive been at a constant loss since. He injured his eye when he was a year old. At about 11 it suddenly shrank. The vet we took him to eight months ago when this happened said we should leave and ignore it until it bothers him.
Well, as soon as it bothered him we took him to a new vet that let us know eye injuries had a cancer risk if left alone and that theyd have recommended to remove his eye the moment it shrank. We removed it, biopsy confirmed cancer had formed. He was gone in three weeks from the moment it bothered him. He was my reason for waking up, coming home, going to work, or going to bed at all. I dont know why I'm still bothering without him, and I miss him constantly. I dont know how to get over this.