u/JumpDangerous9271

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Hello everyone, type 1 autistic here (24M), where I work they talk about a lot of unethical, disrespectful and immoral stuff, all of them but there is a woman that helped me a lot, I got more cognitive flexible and all, but today I knew that she is just like all of them, I used to tell her all the things they talked about and she acted like she was thankful and interested, now I think she was just having pity about me, they were talking to her about all of the stuff I was thinking I was protecting her from and she litterally said to me that they were just joking (her included) and today she told me "Please, stop", she did not looked bothered littleraly she looked comfortable in that situation, all the shit she talked, about they being degenerates, was pure BS, I do not have anything against her.

The real issue: I don't want to have a personal approach with all of them anymore, that includes HER, probably I will mask and lie if she asks me putting an excuse like "To not cause jelousy of some of the other coworkers that I don't want to have a personal approach, I am not having it with anyone", she is the only problem I don't despise them, neither her, is just that they use some manipulative tactics to get women/girls and approach them in vulnerable situations and have even talked about nasty practices in you know what situation... Yes, they are that type of man. But neither they like me which I don't care by the way (I would be very bad mentally if they did).

Since I don't like them and since is a workplace I will cooperate with all of them, but I don't want to stretch their hand one by one, neither HER, I use to give her hugs and even when I stopped giving her hugs due to thinking she cooperated with them by approving that type of stuff they do by talking with them, she said "And don't stop giving me my hug" and even found weird that I stopped doing that and when to my desk.

Edit: Also my dog that by the way is my personal companion which prevented me from suicide will die from a tumor and found out 6 months ago that he was my emotional service animal and I didn't knew, because I was diagnosed 8 months ago, he pulled me through all of that without me even knowing it, GOSH.