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For context, I had a stillbirth at 38 weeks back in February. I am now 8 weeks pregnant and I am considering whether I should go to a private clinique for ultrasounds. I am in Canada where we have free public health care. Our private sector where I live cost about 200$ per ultrasound. I am just wondering whether you have experienced a better service in one or the other. I think I am just wondering whether there's more tests or better quality services or if there is not difference. Thank you!

I'm thinking of trying again after loosing my first baby at 38 weeks. I want to try again but I'm so scared. I'm scared of failing again and having to live through another loss. I already know I will be so anxious about everything.

Any advice on how to approach a new pregnancy and hopefully be able to enjoy it as much as possible?

I'm already asking myself if I will tell my family or keep it on the low. I'm scared of getting excited and then getting crushed again.

Please feel free to share your experience 🤍

I lost my baby 3 month ago at 38 weeks. I thought I was having contractions and going into labor. We went to the hospital and when I was examined, he had no heatbeat. Everything from there was like we were in a slow motion movie and the worst thing had happened to us. I had to go through the pain and go into labor and give birth with no hope and felt like our future was rip apart.

My sister and two other of my friends had their baby 3 and 4 months before us. We were so excited to be doing our maternity leave together, being parents together and our kids growing up as cousins and friends.

Now I feel like our life is put on hold while they move ahead. I feel like life is so unfair and I always ask myself why us, why me? Not that I wish this to anyone but asking myself why were we the chosen one to have this happen to us.

For the pass week or so, I have been anticipating Mother's Day. Just thinking about it makes me really sad. It's a reminder that I'm supposed to be a mother but I'm not. It's a reminder that we had a baby and now we don't. It's a reminder of the emptiness and his absence in our life. It's heartbreaking.

My boyfriend (without putting pressure) thinks it could help us heal to try again. I want to, but I'm scared of failing again and going through another loss I don't think I will be able to through that again. I had a lateral episodomy. My incision healed really good but I'm scared it will hurt, it's still a little bit sensitive down there. I also heard that any first time after birth sex can hurt or feel uncomfortable.

I'm also scared of people judging us.

Is it too soon to start again? I want to believe it will get better once we try again.