u/Key-Cauliflower-8111

Hi I’m look for any danmei novels where you can’t tell who’s the gong or shou from the physical features. I love when they’re both really smart and good fighters. I’m looking for anything dark with lots of action and suspense. For the dynamic I love the brat taming vibe as long as the gong isn’t too cold or patronizing but is instead obsessive and/or likes the shou’s personality. I also enjoy when it’s basically freakxfreak and they match each other’s weirdness. But feel free to recommend anything else you think is just different! I would like more explicit works but I know how uncommon those are lol. Thx for your help

So like the title said I'm not sure where I want to be a lawyer in. I'm a senior in highschool and I know I want to do criminal law and, hopefully im the future, become an international human rights lawyer. I know jobs for the latter are very scarce but I've heard working in the Netherlands give you more opportunities for it. I've also heard the Netherlands has better work life balance. Of course, being a Netherlands lawyer pays way less then the US but I'm not too hung up on that as long as I make a good salary. I don't mind learning Dutch but I just don't know which country is the better place to be a lawyer. I'd appreciate any advice you have thanks!

Hi, I’d just like any book rec that’s very deep in mind games with lots of action. I loved the first season of Bad Apple the manga (which you should only read if you’re 18+ lol) because of the tension. I absolutely loved If we were villains and Vicious by V.E. Schwab but I’d like something with more fighting. I’d love if the fighting was between 2 guys who get together like an enemies to lovers but very plot based. I loved Global Examination for the action and Strangers from Hell for the whole vibe. The longer book the better but I’d be fine with anything at this point lol. I’d love both characters are equal in intellect and they really hate eachother in the beginning if possible. I just need a lot of mind games and fighting and like you never know who’s winning between the two.

Hi, I’d just like any book rec that’s very deep in mind games with lots of action. I loved the first season of Bad Apple the manga (which you should only read if you’re 18+ lol) because of the tension. I absolutely loved If we were villains and Vicious by V.E. Schwab but I’d like something with more fighting. I’d love if the fighting was between 2 guys who get together like an enemies to lovers but very plot based. I loved Global Examination for the action and Strangers from Hell for the whole vibe. The longer book the better but I’d be fine with anything at this point lol. I’d love both characters are equal in intellect and they really hate eachother in the beginning if possible. I just need a lot of mind games and fighting and like you never know who’s winning between the two.

Hi, I’d just like any book rec that’s very deep in mind games with lots of action. I loved the first season of Bad Apple the manga (which you should only read if you’re 18+ lol) because of the tension. I absolutely loved If we were villains and Vicious by V.E. Schwab but I’d like something with more fighting. I’d love if the fighting was between 2 guys who get together like an enemies to lovers but very plot based. I loved Global Examination for the action and Strangers from Hell for the whole vibe. The longer book the better but I’d be fine with anything at this point lol. I’d love both characters are equal in intellect and they really hate eachother in the beginning if possible. I just need a lot of mind games and fighting and like you never know who’s winning between the two.

I’m a 17f and I genuinely don’t know what’s wrong with me. I wouldn’t say my family is toxic but I would say we are extremely dysfunctional in the beginning. I’m Indian which might account for it but the bad dynamic grew because of how my mom wasn’t the smartest so she had to rely more on my dad. They argued often and should have divorced if I’m honest. They care ab each but there’s no romantic love. My eldest sister is great but she has to be academically perfect. She’s a lot like isablle in encanto lol. My twin brother is fine but I he isn’t the smartest.

the problem is how my family was. I used to get locked in the garage in the dark till I ate all my lunch because I usually didn’t finish when I went to elementary school (I still hate the darkness a lot). I was forced to help my brother a lot academically and when I was in Highschool tutoring my parents kept yelling at me to me to help my brother instead. But when I got an award for my tutoring they just said good job and like the never acknownolwged it??? This wasn’t the first time either, I’ve always been who they ask out homework. my parents also used to hit us??? Which I know sounds bad but the stopped and we’re Asian sooo. what really struck me was how once my dad hit me, I didn’t cry, and he looked at me and smiled and asked how I didn’t cry. My Dad also called us stupid and other cuss words when we were probably way too young. There are probably other things I don’t remember (my memory is trash lol) but i grew up very repressed and I never really new how to cry infront of people (when I learned how to cry silently as a kid I was very proud) (idk what this is but I also want me to have something bad happen to me like idk why)

And because of the family dynamic where my sister was the smart one, my brother was the strong one, I felt like I had no place in the family so I lowkey became like the therapist and helper. I became my dad’s therapist and I tried tog et him to im his life (didn’t really work, he goes through life like it’s a cycle) and I stopped knowing how to say no. I have improved from that and then became the well known ’angry daughter’ but i’m just tired.

with my family I‘m just dull and I don’t say much anymore. With my friends I’m better and can act happy but if I focus too much on my emotions I feel still and lonely and just hollow. I used to wonder if I had Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder but now I think I just have depression idk. I don’t like doing anything and I even doomscrolling as someone who hate doing so. I just feel like whatever emotion I feel is an act. I just imagine dying and how peaceful it is. while I don’t think I would pull the trigger i don’t know if I would stop anyone from doing so. I hate eating and I just want to rot away

i dont really know how to talk to anyone about how I feel either because i dont feel comfortable saying anything to my parent. and And I don’t feel comfortable talking to my friends because their parents suck and mine really aren’t that bad compared to them.

whats worse is my parents are now getting better and it’s like my siblings are forgetting how bad they used to be. I feel like im over reacting because I used to wish so much to leave this house and now I just wonder if im a problem.