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This has been a lifelong issue for me but has become very difficult to deal with in the past year. I think my energy is too ‘open’ which results in me feelings others’ feelings, sudden telepathic thoughts from them, being very affected by spending time with others, people visiting me in dreams etc. I also have this struggle with spirits trying to connect with me…
Isolation and ritual baths have been the only solution so far.

I’ve noticed a big difference in personality and thinking after regular ritual baths from M1L7. I’ve always struggled with OCD - now there are significantly fewer obsessive thoughts. If they appear, I can quickly shut them down. Less emotional reactions to anything that upsets me. And if something does, I no longer ruminate about it for weeks… I started getting into emotional balance much more quickly while just a few months ago I would spiral very, very badly to the point of meltdowns. Also, the weirdest thing - my ambitions and drive to amount to something came back. I’ve been so lazy and unambitious for the past few years. Now, the change is slowly coming back.

I also feel less emotionally attached to people. Before, I could ‘feel’ their emotions and thoughts towards me. Certain people would regularly appear in my dreams. It’s gone for now. I have less tolerance for chaos and toxicity. Also, can’t drink alcohol at all anymore.. I am just very proud of myself considering my age…

I don’t understand how i’m supposed to deal with aftermaths of trauma, outbursts of rage, sadness etc while being a natural magician and not to attract parasites and stay balanced. I feel like I can’t feel. I cleanse myself regularly but the emotions, also very strong ones, still arise. I try to control them but suppressing doesn’t help and just leads to rage. I can’t stay emotionless all the time.

No idea how many of you heard of it or am i the only one in the dark about it but I just came across Kurt’s arrest in 1992 for domestic assault. He allegedly pushed Courtney to the ground and started choking her 😬 If that’s true, then the whole image of him being the misunderstood, empathetic, feminist artist is just straight performance.

https://archive.seattletimes.com/archive/19930701/1709039/nirvanas-kurt-cobain-arrested-for-assault

I am fascinated with Courtney’s life. Are there any good biographies that focus on her, not just Hole?

Ace of wands Lovers King of swords

He wants to create (Ace of wands) a sexual relationship (Lovers) while being an emotionally detached man (King of swords)
Lovers makes me think of a love triangle or another woman 🤔

My father was scammed around 20 years ago. Big sum of money… So much time has passed and it’s still hard for him because he wasn’t paid for the work he did. What specific psalms would you recommend?

Y is obsessed with me and i don’t like him. I texted X his friend and told him i don’t like Y. I asked him not to tell but idk.

Garden Cross Sun Child Ring
Interpretation:
Trying to socialise with him (Garden) caused a burden of problem for me (cross) and now everything is open (Sun) and is perceived as innocent (child) and is part of a cycle? (ring)
i can’t interpret it 😭 i think he did

I’ve noticed something unusual happening to me after praying psalms outloud. I’ve asked another practitioner about it and he said it’s very odd.
After praying banishing or protection psalms (91, 140, 7, 35). i’ve noticed intense stress, irritability, stomach pains and frequent sleep paralysis. During sleep paralysis I am either beaten or kept in certain places against my will. Could be a neurological issue, of course.
Strangers become odd and sometimes aggressive towards me. People react to me differently.

Negative effects mostly happen after those but even blessing psalms affect me strongly. Intense dreams, being shown certain information about people. I feel energetically and psychologically overwhelmed the next day.

I asked tarot about this, got Hierophant, Death, 7 of cups, 2 of swords and Hanged man. For advice, 10 of swords, 8 of cups, 6 of pentacles.
Is it a sign i should just stop?