u/Key_Confidence_2579

I’ve experienced hyper sexuality from my very childhood, the cocsa I went through isn’t really something I heard much about or maybe it’s because I tend to invalid my experience all the time so it’s hard for me to relate because I feel like other people had it worse, but what happened involved the person touching my face as well as my hands with their genitalia (we were both girls) without asking while we bathed, during that they repeated phrases from a violent porn video we saw and before that they threatened to do it to me if I don’t listen to them, is it valid for me to assume that my hyper sexuality came also from that? Or am I just reaching because I often feel like I’m just being dramatic

I’m dating my current partner for 3 months now, and throughout that they always mention wanting to kiss, tried to make a move but we never kissed and they are overall rather pushy to be intimate, I rejected most of those interactions because I’m simply still not comfortable with intimacy due to cocsa I experienced in my childhood, it’s really hard and I know I’m disappointing them because I asked for some more time and they said that it’s hurtful towards them when I don’t match the energy, what should I do? :(( I’d like to also mention it’s my first ever relationship

im from europe, ive missed out on entire highschool experience bc i got homeschooled during those years, it was my choice so i dont blame my parents but im sad i never got to experience highschool, im extremely lonely but plan on going to normal collage, does social life get better there?

For context, my relationship with my girlfriend is really falling apart and I’m going through it but when I text the people that always promise they are there for me, I get ghosted or just really vague replies. And it just happens constantly, in situations like this it really just seem to prove my point that nobody will care if I die or harm myself

im kind of confused on this matter, is the machine god sort of like new gods or more like ascended god? or something entirely different, also if it is an ascended god, why was Reila right as a vessle? sorry if this question is silly, im still rather new to terminas lore