u/Kgy_T

I have been out to my family for about a year, and even longer to my friends and I am so fortunate to say all of them are very much accepting, and supportive of queer people in general (except for my brother who won't accept me, but at least doesn't hold it against me).

However, this raises a bit of a problem.

My only two sources of euphoria are being referred to by my chosen name, which has become the norm, but for that exact reason went from causing intense euphoria for hours, to causing barely noticeable euphoria for a few seconds. (Except when it's from complete strangers in videogame voice chats, in which case the original amount of euphoria comes into play.)

And the other source being times when I act out in a stereotypically feminine way in the games I play (dressing cutesy, picking the female characters, using certain emotes etc.) which causes mild euphoria for anywhere between 2 to 10 minutes per instance (they however do not stack).

Luckily for me, there is a supposed quick fix to this issue, the so called "good girl phenomena".

Over the years I have seen time and time again posts asking people to call whoever made the post a "good [gendered identity noun]" in the comments, and if the countless replies can be believed, this somehow provided the poster with euphoria in much larger amounts and higher intensity than any one of the tools currently at my disposal.

Unfortunately I don't think the method works on me.

Here is what I can say from experience.

Receiving this praise through text does not work on me.

Receiving it from a cis-hetero ally is just okay, but it doesn't make me feel euphoria.

Receiving it from a stranger outside the queer community grosses me out (I imagine this is a feeling similar to what being catcalled is like).

Receiving it from a friend would probably cause intense euphoria.

Receiving it from my boyfriend would probably turn me on and cause the highest euphoria I've ever felt and then some.

But my friends will probably never say it to me in person because they don't know me as someone who would like that, and my boyfriend is long distance so without his physical presence, just receiving a text would prove ineffective.

All that just to ask... can this be fixed? Can I feel euphoria from these magic words?
And if not... is there a similarly effective and available trick or solution? (mtf)

It's may be a small thing, but I'm desperate because I need to balance out my dysphoria that is disproportionate in volume compared to my euphoria.

I've come to make an announcement. The Witness is a bitch-ass motherfucker who finalized my fucking wife, that's right, he stuck his Nazi looking-ahh arm out and finalized my fucking wife. And he said his arm was THIS long. I said, "That's not true". So I'm making a callout post on my vannet account. Witness. You have a small arm. It's the size of this Arc soul except way smaller, and guess what, here's what my arm looks like!

Cut to The Traveler in the sky

That's right baby. All Light No Stasis. No Strand. He finalized my wife, so guess what, I'm gonna finalize the earth, that's right, this is what you get, my SUPER CHAOS REACH!!! Except I'm not gonna finalize the earth, I'm gonna go higher, I'M FINALIZING THE MOON!!!!! HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT, IKORA? I FINALIZED THE FUCKING MOON, YOU IDIOT!!! You have 23 hours before the

m o o n d u s t o f E r i s M o r n

hits the fucking Earth, now get out of my fucking sight, before I finalize you too!

I'm legitimately interested.

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I've been meaning to switch champs for a while and when Aurora released I was really happy for a platera of reasons.

• First of all I really liked the creative mobility in her kit, her invisibility and her burst.

• Second, she has a somewhat similar playstyle to Pyke (I have 4 million mastery points on the champ, and has been my otp since his release).

• Lastly, she shares her name with one of, if not my all time favourite, singer and song write Aurora Aksnes.

However, I barely ever play solo lanes, farming consistently is a nightmare for me if I have to also pay attention to literally anything else in the game, and so I was wondering if Aurora is forgiving enough of a champion to start playing solo lanes with (as I've seen her taken to mid and top as well), and start one-tricking down the line.

I'm not gonna bore anyone here with my story, but trust me, when it comes to suicide and depression I got my credits.
And as someone like that, even though I never played the game, or the remake because I was afraid of what it might trigger in me, listening to Tyler's story in this video and the previous gives me courage, hope and confirmation that even though I might relapse time and time again, and trip and fall the right thing to do will always be to stand up. Not just for others, those who care about me and love me, but for myself.

I am a human just as much as anyone else, and I deserve a shot at a happy life. Just yesterday from this post I made a serious blunder and spiraled (that could've gotten a lot more bleak if the friend I reached out to didn't help me break out of it) after doing very good in recovery for 3 years. But I am not gonna let it define me, I'll learn from it and when I'm weak I'll lean on those who are willing to land a hand. Because there is always people like that.

I guess what I'm trying to say is: if you are out there reading this post, and you zoned out for a couple minutes staring at a kitchen knife at the dinner table, or closed your eyes and fell back first into your bed while picturing yourself taking flight from the local bridge to the bottom of the river, I'm on my knees begging you to please talk to someone, doesn't have to be a professional right away, but someone who wants what's best for you needs to know. And then you'll figure it out if there is in fact something to figure out. Be kind to yourself and believe me, and/or the people telling you that you are valuable and precious.

It's very easy to shut the blinds and start twisting facts to serve certain narratives that make living a life of hard truths easier, but the complexity of these situations is exactly what makes them managable, survivable. Thinking in extremes is easier but thinking rationally is a lot more forgiving to all parties involved. Please if you catch yourself smearing and/or erasing things that are matter of fact, just sit back for a minute and consider accepting reality instead. If there is a relationship gone sour, talk it out. If you yearn for something, let your friends and family know. If you suddenly notice a brick in your hand, stop building walls. I've been there, I had my Fort Oasis and I paid the price dearly. If there is one cardinal line of advice I hope with all my heart that you take: be vocal. As long as you're social you are safe. Keep it up!