I am trying so hard and I am still so proud of my little accomplishment of staying clean for a short amount of time but it’s getting harder again.
Anybody got advice, please? I don’t want to relapse, I really don’t
I know it may not be much to others but I’ve been feeling very bad these days and still managed to stay clean even when I wanted to cut really bad. I am very proud of myself and wanted to share it with you guys. I’ve got a lot of support from this community since I first started posting here and I want to thank all of you. You guys are amazing people and I’m sending much love and hugs (or a thumbs up for those who do not like physical touch) to all of you❤️
Idk what I keep doing wrong. I really don’t. I can’t do this anymore, I just want to die today. Idk why I’m never enough for anyone. He didn’t merely tell me that we can’t be friends anymore, no. He blocked me before I was able to respond. I suppose he really hated me then. I’m so sad, I just want to disappear. I really liked him as a friend too but I’m never enough for anyone. Ig I am really that unlovable.
Can anybody talk to me, please? I just need some comfort and support. I beg you :(
He knew I struggle with sh and depression too. I feel like I am at my absolute lowest rn and nothing seems to make it better. I have the urge to cut but I don’t want to cut over something like this. Anyone?
Title says it all. I just want to cut. Idk who to talk to either. I am just so sad, I’ve been crying so much over something so stupid and mundane all day long except when I slept to make it stop. The only times I felt okay was when I wasn’t even conscious.
I feel so lonely.
I can’t think of any. So far I only ever got to dermis (barely) and I want to cut deeper. Anybody give me some reasons not to, ty
I‘ve just been crying non stop the entire day unless I was asleep. Idk what to do anymore.
Cut myself just now cause a guy I started to like randomly got confessed to and I am basically left on delivered for hours since he met that girl.
I’m happy for him, really am. She seems to be a very sweet person and he deserves the best, just wish I could have that happen to me for once.
Weeks prior, he randomly said he’d not want to be more than friends with me due to the distance. Never mentioned dating him, idk why he felt the need to reject me for no apparent reason. It hurt either way. Furthermore, his new uh situationship (?) is even further away from his city than I am. Ironic.
All of this only makes me feel even less lovable. Am I that bad? Is there nothing about me that’s worth pursuing? I suppose not. I downloaded a dating app out of desperation but I will probably delete it soon.
I don’t think I’ll confess anything to my friend, first come first serve I‘d say and again, she seems to be a very kind person. She is a lot better than me, I hope it’ll work out for them.
I should just listen to myself for once when I say I give up on dating. Like fr. So much drama for nothing.
Edit: some support would be really nice, I need some comfort rn, please :(
I am a bit embarrassed to post here but I don‘t know what else I could do.
I have tried my luck a few times in the past but it seems pretty hopeless right now, my crush leaving me hanging in uncertainty and me just not being into dating apps.
It’s important to note that I am depressed and have been for a couple years now. Furthermore am I rather introverted in person, anxious and am on the aro-ace spectrum. I am aware this can be quite off putting to a lot of people and I understand that completely. I sadly do not have many hobbies either due to my mental health issues but I’d appreciate if someone would introduce me to some fun activities or share their hobbies with me which makes me feel included.
I value loyalty and honesty, a good sense of humor but also trust.
When it comes to looks, I do not have many preferences besides basic hygiene, please ;-; (bonus points if you are alt)
As for my own appearance, I’m around 1,65 - 1,70 (I genuinely do not know for certain). My weight is a more sensitive topic. All I can say is that I’ve been underweight my entire life.
I’d call myself a wanna be goth but I’m working on self expression. If anybody has some makeup tips for a baby bat, let me know.
I am interested in storytelling, Character design/OCs, drawing, DIY and I love to listen to music.
I also like to play a game every now and then, mostly on Roblox because I’m broke af (judgement is allowed lmao)
I am also obsessed with cats btw!
If you are sensitive regarding mental health topics then I am not the right person for you.
To anyone reading this fever dream, I hope you‘re having a wonderful day.
I honestly do not expect a reply but in case someone does reach out to me, thanks in advance.
Much love!
(If you find typos, it was my cat)
I can’t even scroll on social media in peace without being hit with gender envy and strong dysphoria. I really need some advice how I can survive these moments without going absolutely insane 🙏
I want to cut but have no blades, truly one of the most nerve wracking things ever. I feel so lonely rn, I don’t even know why. I have friends and family and still feel lonely.
I want to cry but my meds make it incredibly hard to do so. Cutting at least would make it possible to feel something else, something that can distract me from everything but I have no access to any tools which sucks. Harm reduction can only do so much for me. Sometimes I wish my friends would finally find these posts of mine to realize how fucking miserable I am. I could tell them but I doubt it would land the same way as these posts would.
Sry for this shit rant.
One teeny tiny argument that won’t even matter in a couple hours and I already want to cut myself. Tf is wrong with me, seriously? I don’t get it. I really don’t. Anybody else got an explanation for me? ;-;
It’s so annoying. I swear, one day I’ll spill water and will immediately have the urge to cut myself. It’s nuts.
Ig it’s cause I made my friend mad and I feel guilty or some? Idk, my meds make feelings hard to access but that would be my theory. A GAME THEORY.
I just want to cut, I want to cut so bad but taking care of them is so tedious!! I hate it. The other cuts aren’t even fully healed yet and I doubt I have enough bandaids either.
Self harm sucks.
I‘m so bored rn, idk what to do. Anhedonia sucks and all I can think of is cutting myself. Anybody else ever dealt with this? Any alternative that might work when I feel this way? I feel so restless and uncomfortable. Everything is warm, too tight, restrictive and bland. I hate it!
It’s been years since I last told her. The last time she lashed out, demanded to see my injuries and crossed multiple boundaries.
I cut myself the first time yesterday and I am already running out of bandaids so, I decided to tell her. She was calm but ofc pushed for details that I didn’t want to disclose. I’m actually surprised I held my boundaries this time. I feel awkward now. A lot. I asked her to not treat me any differently now and she agreed but I bet she will either way.
This feels so weird. It feels like I confessed a crime lol
How do I shower with fresh dermis/styro cuts? Thanks in advance :)
Cut myself the first time, how tf do I stop the bleeding?! I have no idea what flair to use either
I’ve had depression for five yrs and still have to explain going outside won’t cure me. It’s so annoying! Anybody else‘s parents like this?? Why tf is it so hard for them to understand fresh air won’t fix my brain?
I’m so tired of this bullshit, it makes we want to scream at the top of my lungs and smash my head in.
„My friend‘s son-„ let me stop you right there um..I don’t care! :D
Not even 9 am and I already got rejected and someone I trusted turned out to be a scammer who used my mental health problems to gain trust.
Wow. Just wow.
I just want to disappear.
Love bombing, coercion and now this. Why tf does this shit keep happening to me??
Idk how to cope with this rn. I just want to scratch or cut but ig my laziness can come in handy for accidental harm reduction by making me stay in bed
I am nothing but a fucking loser who’s just wasting away every single day. I can’t even cut, I only scratch. Can’t even do that right.
I don’t contribute anything to society, I’m just a waste of space. I feel so worthless, I have no value.
I’m just a boring idiot who sleeps or cries all day because he doesn’t have anything better to do!
Sry for this bs. I just need to vent my frustration.
I feel better whenever I vent here sooo yeah, I’m back at it again.
I am so overwhelmed with everything rn. I just want to skip all of this.
About to move to a new place and have to leave yet another home behind. I’ll start an apprenticeship soon that I am not the right person for, don’t even know why I was accepted in the first place. I’ll probably not even be able to attend the first day.
On top of everything else: family issues and just me giving up on dating as a whole. „Just put yourself out there“ „the right person will come along“, shut the fuck up.
I want to cut so bad. Idk how to cope with all of this. I can’t deal with this, it’s all too much.
Sometimes I have the impulse to text ppl and tell them that I’ll kill myself. I would never do such a thing (obviously, it’s giving manipulative and as if I’m trying to guilt trip them or some). I am also not suicidal so I have no idea where that impulse comes from.
Sry for any errors. Stay safe and much love to anyone who’s reading this crap❤️
I just want to die today.
I don’t consider myself suicidal nor do I actually want to die, I am scared of death, but I am so miserable.
I hate it, I hate myself, I hate my life.
I want a normal and happy life but instead I have to deal with dysphoria, ocd, depression and social anxiety with little to no treatment. I am so exhausted, I want it to stop. I wish I could sleep for an entire day and take a break from being conscious for once.