Birthday/getting older
Hi. First time making a post here. It's my birthday today. Every time it's my birthday, I feel depressed -- can range from mild to severe -- and I hate having one. Nothing ever happens on it, negative things always happens, and it feels like any other day to me, so I feel numb to it. It's a depressing reminder of getting older, too. (Ageing is natural, I know, but it changes things about you). My birthday makes me feel lonely, too. I don't have friends and close people to spend it with either -- likewise in general, daily and weekly, too -- so I feel like I'm not part of the world, and don't feel happy. It doesn't matter to me if my birthday gets remembered or not. Got too used to not caring about it -- not many cared about mine anyway. Does anyone else experience these things on your birthday, and in general?