u/Kitty_Skiz

Hello everyone!
I am a 41 year old female that is into horror, I smoke weed, I love gardening but I am only ok at it, I meditate regularly and I practice Buddhism. I am looking for people who I can connect with on a real level. Someone who wants to just chat with another human and exist. I am looking for someone who I can send letters and cards to and make fun art on my paper and I love stickers too. I really am just looking for genuine human connection. All genders, nationalities, sexualities, cultures are welcome. I have a 19 almost 20 year old son and a partner for almost a decade. I am not looking for anything romantic or sexual. I grew up in with two moms and I am bi-sexual, I consider myself part of the queer community. I have ADHD and would love neurodivergent connections as well! I am pretty open and really am just looking for someone to share the imperfections and joy of life with. 🖤

Hello everyone I am 41 and female. I started at 230 pounds around September-ish of last year. When I first started I wasn’t really watching I was just kinda trying. Backstory is that I have had “transient” thyroid issues where sometimes when they test me I am hyper and other times I am hypo. They’re calling it sub-clinical hypothyroidism. The problem with this is that 1. They have no idea what is going on and my diagnosis feels made up. 2. I have the fast heart rate and anxiety of hyperthyroidism and the weight gain of hypothyroidism. 3. I have struggled with weight loss immensely. 4. I was competitive level fit when I first got sick in 2020 (125 lbs 5’4) and the weight gain impacted my mental health. It took me A LONG time to feel comfortable being active with my heart rate issues. I was also immensely depressed. (Picture of weight graph in comments)

In March I got a Tempo Move (absolutely amazing machine) and it’s basically a gym and a trainer in my house on demand. Its changed my entire life and helped me feel comfortable lifting/working out again. I am eating in a calorie deficit and working out now between 3-5 days a week depending on my school and work load. (I am also a full-time student). I am down to 188 pounds with 16 total pounds lost since March. I have cut out any fast food and focus on eating healthy (protien/fruit/veggie/whole grain) rather than “dieting” (not cutting out all crabs or sugar i moderate). My question is what is considered “normal” weight fluctuation? Is it normal to go up and down two pounds throughout the day? I see that my overall trend is down. I am also weighing everyday considering I have the thyroid issues and I am currently not medicated because they say it’s “transient” even though it’s been 6 years. I do this in case I need to use the weight as some sort of evidence about my weight loss because the doctors are completely dismissive about any weight loss questions. They tell me do the healthy eating classes I have. I have turned down GLPs (not out of any judgement I just am not a huge medication fan and I am afraid of the muscle loss) although I would consider this as a last option to help me drop down to a healthier weight if I needed to.

I have a week or two were I am “stuck” at a weight (I still fluctuate day to day) where I’ll be like 193 for 1.5 weeks then I’ll maybe drop to 192 or 191 the next week then I’ll drop to like 189 and be stuck there for a week. Sometimes I’m consistently heading down week over week.

My question is does this fluctuating seem normal to everyone or is this something I should bring to talk to my doctor about? Like I am putting the effort in but not seeing the results I should, maybe we should revisit the thyroid? Or nah just keep pushing this is totally normal? I appreciate you taking a look at this for me. I just want to make sure that I am advocating for myself if I need to (this whole situation has been wild.) or if this what I should be looking like at this point giving myself some grace and a pat on the back. Right now I’m just kind of living in the land of “I’m really trying and I hope this right”.

I would love any advice or help. Please don’t mean to me though. I’m quite fragile. :) thanks guys!

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